:: 2003 25 September :: 9.51 pm
:: Mood: sad

Why...........

Why hasn't she called? She was supposed to call 2 weeks ago from today. Then she said "if i dont call then dont sweat it.....i will for sure call sunday. Well now its 2 weeks later and she still hasn't called at all. And i dont know if i should be worried or not. She's not as responsible as she used to be. And i'm starting to think that maybe she has lost some interest in me. Either way.......she had better come up with a damn good reason as to why she is being like this. Its bad enough i can't see her......but now she's not even calling me. I dont know......it just gets to me sometimes.......

How does it feel?

:: 2003 24 September :: 8.49 pm
:: Mood: depressed

I really dont know what i'm feeling right now. For some reason i just have this gut feeling.......but i dont know what its about. Like when you get a gut feeling about something........well thats what i have but the thing is there is nothing to it. I dont know.....alot was on my mind today. Alot of things have been on my mind for the past few days now. *sighs* but i just dont know why..........

How does it feel?

:: 2003 22 September :: 8.52 pm
:: Mood: blah

A friend is someone who you can trust..........
A friend is someone who you can talk to.........
A friend is someone who is always there for you.........
A friend is someone you can have fun and get along with.......
A friend is someone that does't stay mad at you for long.......
A friend is someone that everybody needs in life.......

We all need friends and we all need to be friends.......but thats just my opinion.......

Does anybody agree.......?

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:: 2003 22 September :: 7.07 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

I had a pretty decent weekend. Friday i didn't have practice so that was cool. I just kinda stayed home friday and didn't do much. Saturday i went to work with my dad and helped him out for a while. Then i went to Erika's at like 6:30 and did't get back until like 11.....so that was really cool i got to spend time with her. We watched a movie and then talked about stuff.

Then sunday i went to church......and that was good cause it was my first time going ever since like the beginning of August. It made me feel good! Then i went to my grandma's house for lunch at 12. I went home after that and then went to Erika's house and we just kinda hung out and talked and homework and stuff. We also went out and got some ice-cream.

Today was an alright day. It was raining and i dont like the rain cause ........yeah i just dont. I am still sick today too. It started like Thursday morning and it is still going on. And some how i hurt my wrist and it feels like it is broken. Weightlifting for P.E. doesn't exactly help it either. But hey who cares..........

How does it feel?

:: 2003 21 September :: 7.37 am
:: Mood: cold

Wow, i am freezing cold in here! I went to Erika's earlier and then on the way home i had to stop at my neighbors house for their party thing......my parents were there. And i forgot my sweatshirt at home so i was freezing cold over there! I wish I was still with Erika so she could keep me warm. When i was at her house.....we watched a movie and then just kinda sat and talked. Lol if you wanna call it talking! But ya know what.....i really really love Erika! And now i miss her too. I mean i have always loved her since i ever met her.....and i always will, but for some reason.....after tonight it was like something gave me a reason to love her a whole lot more than what i already do! And its such a good feeling. Sorry guys i just dont know how to explain it in words. Its just this feeling that i have.....and maybe some of you know what i'm talking about. Maybe it has happened to a few of you before. I dont know. I'm extremely tired. I've gotta get some sleep.....and i'm going to church tomorrow morning. So that will be good for me considering the fact that i have't gone since the sunday before i left for Texas. But ok. Off i go. Good nite to everyone! And Erika.....I love you sweetie!

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:: 2003 20 September :: 11.54 am
:: Mood: bored

I am really bored. I've been home for like 2 hours now......from my mom and dads work. And where is Erika?! I told her i would call her when i got home at like 3 or 3:30. Its like 4:45 and nobody is home! I wanted to do somethign with her today. But oh well i guess. She will call me when she gets home. I'm not worried about it. Probably shopping with her mom or something. And now i have ran out of things to say.......

How does it feel?

:: 2003 19 September :: 4.04 pm
:: Mood: sick

Today was an ok day. Welll wait.....let me just put it this way.......if i wasn't sick.....then it would have been a good day. But otherwise my day was ok. So yeah.....i woke up this morning with a sore throat......now i come home with the same sore throat and a stuffy nose. Not cool. I dont like this. So yea.....just thought i would tell you all that incase you cared for some reason. Now i have to go clean the house like the little slave that i am. I hate picking up after my families shit......none of it is ever mine and i have to pick up after them. But yea anyways...i'm gonna quit complaining and just go now. bye

Kevin

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:: 2003 18 September :: 9.02 pm
:: Mood: good

School was so long today. It felt like forever. 2nd hour went by really really slow. Once school finally got out....i had gay golf practice. Then i went to some persons house to help my dad and his friend put in a pool liner. That was just so splended. Then i came home and was bored. So i went to Erika's house for a while.....and now i am back at home being bored again. Everyone should join me and be bored with me. Stacy is already my "bored buddy!" But anyways....i can't believe tomorrow is already Friday! This week went by so fast. It had its really slow parts during the day. I mean really slow......and shitty might i add. I'm sure a few people can agree with me on that one. But anyways.....i'm tired and bored and ran out of things to say........

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:: 2003 17 September :: 11.52 am
:: Mood: happy

Today was excellent! Half days are always so cool! I wish our classes were normally that long.....that would just be spectacular! And yeah.....today was just an overall great, grand wonderful day! But ya know what.....i dont know! lol

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:: 2003 15 September :: 7.09 pm
:: Mood: blank

Today was really long. I didn't really enjoy it. And i'm not sure if my pictures turned out that good. This lady took 2 pictures of me and she made me smile like really big in these pictures too. So hopefully i didn't break the camera or somethin!

And today is 9 months for me and erika. So thats really cool! I'm so happy i'm with her! And it doesn't even seem like 9 months either. It seems like maybe 5 months.....but not 9. And right around the corner is 12 months, right along with christmas and new years! But yes anyways......its good to have someone like erika by my side. I'm not sure what i would do without her. Happy 9 months erika! I love you!

And i've ran out of things to say.......

Kevin

How does it feel?

:: 2003 14 September :: 4.41 pm
:: Mood: blah

who knows......
This weekend was kinda shitty. The homecomming game sucked cause we lost. But the time in the park was alot of fun! Saturday was ok. I had to clean before i went to the dance. Then i got ready for the dance. I went to Erika's house where we got like 15 pictures taken. Then back to my house for pictures. And then we went out to dinner. We ate at Fridays. The food was pretty good. Accept we had these annoying kids from Union there for homecomming. Then we went to the dance after dinner. We ended up leaving at like 9:30. It just wan't alot of fun. None of our friends were there. But we did dance to 3 slow songs. And that really made me feel good! Lately Erika and I haven't been able to do much together. So when it came to these 3 slow songs in a row.....i felt so good and happy! For those 10 minutes.....just holding her next to me......i felt.......so in love and so free. And considering the fact that we have't danced to a slow song ever since Swirl last school year. But yeah....then we left early and went to her house until 11. Then i came home. So i dont know......friday and saturday both had their fun moments.

But today.....oh i'll bet you are all jelious of me today! Cause all i got to do today is sit home and watch football on tv! How thrilling is that?! Yes i know you all wish you could have done that as well!

How does it feel?

:: 2003 13 September :: 12.13 am
:: Mood: tired

today.....
Today was an ok day. School was kinda stupid. I didn't really like that assembly thing. To me it was pretty boring. And the football game sucked real bad. I can't believe we lost to Sparta on homecomming night! Thats just stupid! But besides the game......it was fun! Erika, Brandi, Phil and I were in the park for a while. We just had alot of good laughs and fun together. I seen jake too. Haven't seen him in a while......so it was good to see him. Lol and Phil was just acting really stupid, but funny! I dont know....he was just really outgoing tonight and it was fun!

Tomorrow night is homecomming dance! That shall be fun! Hope everyone else is going......except for a few selected people.....*cough stacy cough becky cough cough*! Lol. Anyways......i'm off to bed now. Nite!

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:: 2003 11 September :: 7.06 pm
:: Mood: depressed

I'm really getting sick of golf right now. I golf way too much and it gets in the way of alot. So no golf for this entire weekend. And i'm really getting sick of people. How they act at school and how stupid and immature they are. And teachers......they are being real gay lately. *sighs* but i dont know.

I'm out.

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:: 2003 6 September :: 8.53 pm
:: Mood: tired

So i had a golf tournament today. It was ok i guess. We placed 7th out of 16 teams. I didn't help the team any. I had a bad score. I'm kinda gettin sick of golf right now. I think i am golfing way too much. But then again.....maybe i'm just not used to playing all the time. Cause this is my first year being on varsity so maybe i just gotta get used to playing in every match. Cause i have played in every match. So i don't know. And i really need to get out and find a black sweater for Homecoming. Golf takes up so much time that i can't even go out to find 1 sweater for homecoming. Its horrible! Golf is stressful also. So if any of you catch me in a bad mood.......its probably cause of golf.......that i'm pissed at myself cause i played bad. Other than that......i really never get mad. But anyways......i've gotta get goin now. I'm too tired to type anymore. Nite.

How does it feel?

:: 2003 5 September :: 9.56 pm

Today......

Ok, today was a fine day i guess. I had a golf tournament in Lakeview at 9 this morning. So i took erika to school and waited with her until her class started. Then i left and went to my tournament. It was so long. We placed 4th out of 8 teams. I placed 3rd in my bracket of 8 people so thats pretty cool! But i don't feel like explaining all of it to you cause i don't t hink any of you know what a match play for golf is....lol so i'll just leave it at that! So t hen i came back and stopped at erika's house. Then stopped at my moms work. Then went home and took a shower. Then went and picked up stacy. Then went and picked up erika and brandi. Then we went to the game where we found phil. We searched and searched some more for a seat and we couldn't find one. Then we lost brandi, phil, and stacy. Then we found them outside the gate. So then we went out of the gate and we were all just sittin having good times in the park until the end of the game. Then we searched for my brother. We found him. Then we crammed becky, stacy, erika, brandi, justin, and me into my car to go to erika's house to drop off erika and brandi. Then i dropped off stacy and becky at stacy's house. Then i came home. Now i am here.

So i had quite the exciting day today! Actually it was ok. I was really tired from golfing. But i really liked spending time with erika in the park. It was really nice! I love my baby so much...lol! She means like.....alot to me!

So anyways.......just thought i would explain my day for everyone cause i am online, bored, with nothing to do. So i'm gonna go now.

I love you Erika!

Kevin

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