:: 2003 16 November :: 5.18 pm
:: Mood: bored

I had an alright weekend. I went and seen The Matrix Revolutions friday night. Then i went bowling with my parents for their bowling league on saturday. Then later saturday night me and a bunch of other people went midnight bowling at Greenville. Except it wasnt midnight lol. Then we went to Meijer *cant spell that* and we were messin around. We kinda got kicked out! It was pretty fun. A nd today i'm just sittin at home, bein bored. So yeah my weekend was alright. Could have been better.

People are really dumb. Nobody understands anything about me. Where i'm comming from on certain things. But i guess it can be ok. I went to church today and i learned that its pointless to worry about things. That people need to just forget about the "worries" and the "but what if's." And thats just what i need to do. And thats what i'm gonna try and do.

Kevin

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:: 2003 15 November :: 10.14 am
:: Mood: tired

I went to the movies last night with a couple of friends. We went and seen The Matrix Revolutions. It was pretty good. And today i'm going bowling.

And i would really like it if people would just kinda step back for today. If i dont talk to you, then that means i'm not in the mood. Unless i talk to you first. Otherwise i would really appreciate it if people would just kinda leave me be for today. Thanks.

kevin

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:: 2003 15 November :: 10.13 am
:: Mood: exhausted

"don't take anything in life too serious, cause one day it will be over, it will be gone"

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:: 2003 13 November :: 10.39 pm
:: Mood: tired

Can't sleep.......
Its like 10:30. I'm extremely tired, but i can't fall asleep. My wrist is killing me. I think i fractured it some how. But hey oh well i guess. I dont care. Lately i've had a bunch of things on my mind. Kinda can't help it. But with all my thinking i do and have been doing lately......i'm really starting to realize that i miss what i had. There are so many times where i wanna do so many different things, but i can't. Its possible, but more than likely not able to happen. Life blows. And its not fair. I know life really isnt supposed to be fair all the time, but i just find this to be really unfair. I just wish i could explain everything to an extent where you would believe me, and actually know what im talking about, from my point of view. I dont know how i'm lasting.....but yeah i guess i'm hangin in there. I know i say this alot.....but i just feel lonely. Cause i'm not used to this. 3 weeks ago i wish i could have been different. I kinda feel like a failure at times.

So i dont know. I'm tryin to work with what i got here. I'm gonna pray everything gets worked out soon. But at the same time.....i'm scared. I'm affraid things just wont turn out like i would want them to. *sighs* nevermind, too complicated. I just wanna accept things for right now, and just take my life as it is and just go with it. If and when things get figured out.......i just hope that who ever it concerns is happy with everything. But anyways, sorry if this is confusing some of you. If i thought any of you should know then i would tell you, otherwise please dont ask about it. And i really dont know why i'm typing all of this. I just can't sleep. But i think i should go try again. I'll have my stuffed bunny sleep with me, along with my dog Tazz. lol i know im stupid and retarded, and all the names that are along those lines. Good nite everybody..........

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:: 2003 10 November :: 3.55 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Ok, things are just really screwed up right now. I dont know how they got like that, but i guess it doesn't matter. I just wanna get them all figured out by tonight. I hate hurting peoples feelings and i dont want to do that. And i dont want people to be frustrated with me either.

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:: 2003 9 November :: 9.27 am
:: Mood: tired

Ok, i just did what i had to do. Now hopefully everything is all figured out and there is no more confusion. And no more jumping to condlusions. And if this applies to any of you....i'm sorry if i hurt you or made you feel a certain way or whatever.

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:: 2003 7 November :: 4.04 pm
:: Mood: content

This past week was a pretty rough week. And every day through out t his week i have just been feeling like shit, like i'm kinda nothing. So i'm hoping this weekend does some good. And yeah i'm still depressed and i'm still gonna have rough days, rough weeks, even rough months. I've talked to people and i think everything is pretty well figured out. Or the majority of it is anyways. And yeah so as of today.....i'm just gonna kinda stand back from everything. Let everything happen how its supposed to happen. I think i'm starting to accept things now and take them how they come. Wheather i like it or not......i just have to. And i'm sorry if at times i dont say hi to any of you. Or you might feel like i'm ignorning you.....i'm not. There's just times out of every day that i'm gonna feel shitty and just wanna keep to myself and dont wanna talk. And i'm sorry about it but thats just kinda how i am and dealing with things. So dont take it all to heart if i dont say hi or talk sometimes. You can just take it that i'm not in a good mood and stuff. So yeah like i said i'm just gonna kinda step back from things. But dont get me wrong, any one of you can still talk to me when ever. And i'm still your friend, and you are still my friend, and thats really what i need right now it friends. People to be here for me and that i can talk to when ever i wanted about whatever. So yeah, i just thought i would let everyone know where i'm at right now.

Kevin

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:: 2003 5 November :: 5.25 pm
:: Mood: calm

Well i have nothing to say about school. Except i almost fainted. It started right after P.E. while we were changing.....and it didnt end until after 5th hour. But yeah other than that i have nothing to say about school. But hey my parents leave for South Carolina tomorrow morning, so thats cool. They dont get back until monday afternoon. So the house is mine from after school thursday through monday! Yes! But yeah....i'm spent.......

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:: 2003 4 November :: 5.28 pm
:: Mood: depressed

So.......here i am. With nothing to really talk about. School sucks, people are gay, and i hate myself. Thats really all i have at the moment. And i dought i will change anytime soon........

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:: 2003 1 November :: 10.19 pm
:: Mood: depressed

somebody please shoot me..........

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:: 2003 1 November :: 2.03 pm
:: Mood: blank

Yesterday was a good day. Went to burger king with stacy, dustin and becky after school. Then we were just hangin out at my house for a while. Then we went into town and walked around. That was pretty stupid. Except for this old guy that yelled at us for walking on some short brick wall thing in town. So then we went and picked up Erika and we all seen Scary Movie 3. It was pretty good. Then back to my house we went for the rest of the night. Brandi ended up meeting us at my house later. We were just hangin out and playing pool, being stupid really. While erika and brandi were riding my quad, i hid in the weeds and jumped out and scared them! That was funny. And yes, can't forget about the drunk matt kid. That was pretty funny. He had the munchies. So after while brandi, erika, stacy, and becky went back to stacy's house. Dustin stayed the night at my house. And yeah, that was basically all of my Halloween night.

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:: 2003 26 October :: 9.15 pm
:: Mood: extremely tired and bored.....

I really dont know why i update this stupid thing. Its not like anybody sits and reads what i say and comments me anyways. But hey, what the hell. I'm gonna update anyways......it gives me something to do. So yeah friday i picked up erika and went to the football game. Saturday i worked for a few hours then went to erika's house. After i watched the Matrix Reloaded, i went over there. Then today me and erika went bowling with my family. Then took her home and now i am home being bored. So thats it.

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:: 2003 24 October :: 10.44 pm
:: Mood: I have no clue what my mood is......

I hate people. They are really stupid these days. I went to the game tonight. Hangin around with everyone for a while. We won the game. Took erika, dustin and stacy home. And now i am home. Wow aren't I an interesting person. I'm just so awesome and i always have the best stuff to write about. NOT! God i can be so fucking stupid.........

Kevin

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:: 2003 19 October :: 5.44 pm
:: Mood: bored

Well today is pretty well shot. But overall i had a great weekend! Friday i went with Erika to Brandi's house and Phil was there and us 4 all watched a movie and talked and stuff. That was pretty fun! And yesterday Erika and I went to the mall for a while. Then we came back to my house and rode my 4-wheeler for a bit. Thats always fun! Then we came inside and played pool. The first game was kinda a practice game. I was teaching erika the general rules and basics of the game. Then the 2nd game was a real game. I was playing so horrible. And Erika beat me!I'm happy that she finally won! I was actually trying and she played real well! So then i took her home.......and now it is sunday and i have been home all day doing nothing. And hey thats my weekend!

Kevin

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:: 2003 18 October :: 12.13 am
:: Mood: Tired yet happy!
:: Music: Gettin low

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