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2002 26 July :: 2.33am
ick. 2:34am I woke myself up purposely (I know you said not to but I couldn't help it.. been doing it since 9...) and you're not here :0( ehh.. slightly disappointed but hey.. some people actually sleep at night huh? lol I'm talking to Matt right now (brodie)sooo its not alll bad... i just wish i could talk to you, thats all... I look forward to talkinng w/u around 8... <3 good night
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2002 25 July :: 12.58am
tonight was loads of fun! sooo many people in the woohu chat!! Made some new friends which was cool & Jenna found me a new emo boy lol <3<3
HI MATT!!! heh. & Teresa! and Josh ... yeah.
Things are pretty much back to normal.. cept according 2 that stupid personality thing i'm guna go kill myself or something.. Vivi, antisocial?!? NOOO!!! sleep! good night <3
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2002 24 July :: 10.44pm
Michiganders... how stupid sounding :0P hehe us Floridians are FAR cooler then EVERYONE! ah. well not really but :0) heh.
Michigander.. have fun 2nite.. i'm glad we straightened things out and such.. i really missed you <3
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2002 24 July :: 8.42pm
o boy... is this telling me something??? lol
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2002 24 July :: 6.21pm
Suddenly I feel very much relieved... Communication... what happens when there is none ::sigh:: almost 100% better now though... no more hurt, no more crying.
u.o.y.k.n.a.h.t
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2002 23 July :: 9.30pm
its all so mechanical,
i almost wish you could see the tears streaming down my face,
god it hurts so bad,
i can't make it stop
-stop stomping on my heart...
suddenly i recall memories of why i don't give my heart away,
have i began paving my own path of destruction?
how can i fix this situation
how can i fix my heart...
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2002 23 July :: 9.24pm
waiting is what hurts... i wish you'd understand... i know you can't, i don't know how... maybe i'm just selfish...
s.t.r.u.h.s.i.h.t
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2002 23 July :: 9.06pm
as i sit here and tear my heart out, where are you.. why aren't you holding me like you always promised you would... why have you left me here alone.. what have i done to you, why do i deserve this... i hate you for doing this to me... i hate myself for letting it get like this... why can't you just love me...
rambling. seems as if thats all i ever do. Confusion hits like a tornado... I begin to question myself, what do i really want? yes. It has taken a 3rd party to make me realize how confused i truly am. My poor heart is being torn in all directions..yesterday.. i thought i knew what i wanted and yet today i am once again lost. Make my decisions for me for my indecisiveness will forever be the root of all failure.. my failure.
e.m.p.l.e.h
on a lighter note... Craig (camp director) pulled Zach and I out today & told us that we were the best counselors in the camp!!! go us!! heh. That really made my day... Zach and I make a pretty kick ass team :0)
after a bit of reluctance I gave him my #... he hasn't called but I'm beginning to think that wasn't such a good idea...
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2002 22 July :: 7.48pm
"It's now 2:45 and I'm feeling all adventurous and I just wanted to just throw some caution to the wind and say that... I think I love you."
The only thing that scares me more about this is... I very much think that I feel the same way...
...uoy.evol.i
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2002 22 July :: 7.06pm
today... was a GOOD day!!! :D heh. First day as a camp counselor for Camp Invention. My partner in crime (the other 3rd grade counselor) Zach and I had such a good time today. Yes. Zach and I are the counselors for the Zeppelin group (3rd grade) we have a group consisting of 23 boys and 5 girls... the kids have absolutely no attention span and i swear, they don't know how to shut up! Despite how bad our kids are Zach and I had such a great time! For just meeting in a day we really hit it off.. you would never guess that we'd never met eachother before today :0) This week might not be so bad afterall heh. Good stuff.. anyways.. had a t-bone sectional today, loads of fun :0) we played for a lil while then got food and stuff. We are now up to 7 t-bones!!! Made me beary excited heh.
Twister 10: I am a Tbone chick. Hear me roar.
heh. Jessica's sooo funny... ohhhh look at the ideas for the t-bone shirts this year
1. BONERS... its not our fault ours are over a foot long
2. T-bones.. we do it in 7 positions!
3. ahh.. i forget lol
Cast your vote!!
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2002 22 July :: 12.48am
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over, and over again.
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over, and over, and over again.
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing, and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far.
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.
I give you my destiny.
I'm givin' you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am.
At the top of my lungs, I'm givin' it back.
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hand and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.
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2002 20 July :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: bouncy
hey all. im in seattle me and reid just came back from swimming. cold as hell swimming is in seattle. its good stuff here, i feel like im still in florida. its nuts. i miss you kids, ill be home in like 10 or 9 days, i dont know. ill call you tonight heather. <3 bye kids.
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2002 20 July :: 3.08am
after all that airport hell, I am home. Happy to be here although i miss all my new friends soo much. The trip was overall really fun despite the little issues. Vince and I resolved our fight to only start another 4hrs prior to my leaving (3am Greek time!) It was sad when i left.. We cried, Jenn & Alicia were balling like crazy and it was sad. The guys all came out (all guys minus Vince<- with good reason.) when we were leaving, it was sad.. lots of tears and pictures and hugs and promises to keep in touch. The Athens airport was pretty busy for 3am.. crazy. we flew to Frankfurt, Germany where we split with the Texas kids (that was sad too) Vinh and I managed to get ourselves lost but soon found the gate. The flight was long and delayed by 30min. We finally arrived in JFK airport(NY) 8 hrs later. That was horrible. We got VERY lost and were aimlessly roaming around the never ending airport. Finally we got to the gate and thats when the waiting began. we got there at 1:30pm. Our flight to Ft.Lauderdale was at 5:45pm. We were waiting there and I heard an announcement over the loud speaker saying that Ft.Laudy passengers could switch to an earlier West Palm Beach flight if they wished. I went right up and changed my ticket. Yes. Now 5:25 pm to West Palm Beach. Due to crappy weather the plane was delayed until 5:55pm <- not bad considering the Ft.Laudy plane was delayed from 5:45 to 7:40 <- ouch! yes well. we boarded the plane around 6:00pm. Late. O well, earlier the Ft.Laudy. This is when hell part deux struck. Crappy weather plus runway traffic.. we sat on the plane from 6pm-9:30pm when we finally took off. I was asleep by then. My cell phone battery died so i went to bed. Fun. Well arrived in the WPB airport at 11:55pm. Good to be home. its now 3:15am and I can't sleep. Figures right?
...disappointed you weren't on...
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2002 15 July :: 2.35pm
sooo much drama.. everyones mad at everyone else. Vince and I are no longer talking. Fun. O well. lots to tell.. lots of pics to post!
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2002 15 July :: 2.27pm
I am in Tolo, Greece for yet another night.. our last unfortunately :0( I love it here and am going to run off to Greece one day heh. yes. I was very disappointed that my llama boy wasn't online :0( i'll try to call but no promises. i think i'm guna use my credit card ehh.. who knows.. i have an 11:30pm curfew so i'm outa here in less then 2 hrs :0( good night all.. i miss you. specially you llama boy..
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