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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 26 October :: 11.47pm

across the universe.
i went with a really cute boy
who gives me butterflies
and who makes me laugh
i mean genuinely laugh.
like i used to.

i wanna hold your hand.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 25 October :: 11.29pm

this could potentially be
a really great thing.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 15 October :: 4.19pm

it's happening.
i'm moving on.
and it's beautiful.

it feels amazing.

the butterflies are back.
and i've never felt so relieved.

it honestly brings tears to my eyes.
not because i'm sad.

i feel... clean. done.
i am wiping my hands of you, and it is so satisfying.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 16 September :: 10.55pm

he's had a new girlfriend for a week.


sweeeet.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 9 September :: 6.43pm

this weekend was amazing.
i am looking forward to orlando with everyone.
my third period class may just make school worth going to.


but only maybe.
zack is in my first period class.
i. have. to. see. him. every. day.
it really is killing me.
i hate crying myself to sleep over this shit every night,
knowing that he hasn't even thought twice about it.
he's moved on. to an older, easier girl.
she isn't even good looking.


every time i lay down to fall asleep,
this shit is all i can think about.
it's burned into my fucking mind.

even when i have a great time like this weekend,
i still end up feeling so horrible and sad.

i never did anything to deserve this.
what a jackass.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 2 September :: 9.46pm

i have a freckle on my lip.

Read more..

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 31 August :: 8.27pm

i broke up with zack.
i'm really glad i did it.
it still feels like shit.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 14 August :: 11.27pm

i've got too much on my mind.
in time you'll find i'm worth figuring out.
this is why i drink, baby.
and i give myself away.
yeah, i give me all away.

it is what it is.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 25 July :: 11.43am

i saw him. even if it was only for a little while. he hasn't changed a bit, except for he lifts weights now and doesn't look so boney. he's still really skinny, though. i love ryan. he's such a good friend. we've been through a lot. he's doing really well there, he gets to come home early, too! september or october and he should be back for good.

and i'm almost happy again.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 1 July :: 8.02pm

i'm leaving the country tomorrow!
i'll be in germany for a while.

see you soon, woohu.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 27 June :: 10.00pm

stale doritos
have never tasted so good.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 24 June :: 1.39am

i fucked up so bad.
and i just want to fix it.
but i don't know how.

i love zack. so much.


and i really hope we make it through this.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 21 June :: 11.31pm

my boyfriend wants to kill himself
what a dick.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 19 June :: 4.16am

adrenaline rush.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 15 June :: 9.55am

i still love blink 182.

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