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2004 8 April :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: whole
:: Music: Cold - Bleed, Cat Power - What Would the Community Think (the album)
You can stop the world but you won't change me.
It's too bad about this whole having to pay thing. It's cheap but meh, i'm not gonna pay to have people read about my life, if you wanna know, call me. Anyway, i'll take advantage of the little time i have left with this here journal of mine. I'm kinda gonna miss it. My favorite entry will always be the one i wrote about my ex and his stupid toy. I've experienced heartbreak, and since then, i've moved on, something i truly thought i'd never be able to do. And now, im fine and working two jobs and my options are open. I feel good about a lot of things, yet still i have my moments of sadness. Blame it on being a girl, that's how we are i guess, blame it on my music, blame it on the way i want everything in my life to be just like a movie.. blame it on the fucking moon for all i care. The point is, i like who i am right now.. i like what im doing and i like that i can say i do believe i've grown up a lot since a year and a half ago, when i first started writing in here.
Life for me right now is.. exactly the way i want it to be.
With all of that said.. let's move on..
Yellowcard and Something Corporate is on Saturday. Ya know.. shows like that would be even more awesome if they told certain people tickets were sold out.. i just hate fighting to see a band i love because the girl with the trucker hat on next to me wants to be within reaching distance of Andrew's ass. BUT.. i'll block it out, because it's sure to be a kick ass show. Seriously though.. if Something Corporate plays Konstantine.. i really think i'll die.. just fall over and die happily, because that song is the essence fucking beauty. I could listen to it repeatidly for the rest of my life and still never get sick of it. And if they don't play it, I'll be pretty upset, i hope, i hope, i hopeee. Today was my second day working at PacSun. I was on the registers, i caught on pretty quick but there was a few things i messed up on, nothing huge though, just like gift certificates and store promotions and stuff. People are so nice in clothing stores though, as opposed to customers at Fridays i guess cuz they're hungry and grumpy and meannn. At PacSun people are like hiii do you think this looks gooddd? I think once i get to know the other people who work there better i'll really start to like it a lot. Lindsay works there but only at night, and me in the day. And.. can't hate that 30% discount, though i'm not really into brand names. Meh there's just something about being a walking promotion. I prefer style over status.
And..
Well...
I guess that's about it.
Gotta work at Friday's tonight, 6-12.. asked my manager when i could be a server, he said probably in about a month. And that my friends will be a wonderful time because i could really use the cash.
I love everyone.. even you
peace.
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2004 6 April :: 3.40pm
Aww, I have such amazing friends. Thank you to Lauren, Heather, Drucker, Paige, Jessica, Sarah and Maria! I got awesome balloons and Lauren, Heather, Paige and Drucker decorated my car, how cute! Thanks guys, youre the best<333
<3dowdster.
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2004 31 March :: 11.35pm
There is no such thing as "pleasing your parents." I brought home my report card today and I was so fucking excited, 2 A's and 5 B's, that's the first time in 3 years that I've gotten all A's and B's, and my mom still find something wrong. "MANDY?! why do you have 6 absences in Holocaust, that is unacceptable!! All I wanted was a 'Wow, Mandy great job, keep it up.' instead I got an unacceptable, heh...great. My birthday's on Tuesday, and as of right now, I just don't care.
-mandyy-
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2004 28 March :: 1.57am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Thursday - This Song Brought To You By a Falling Bomb
I m a g i n e all the people living for today.
i slept all day
and when i woke up
i remembered again why sleeping is so perfect
like a drug
swallowing whole all the impurities and complications that burn through your brain in the form of a thought
thoughts, that, when awake, you'll never be able to ignore
well i found a bit of inspiration
and i contemplated my life
sat
bled those ever so familiar thoughts
and ended up right where i was yesterday
blank
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2004 26 March :: 1.33am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: watching Shallow Hal
We're all alone in this lonely world.
Today was okay? Slowly made my way out of bed around 12:15 :-\! Called my dad and WE ORDERED MY PROM DRESS! Then I got ready to go shopping, went and picked up cake mix, cookie stuff, a card and a balloon. Also along the way I bought myself some sushi to much on :-) haha. Got home, called Lauren, she loves me so she came over to supervise my baking? Haha, She is the cooking master, I just suck. We made a cake, and made cookies. Lauren left for work, and I brought the cake and cookies to the theatre. We sang Happy Birthday to Solange, and we ate the cake, by we, i mean, Solange, Deborah and I, hah, go girls! Then I came home, and went and saw Me and My Girl congrats to the cast, the show was excellent! Came home, complained to my mom that she's starving me, and now I'm bored. I had a glass of milk for dinner, and it was damn good ;]. Here are some pictures because again, I have no life and all I do is post pictures of myself, and the people around me. :-)
<3mandyy
x to the o.
 The cake I made Solange for her birthday =)
 Her cake while we were singing Happy Birthday, the damn sparkler candle!
 Solange and the cake! Look how pretty the birthday girl is!
 simba sleeping<3<3
 My dog peanut, he just woke up 8-)
 My mama gave me this on St. Patty's day, isnt it cute?
 Lauren's sexy new tattoo! And no, it isn't 69 for all you sicko's, it's the cancer symbol, Laurenized.
...me
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2004 23 March :: 12.42pm
Heart of Crystal
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
brought to you by Quizilla
=)
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2004 21 March :: 11.11pm
This is the dress that I want, and I'm gonna get it, someway. :-\
<3mandyy
p.s. opinions would be grately appreciated.
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2004 15 March :: 12.09am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: outkast // roses
How do you say goodbye when you never want it to end?
Okay, so somehow I managed 16, almost 17 years without ever having to say goodbye to a friend. But unfortuantely things don't always stay so good :-(. After work tonight I went over Stephen's to say goodbye, because he's leaving tomorrow. I got there, gave him pictures, a letter, and the damn RISK game. Shoes were thrown and then we played Simon Says. I had to leave at 10:45, to make sure I was back home no later than 11, and that was that. As I walked out, I was like wow, not that hard. And then it hit me, who knows when I'm going to see stephen again, so I got into my car, and just cried, I cried so fucking hard. I hate it, saying goodbye sucks. SO all in all, tonight sucked...hardcore.
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<3mandyy
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2004 13 March :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: reassured
I'm not quitting, well not this week. I'm gonna give it atleast another week. Tomorrow I'm talkign to my manager about "the situation" and I think things might be okay? Lauren took a little 'consenses' tonight, and only one person (Maggie, ugh) said I should quit. And my manager said he isn't going to let me. That made me feel so good, I was starting to doubt things. A lot, I definitly thought that people there didn't like me, like I was still "the new girl" but I know that I'm not, and that's all that matters, right? right! So thank you Lauren, it meant a lot. Your message is saved on my phone too, cause it made me happy. Other news, this whole Mauricio crap is over, done blah blah blah. So yeah, things are looking up. Me and my mom are really good, and things with my dad are really good. Now that things are happy, Im waiting for the bad thing to fall down on it. I'm off to bed, this girl's got a headahce.
<3mandyy
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2004 12 March :: 9.46pm
So basically I've let her get to me, and I'm 99% sure that Im going to quit the restaurant. The worst part about it is that I'm so inlove with my job. But, work isn't suppose to be as sad and hard as it is, and I'm not suppose to have this many issues with people, well with them. So come sunday, I think I'm giving my notice. I'm not happy about this, but I can't leave work like I did tonight. And, I think getting the job might have been a mistake. I'm just sad cause I found something I truly loved to do.
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2004 10 March :: 4.10pm
I need a fresh start, a new place, a new everything. My mom is always talking about North Carolina and when I graduate, that's where shes moving, cause she doesn't want to take me away from here, cause it's where I've been my whole life, maybe we can move now. I think I'd actually like that :-\
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2004 10 March :: 4.10pm
I need a fresh start, a new place, a new everything. My mom is always talking about North Carolina and when I graduate, that's where shes moving, cause she doesn't want to take me away from here, cause it's where I've been my whole life, maybe we can move now. I think I'd actually like that :-\
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2004 10 March :: 4.10pm
I need a fresh start, a new place, a new everything. My mom is always talking about North Carolina and when I graduate, that's where shes moving, cause she doesn't want to take me away from here, cause it's where I've been my whole life, maybe we can move now. I think I'd actually like that :-\
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2004 10 March :: 4.10pm
I need a fresh start, a new place, a new everything. My mom is always talking about North Carolina and when I graduate, that's where shes moving, cause she doesn't want to take me away from here, cause it's where I've been my whole life, maybe we can move now. I think I'd actually like that :-\
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2004 10 March :: 4.10pm
I need a fresh start, a new place, a new everything. My mom is always talking about North Carolina and when I graduate, that's where shes moving, cause she doesn't want to take me away from here, cause it's where I've been my whole life, maybe we can move now. I think I'd actually like that :-\
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