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2008 1 June :: 8.43pm
I went to a baby shower this afternoon for the girlfriend of my parents' friends' son. It was long, but it made me very worried at myself. My body or my mind, I'm not sure which at this point, is telling me that it's time to have a baby; but my logical mind says "ohhh, no way, not yet."
And that's a good thing. I want to be prepared to have a child, even though you'll all tell me "you'll never be prepared," I mean that I want to be fairly financially secure, working in a good job, be settled in a semi-permanent apartment or house, and, of course, be married (eventhough I'm pratically already married).
I don't know...just seeing how happy she was made me want that. I want to be a mother someday...I don't even care if it's my biological child or not. I just want to be a mother.
...but, again, when I and Rueben are ready...even though I doubt he'll ever be ready.
oh, by the way, I almost passed out the other day because the temperature behind the service desk was at least 82 degrees. Hot.
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2008 31 May :: 9.11am
I have to work again today. I had to leave work three hours early yesterday because I almost passed out. It's so warm behind the service desk because they haven't turned on the air yet and there is an overhang so there is very little air circulation.
Anyway, I'm taking a thermometer to work with me today to see just how warm it really gets. I swear it was around 90 up there yesterday (and humid)...and we have one small fan. We'll see. I can't work in conditions like that...
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2008 28 May :: 10.01am
Played a super long game of monopoly last night with Rueben, Gunny, and Zach. It was pretty alright.
This is the first day of my "weekend"...the two consecutive days that I get to myself before I have to go back to hell.
Now I remember why I hate her so much...I'm helping someone at the service desk, they need a lane open, so they call and say: Michelle needs to open on lane whatever, so, then, even if I'm still helping someone, they go and tell people to start putting their stuff at that lane, even though I"m not there yet. And....about half of the time, they have to wait about five minutes because I"m still dealing with that customer at the service desk, and then when I finally get to the lane after dealing with some fucker at the desk, the people at the lane are all nasty to me because they thought they'd get through fast and they had to wait five minutes.
That, and people from rockford are really stuck up and bitchy.
It must be nice to have thousands of dollars in credit card debt and live in a huge house that you owe more on that it's worth, and still treat people like shit because you want to feel good about yourself.
angst.
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2008 25 May :: 5.34pm
working, my life is my work, my life's work, i hate where i work...it doesn't make a difference except to the pockets of people i'll never meet that cut my hours and short me help for their bottom line.
so be it, capitalist system.
i watched part of the libertarian debate last night. mike gravel was there. he doesn't fit in with the libertarians at all. he's one of the best leftist political minds and activists that our country has had in the past fifty years and he's forced to run for the libertarian nomination under a platform that he doesn't fully accept nor stand for only because he doesn't fit in anywhere else. i don't fit in anywhere, too.
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2008 20 May :: 11.15pm
I wish someone would just tell me what to do.
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2008 16 May :: 6.37pm
my last huge post got deleted because of my stupid ass computer long story short. mandy pj and kelly thanks for visiting sorry that i could talk go go go all day long.
andrew came and that manager that has a thing for me gave him the staredown. it was really funny. I was pretty proud of myself having some guy giving my man the fisheye. lolz.
anyway it was a good day. gonna be a good night.
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2008 15 May :: 7.31am
I was there when John Edwards endorsed Barack Obama.
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2008 14 May :: 11.10am
I'm sick. It's disappointing.
Went to the dentist yesterday. I have one cavity that will be filled on June 10. Went to Meijer yesterday. I have five shifts next week, starting on Sunday.
I want to go and see Barack, but I'm not sure if I'll feel well enough to be jammed into an arena with thousands of people screaming their heads off. I'm already nauseated as it is.
I got my books from Amazon to help me study for the GRE. My favorite is the verbal flash cards. So many words! Now, if I could just remember some of them...
I also got a guide to the English portion of the test, and a dictionary of literary terms and theories. I can feel my nerdiness multiplying exponentially!
In other news, I woke up to the sound of pouring rain this morning, and although I promptly hacked up a chunk of mucus...it was pleasant for a moment.
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2008 13 May :: 9.38am
:: Mood: crushed
I think I'm getting sick. Both of my parents are sick and I woke up this morning with a sore throat. Parents.
I have some errands to run today. I have a dentist appointment at 12:50 where they are going to tell me I have cavities and need fillings. I had cavities last time and I haven't been to the dentist since. That was about a year ago.
The I'm going to shoot on down to Meijer to go talk to Pat about giving me hours for next week. Then I'm going to stop at Independent bank in Cedar and deposit a fundraising check and some random pop can money for the frat.
Then I'll probably go to Rueben's and hang out with him.
Boo. Sore throat.
In other news, the Sand Lake Library has a "Classics" section that has about 25 books in it. I have my huge long list (reference 4 entries ago), and the only books I could find were War and Peace, Hamlet, and The Sound and the Fury...and the only reason I found The Sound and the Fury is because it's on Oprah's book club.
So...that means I'm going to have to order them through the KDL website; but searching on there reveals that KDL only owns one or two copies of the most revered works in English i.e. Paradise Lost and Canterbury Tales. And no, I'm not counting books on tape or "re-written" classics. Ugh.
I bet they have more copies of Ana's Story by Jenna Bush than copies of The Divine Comedy by Dante.
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2008 12 May :: 10.05am
I just applied for a ten thousand dollar scholarship. Oh god, it would be wonderful...
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