swimfan14
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2006 4 May :: 11.22pm
Tonight is just one of those nights where I can't help but think about this.
As much as I try, it's never going to go away.
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Angel_Bob
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2006 4 May :: 10.00pm
Well. I am a sophomore now.
I don't even know about France anymore. It's just too much money. We can't even afford the $500 "down payment" due tomorrow.
I don't even know if I want to go. It's just going to be more money that I feel guilty about my parents spending.
Ignore me, I'm on the rag.
I will be working 12-5 on Wednesdays, 9-5 on Thursdays and 9-4:30 on Fridays until I get another job then I'll hopefully be working every day.
I'm going to get my car fixed this weekend (or at least get an estimate on the cost of such fixing).
"Singing" while driving makes me happy.
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Angel_Bob
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2006 4 May :: 8.27am
Today, I have my last exam.
Then I will be done with my first year of college.
Wow.
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angel_bob
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2006 2 May :: 9.45pm
The man behind Neutral Milk Hotel, Jeff Mangum, is a genius.
Pedro the Lion is also a genius. You've got to admit that the rhythm and timing of Rapture perfectly captures sex.
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angel_bob
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2006 1 May :: 10.00pm
I want to drive my car.
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sportsgirl
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2006 1 May :: 3.59pm
Today is one year since my mom passed away.. *sigh* Very sad day.. :-( I want to thank all of you who were so suportive of me.
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Angel_Bob
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2006 30 April :: 5.54pm
The Dumbing Down of Love by Frou Frou was played on this past week's episode of Bones.
It made me giddy with recognition tingles.
That is a good song.
I love you all.
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swimfan14
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2006 29 April :: 4.13pm
A lot has changed lately.
My dad called me on Thursday and told me that my stepmom was moving out. I don't really know what to think of this. At first I cried but then I realized the whole reason why I was crying wasn't because she was moving out it was because I was just scared of what was going to happen and I didn't want my dad to be alone and it hurts me to see him hurt. I guess I don't really have feelings towards this. I think it's for the best. I hated her anyways. Once she moves out my dad wants me to come over Tuesday-Thursday because he is always in Detroit all week and we need someone to take care of our dogs but there's no way I'm moving in there. I'm not going to be at a house all alone and plus once Summer comes I wont even be here anyways so it's not going to work out. I don't know what we are going to do and we are also going to put our house up for sale and move too. This whole thing is really stressing me out.
So then today my uncle needed me to drop something off at my dads so I planned on going to see my dad anyways so when I'm about five minutes away my mom calls me and tells me my dad called her and said that I can't come over right now so I wanted to know what that was all about and I called him and he said that my stepmom was there and that it just wasn't a good idea for me to be there. I got pissed off because I basically drove out there for nothing and my uncle still needed me to drop something off at my dads so I just went over there anyways and dropped it off and I walked out and then my dad came after me and we got into this huge fight and it ended up with me crying and leaving.
And now my mom and I are also in a fight because of this whole thing so I pretty much feel unwelcome at both of my houses.
She couldn't take one more day
Home was more her prison now
Independence called out
She had to get it
A fight was all she needed
To give her reason
She slammed the door with no goodbye
And that it was time
Now she's driving too fast
She didn't care to glance behind
And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye
In other news besides all the bad things that have been going on, Prom was awesome. I don't really feel like talking about it because Prom is Prom but it was really weird because everyone kept telling me last night that I looked like Mischa Barton and my Prom dress looked like her Prom dress that she wore on The O.C. and the episode just airred on Thursday so a day later we had almost the same dress. Hmm..her and I ... pretty much the same person.
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swimfan14
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2006 29 April :: 1.21pm
You know what? I actually thought I wanted to be your friend and now I have no idea why. No idea.
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Angel_Bob
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2006 29 April :: 10.55am
So, my mom didn't realize it was a sleep-in so it looks like I'm not going.
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angel_bob
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2006 29 April :: 10.03am
I don't know how much of you know about the "nightwalkers," the tens of thousands of children in Uganda who "fear abduction by the Lord's Resistance Army, leave their villages every day to seek refuge in town before nightfall."
There's a nationwide sleep-in protest planned for today and one of the locations is here in Grand Rapids.
Hannah and I are going, so if you want to come too, call me before 6 tonight. Here are the details. They tell you what to bring and stuff.
Some people are walking from GVSU/Allendale to this thing and, rumor has it, some people are walking from Hope/Holland too. The goal is to walk at least a mile so you're commuting (a little bit) like the nightwalkers. I think the people I'm meeting up with (Emily) are going to walk from Aquinas.
Oh, it's at Rosa Park's Circle, I don't think I mentioned that.
If you want to come, call me before 6 tonight.
I love you all.
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Angel_Bob
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2006 28 April :: 5.24pm
It's Friday!
Today my sister has her choir dinner theatre. I'm excited. She said the choreography is horrid so I'm looking forward to laughing with her. Or at her. Ha ha. She's a good sport.
I am hot. Wink wink, nudge nudge. It is very warm and beautiful outside. I am excited for spring. However, I am quite distraught because all the trees in my yard are the only kind of trees that don't have leaves on them right now.
The kids who're in France right now are coming back on the 28th of May. So it looks like I will be gone for 5 months. I'm going to France! Sometimes I forget all about it and it just surprises me. I am scared shitless. I will be GOING TO SCHOOL in a FOREIGN COUNTRY where all the classes will be taught in a language OTHER THAN THE ONE I HAVE BEEN SPEAKING SINCE BIRTH and one that I have FIVE YEARS of experience in. Yeah, I'm freaked out.
Lalalala.
I have exams next week and then I am done with my first year of college. Excitement!
I love you all.
P.S. Jessa, now I see what you mean about his family. She's being a poopyhead and you should just kill kick her. I was going to leave her a nasty message but that wouldn't be nice. I'm trying to resist the temptation.
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swimfan14
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2006 26 April :: 11.48pm
Gotta love those akward moments.
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angel_bob
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2006 26 April :: 10.25pm
I'm pretty sure iPods die after about a year.
Mine needs wiped and reset but I'd like to get my music off first.
Pretty please, Julio.
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