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:: 2003 27 June :: 11.35 am

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair

And it feels, and if feels like
Heaven is so far away
And it feels, and it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
Black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me

I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade, I would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven is so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold now that you've gone away

Gone away, gone away, yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah

And it feels, and it feels oh yeah

Don't sell your soul, no, no

I reach to the sky
And call out your name
Oh please let me trade
I would

And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven is so far away
And it feels, yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

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:: 2003 24 June :: 12.22 pm
:: Mood: worried

Im worried about my grandpa, hes in the hospital again, he has a rather serious infection in his arm that if it spreads to other parts of his body could be very dangerious.

I just ask that you keep him in your prayers, he has been a big influence in my life, hes been the only father figure thats been good to me... i just hope he'll be ok....

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:: 2003 15 June :: 2.26 pm
:: Mood: happy

just today
Well, the morning started out crappy, by bro usualy wakes up 15 mins before me and takes a shower so when i get out i can get one too, well the dumbass gets up at the same time, i slowly get out of bed and i hear him sprinting to the shower....ass.... well so i had to rush ya know, eat like a energy bar, take a shower and brush my teeth at the same time, get into my church clothed brush my hair and out the door, well, we got to church and it was a good service, so then afterwards we had cake for my grandfathers 85 birthday, that was fun, then i just hung out with my lil cusins. got home, ate lunch, and now im watching nascar, and newman just bursted into flames....thats nice... i wish it was gordon, but what ya ganna do, well just felt like updating... not much news..but still...good times, good times

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:: 2003 14 June :: 12.06 am
:: Mood: angry

found sumn that makes me mad...
http://www.ffextreme.com/ffx-2/wallpaper/ffx2-16-1024.jpg


WTF IS TIDUS DOING WITH LENNE!!!! IMA KILL THE DUMBASS!!!

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:: 2003 6 June :: 7.07 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: whatever happy music u want it to be....

just today
yeah so we went to jackies house today, but for a lot of the time it was only me, kristy, rachel, and ray. AND THEY TOOK THE ANIMATRIX!!!! evilnessessess.... well we just hung out, played ddr, listend to music, went outside for a while, then they got back and we watched alot of the animatrix on jackies awsome angled couch lol that was a cool couch.... but yeah im hoping soon well do sumn at my place, cept yeah, my house isnt all that great, but im sure ray and rachel can just make out in a corner and we can play video games, computer stuff, movies, or i guess our yard is good for some sports, ooo and kristy can finaly see our horses, everyone else to i guess....lol....anyway this is getting kinda sorta long... well to all the guys, if u come to my house be prepaired to play airsoft. lol, it dun hurt all that much, heck to make it actualy hurt i usualy wear a sleveless shirt and shorts, but u wooses can wear long sleves i guess.....


yeah...... well i guess that about it

;.; im ganna miss kristy when she goes to france, corse i dont envy her, besides the eifel tower and the cheese i dont like france all that much..... meh.....

so yeah se ya!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2003 4 June :: 8.54 pm
:: Mood: happy

w00t!!!
today was one of the best days of my life, went & we all hung out at kristys, that was awsome!!! ^.^ yeah its all good, got grossed out by some of the tampon comercials on the movie thing we were watching ;.; lol but other than that i had a blast! we'll have to do stuff like that more during the summer. well se ya'll later

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:: 2003 3 June :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: powerman 5000- free

i dont know what it is, sumns itchen me inside, its been there for a long time but its just always been so little so small, but now its coming out, its just this side of me ive never seen before, dont be surprised if im not myself.... i dont feel like myself. If i could give u guys some advice, just keep your distance. i need to find out whats going on on my own.

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:: 2003 1 June :: 2.19 pm
:: Mood: decent
:: Music: gorillaz (19-2000 )

updating
time to update the journel, so yeah, im happy cuz the stupid european football is almost over, god they suck at football....the lions could beat them x.x thats pathetic but true.....so yeah, im going to blyfield tongiht, that'll be cool, but mostly im just chillin being bored


moooo

well se ya guys monday!!!!

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:: 2003 30 May :: 8.35 pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: FFH-take me as i am

im confused
i dont know what it is about tonight, i had a great night, went to a oriental place for dinner, got to talk to friends for a while, its a pretty good day, but theres something out of place, sumns wrong, you know that feeling you get when u know sumns wrong but u dont know what it is.... ah hell i dont know it might just be damn hormones, yes sometimes guys have problems with em to, but i just seem, well really really upset... i mean earlier i went outside and started punching a tree till my kuckles couldnt take it anymore... i just dont know whats wrong, i dont like being angry, but i dont know how to stop it... i apologise in advance if im rude to anyone... depending on how long this lasts for.....

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:: 2003 26 May :: 4.57 pm




(dunno if the pics ganna work...but if it dont go to http://live.quizilla.com/user_images/T/trinitykills/1052781471_sQuiz3tank.jpg)

You are Tank, from "The Matrix." Loyal till the end, you spare no expense in ensuring the well-being of others.

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:: 2003 26 May :: 3.10 pm
:: Mood: hyper

dream
w00t i had the coolest dream last night!!!! lol i was street racing a jetta! but it was like completely suped up with like nitros oxdie n' stuff, cept in the last part of my dream i got hit in the side and my car fliped and started on fire then blew up, thats when i woke up.... but still I WAS RACEING THE CAR I WANNA GET!!!!


lol, well se ya, and yes i did post this because star posted her dream so yeah...

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:: 2003 24 May :: 11.51 pm

only 1 should understand
as you wish....

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:: 2003 21 May :: 8.52 pm

Feelings
These feelings are new to me, they are great feelings im feeling better than i ever have before, but it is a risk, but im confident that it will all work out for the best.


When i look at her it just lights up my life, her eyes, there unlike anything ive ever seen before, her beuity is overwhelming, and i cant believe the way i feel.


Im afraid one day i will wake up and it will all be gone. I will never have known her and i wont remember a thing, the feelings gone, it would be worse than death....

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:: 2003 18 May :: 4.31 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

secrets
i hate secrets...the ones that linger, every second you keep them it feels like another red hot iorn dagger pierces your heart. Im reaching my breaking point... i wont be able to keep this in much longer, but i know when it comes out... i fear it could be devistating.

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:: 2003 13 May :: 7.35 pm
:: Mood: moooo very mooo

chillin
Today was good, just chilled, after school april cheated me out of a dollar though.... :( lol well anyway after school was fun exept i got hit once then jess was kinda right up in my face for a while lol. But it was cool, before school i felt kinda weird though, if matt knew he prolly wouldnt be to happy. but ray u tell her or did u still leave it up to me????

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