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2002 10 June :: 11.36 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Dashboard - The Sharp Hint of New Tears
people in general go through life like lab mice in a maze...
Most people in life don't take time out of their busy schedules to stop and smell the roses. They don't take in the scenery of where they are. Not enough time to enjoy where they are. Even if you are in the ghetto of LA, there is beauty to be found. Most just don't look hard enough to find it. A lot of people also take what they have for granted. I am guilty of this. But once in a while, I will stop, and say to myself 'Holy shit. You have got it pretty good.' For example, a lot of kids today expect their parents to buy them a nice car as their first one. A lot of the people I know had to pay atleast 1/2, and some all, for their car. I have also found that if you have a part in paying for a car, you, out of pride and necessity, tend to take much better care of it. The kids whos parents buy them cars, tend to wreak havoc on them, and when they are done with the cars, they tend to be left in steaming piles of scrap metal left to rot away in some bleak, lifeless junkyard out in Iowa. They didn't learn respect for the things that are given to them. They probably would have had more if they paid for some of it. A lot of people also go around life not knowing where they are going, what they want to do, or why they are doing what they are. For most of the last 4 years, that is how I was. I have myself to blame for that...but the situation wasn't helped at all by the relationships I had. I was left feeling like I had been emotionally beaten with a lead pipe, and then run over by several large vehicles. Earlier this year, I took the time to think. About everything. This started a night we had a rather bad/good thunderstorm. I sat outside of my slider, in a patio chair on a cement slab...in a raincoat, of course...I looked up at the sky and I just got lost in my thoughts. When I got done for the night, I felt somewhat relieved...happier. I guess in a way, it lifted a weight off of my shoulders. It was refreshing. After a couple weeks of this, I've come to be the person I am now. Most of you won't notice a difference, that's because most of the choices I made affected me personally, my family, and my future. I know what I want. I'm willing to work for what I want. I'm up to the challenge. And I'm willing to wait. Goodnight all...
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