wow, amanda,
i just don't know where to start, i have been so incredibly happy these past few days - i can't believe how good it feels to have no complaints about anything, and to just be fully able to ENJOY life - FINALLY! i'm like emotional about it, that's how much of a relief it is lol...
alrite so yes, where to start - -
first off, your classes - amanda i am so incredibly happy for you, that is amazing - i always knew you had way more potential as far as your grades went, and to know that you are getting these grades is just another reason for me to be happy :)
and the whole "re-discovery of randy" (hehe) - does not sound wierd at all, there are always aspects to a person that you'll continue to discover no matter how much you hang with a person - - my parents always say that every once in a while they STILL learn something new about eachother - (25th anniversary - October 28th!!) and goodness, when am i meeting this man of yours? i can't take it anymore! lol...
next topic - your mom, - - for some reason seems like a sensitive subject that i'm not sure how to respond to, except to say that i will pray for her - and i'll tell my mom to do the same (without telling her why, assuming you wouldn't want me to...) - - at the same time tho, i feel like as if you should also pray, no matter how much you may dislike her - and your prayers may result in her finding God again, there is always always hope - i remember the time where you wanted nothing to do with God, yet its like you totally started over, and from talking with you not only on here but also on the phone, i just sensed a dramatic change in you - a beautiful one... let yourself have compassion for your mom - - ~~~~~SOMETIMES, LOVE IS A CHOICE~~~~~
i always have to remind myself to not taking my parents for granted - sometimes i almost feel bad/guilty for having parents such as mine - although i have realized a couple of times - - some people can work through when they have family problems - i, for one, know that, being the person that i am, would've easily crumbled without the parents that i have, and God chose to give me different struggles in my life... idk, just a thought...
on to randy's mom...goodness gracious, i am not exactly sure what i would do.. altho somehow i trust that randy would be firm enough if he had to with his mom - and she obviously hasn't given you a chance, like some people unfortunately choose not to do... one day, she may come to question herself as to why she does what she does - and i have faith that you two will actually become friends one day - may not be soon, but one day, it will happen. just keep praying. - - and its not wrong for you to care, not one bit.
and oh my goodness - i will pray EVERY DAY that i'd be able to spend the summer with you! ESPECIALLY for your wedding! aaahh, so much fun and excitment, wow - can't contain it! :)
hehe, okay, i'm calm now...
alritey - so, since i've last written to you (it's really been a while, hasn't it?) ...
in fact, right after i wrote that huge long entry to you (the God is great one) - - i found myself dialing elaine's phone number, unsure of what was going to be said - but she was home and not busy and so we were able to talk... for TWO HOURS ... i hadn't want to tell her how i had been feeling and such over the phone, but i found that she was going on vacation for 10 days, and i wasn't sure if i was going to Pure Life practice the next day, and i knew if i didn't say anything nothing would change... and so yea, i'm not going to go into detail here, because i have to be getting off soon...
but goodness really quick, here i go:
ah wait, no i've taken too long - hehe, it's 10pm, i'm getting the "Juulliiee" up to bed call.
so i will write to you tomorrow morning in study hall!
i love you so.
~Your Julie-girl~
(i like that hehe)

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