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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 31 January :: 8.43pm

modest mouse's new album comes out 5 days before my birthday.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 29 January :: 7.54pm

you're gone. it's unavoidable.
i don't know why i'm waiting it out.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 26 January :: 9.42pm

painting over the past
the walls are covered,
and the smiles are gone.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 20 January :: 6.22pm

my eyes are open.

and i'm seeing things i never let myself see before.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 12 January :: 7.44pm

i'm starting to realize,
i'm like a leech;
i cling on to people,
and it drains them.


this is my downfall.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 6 January :: 9.13pm

i broke today.

i can say that i'm done.
but in my heart i know that's not true.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 5 January :: 6.24pm

i'm not very stable right now.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 1 January :: 4.59pm

i should be happy right now...
but i'm not.

happy new year.
day one and i can already tell
2007 isn't bringing anything good,
anytime soon.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 24 December :: 10.35pm

merry christmas to all.

and to all,
ihopeyouhaveabetternightthanme.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 20 December :: 10.48pm

i have been
hurt,
lied to,
and used.

but above all,
hurt. beyond repair.
and i am done...


with all of this.

honestly, just fuck off.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 15 December :: 10.26pm

"if you get to college and you feel like its easier than highschool, than we've done our jobs."

i am sick of school.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 6 December :: 10.28pm

everything that has happened in the past week or so has felt hazy, almost druglike.
not in the good way. in the sense that things move either really fast or really slow.
i can't tell the difference between reality and dreams.
i didn't sleep for 4 nights in a row.
and now i've been sleeping for entire days at a time.
i don't want to die. it's just that i don't like waking up.

i'm sick. both mentally and physically. i threw up blood yesterday.
i'd like to think it's just nerves but i've been feeling light-headed and dizzy today.
something is wrong. but i want to wait it out and just shake it off.


people think it's just because of the break up.
it's not. sure i miss him. but i wasn't going to spend the rest of my life with him, and i realize this.
i just let myself fall too far.
i'm not sure if i should try moving on. he called me and said he wanted it to just be a break and that he was really sorry.
it's confusing. he's confusing.
he kissed me yesterday. we didn't mean for it to happen.
but i can tell stuff like that is going to happen.
i can tell he still loves me.
because we just looked at eachother and got caught up in it.
i don't know why he's doing this.

i need to take a walk.
or do something to clear my mind.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 1 December :: 11.45pm

i'm heartbroken. newly single.
and in love with "just a friend."

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 30 November :: 7.06pm

things are slipping away from me.

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2006 17 November :: 2.06pm

i can't do it.

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