Best years of your life???

:: 2005 24 July :: 1.52am
:: Music: Kaki King- 'Neanderthal'

Eleven days til' New York.

1 halla | halla back

:: 2005 22 July :: 12.42pm
:: Music: Sufjan Stevens

It happened very slowly.
But it's definitely happened.
I'm sick of myspace.
I deleted all my interests cause Shawn said something last night about how I basically have my whole life up there.
And I dunno.
I'm sick of the pictures and everything.
I'm just over it.
Today is one of those "over it" days anyway.
Right when I woke up, I wished I was still asleep.
Blah.
Keith and I are..
I dunno?
I'm jobless.
My room's a mess.. AGAIN.
When I get all.. the way I am now.. my room usually starts to accumulate more clutter.
I told Tom I'd go to Miami tonight, some club.
But I really don't feel like spending $10 to dance.
I really don't feel like doing much of anything today.

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:: 2005 21 July :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: fuck.
:: Music: Cat Power.

oh child.
So far... I've accomplished going to the beach with Kiersty. And I got some coffee. I think Kiersten and I talked about everything under the sun. I heart her vetty much. She went home to do Pilates, pronounced.. pill-oddies. lol. Now. That whole job thing. Yeah. Going out and looking for a job is the equivalant to stabbing myself in the arm with a very large and sharp knife. I need to shower. iwillgetajob, i WILL get a job. Fingers crossed.

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:: 2005 21 July :: 3.34am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Dallas Green

Ten-thousand times, I will scream, over and over until you notice me.
Miss Kiersten Weng has inspired me to start up my woohu journal once again. It's been a very long time, but tonight, after reading through hers, something sparked in me to get back into it again. I think it was the fact that the only person that ever comments on her journal was Greg and still, she kept on writing. She stayed faithful to woohu, even after it stopped being "cool." And for that, I salute you, Kiersten Weng, this bud's for you! Okay sorry, what? The point is, my journal is.. BACK IN OPERATION AS OF NOW (Take note of that Kiersten, since you'll probably be the only one reading it lol) It's 3:38 in the morning and I've been cuthhhhtomizing my journal. I took a two hour nap this afternoon, so, that could be why I'm not very tired. Let's make a to-do list..

To-do: Thursday, July 21st, 2005

Beach with Kiersten 10:15ish.

Go home, shower.

Look for job at following places:

Stir Crazy

Bru's Room in Deerfield

Macaroni Grill?

Uhm.. any other random restaurant..

Call PF Changs if they haven't contacted me by 3pm. IF YOU'RE IN THEIR FACE, THEY'RE MORE LIKLEY TO HIRE YOU.

Get a money order thing from Publix for licence crap.

I guess I should try and get some sleep, though I doubt I'll be successful. Let's hope I actually keep up with my journaling. [♥]

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:: 2005 22 May :: 12.12am

I think I'm drunk enough to drive you home now
I'll keep my mouth kept shut from under lock and key
That's rusted firm, no lie
'Cause all these conversations wind on and on....

:: 2005 17 March :: 10.30pm

i miss my woohu.

:: 2005 8 January :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: the pixies : i bleed

don't apologize, i hope you choke and die.

I'm so content, but at the same time I'm so unhappy. Is this possible? How can i be feeling two opposite feelings/emotions, so strongly? I'm lonely, but not necessarily for love, for a true friendship. Anyone that I've thought I would be able to trust has let me down one way or another, I have no one anymore, but myself. I just want that one person I can call up and turn to, no matter what, when, or why. I want that person I can tell EVERYTHING to and not have to worry about them saying anythign to anyone else. I have a best friend, who I love dearly, unfortunately I cant trust her..and that's where I get lost. The one person I thought I could trust I can't, it made me question everyone and everything. I'm so very unhappy & I just want to curl up into a ball, and never open up again. I'm off to work, I wish that building would burn down, so I wouldn't have to work there anymore, die steakhouse, die.

6 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 29 December :: 4.40pm

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get, <3.

:: 2004 18 October :: 7.01am

it just makes me so mad, I can't live through another Victoria, or go through another case of that. I can't lose "him" to a friend, I'd die. I did that for 4 years of my life, I'm not doing it for another year. Im feeling so much regret right now, I just want to curl up in a corner and scream and cry and sleep and just never have to get up. And btw, I don't want to go to Beastie Boys tonight, I don't want to do anything. AHHHH! Alright, I"m done.

5 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 30 August :: 6.47am

I still like him, I still want him around. I miss his 2am phone calls, I miss the beach at ngiht with him, I miss him hanging out w/ me and my friends. And I can't stadn the fact that he won't talk to me, fuck you, immature bitch.

1 halla | halla back

:: 2004 18 August :: 9.03pm

its official, i was not meant to be happy.

ASDHFJSDK

2 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 18 August :: 9.25am
:: Music: Radiohead - 'Motion Picture Soundtrack' (Acoustic)

Sinking like a stone in the sea.
The beginning of Demolition Lovers by My Chemical Romance is really good. Actually the whole song is pretty good. Too bad the rest of their stuff isn't so impressive. Harold and Kumar is a stupid movie, no matter what anybody tells you, it is indeed NOT the funniest movie on this planet. Old School is. Forever and always. And Anchorman. And Napoleon Dynamite is up there too. "What're you gonna do today Napoleon? WHATEVER I WANT! GOSH!!" : ) Lindsay and I saw a baby sea turtle tonight. Cute. Very cute. And there was lightning in the sky. Lightning at night always looks so surreal. Flashing behind the clouds. I guess because it's just so beautiful. Were not used to it. What makes a person considered "depressed"? Is it just because they're so weak that they have to label themselves? Have a stable disorder to blame their actions and thoughts on? Is it because they are too weak to crawl out of the dark? But it's only dark sometimes.. so it all seems so hypocrytical. They have candles. They're fine until the wind blows. And pills aren't the answer. Covering up what's r-e-a-l, seems so wrong. If you feel it, keep feeling it because it is what it is, and washing down white oval pellets with tap water isn't the way it should be. But it's the way you've conformed to. Hiding your fears and pain behind a watercolor sun that runs down the pages but you'll forget.

:: 2004 2 August :: 7.46pm

I miss freshman year so much. I was thinking about it today, and I got sad. I miss my friends from then...the six of us. I miss it so much. fuck growing up.

:: 2004 20 July :: 1.57am

I leave for alaska, tomorrow. dont miss me too much<3333