:: 2003 2 September :: 7.47 pm

don't really know

Ok, so school is going ok for me i guess. Classes still suck real bad. But we got our new golf bags today.....so that was cool! And i have a golf match tomorrow at East Grand Rapids.....shall be fun. But anyways i really don't know what to talk now. So i guess i'm gonna go.

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:: 2003 29 August :: 10.27 pm
:: Mood: calm

Sometimes i sit and wonder why it happened. Alot of the time i am glad it happened. Others.....ehhh......not so glad. Sometimes i sit and wonder what it would be like if it didn't happen. Would i be happy? Would i be sad? Would my life be better if it didn't happen? Would my life be worse if it didn't happen? Those are the things that i think about day in and day out. And here's the conclusion......i don't know if i would be happy or sad. And i think my life might be worse if it didn't happen. God made this happen for a reason. And that reason......i couldn't be more happy with. It seems like its only just begun, but looking down the road.......i know that this reason will stick with me until the day i die.

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:: 2003 29 August :: 7.36 pm
:: Mood: blank

I just don't know. Lots of things are going through my mind and i can't keep up with them all..........

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:: 2003 29 August :: 10.49 am
:: Mood: confused and lonely

couldn't tell ya
Well, yesterday after school i dropped erika off at home and then got my brother and went home. Then me and him went golfing. It was ok. I shot a 41. It was kinda like i was golfing alone. its not really fun to golf with him. So yeah after that i dropped him off at the game and went to erika's house to pick her up for the game. We got there and a half an hour later we went back to her house cause she had to change shirts. She was in a black long sleeve shirt and she was roasting so we left to go change her shirt. Then we came back and it took us forever to find a parking spot. I ended up parking way over on the other side of 17 mile. Behind Hungry Howies. So that was interesting. But the game from then on was pretty fun. We ended up winning too so that was cool. Then dropped erika off at home and then i came home. So that was my day yesterday. So anyways.....now i'm lonely here at home. Kamie is on the phone bitching back and forth with Todd. Justin is playing his playstation 2. And i'm bored with nothing to do....... all lonely! So yeah, anybody feel free to leave me a comment so it gives me something to do later.

Kevin

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:: 2003 24 August :: 2.38 pm
:: Mood: bored

today
So i woke up at like 6 this morning. I went golfing with my dad, Vic, and Kyle. We went to Alpine Golf Course on Alpine. We golfed 18 holes. My dad beat me by 1 stroke. He got an 85 and i got an 86. That bastard! But yeah it was pretty fun. Oh oh but last night was even better! Erika and I went to Woodland mall yesterday. That was really fun! I love shopping with her cause its interesting to watch girls shop, or maybe i love watching HER shop cause she is the only girl i have gone shopping with! But yeah it was a good time! Then we got back to her house and watched Bringing Down the House. Its a pretty good movie. Not the best cause i don't really see a main point in it. But it was kinda funny. So after the movie we went out to my car to say good nite and all......like we do every other time i am there! And ya know what...... she took my new sweatshirt from me! Lol just jokin sweetie! No i let her use it. She was cold so i told her to put it on. But she was supposed to wear it to bed and break it in for me. So we'll see if she did that! But yeah anyways......i'm off.

Kevin

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:: 2003 21 August :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: bored

Wow, i just got done watching John Q. That is a really good movie. But it is also sad too. Anyways......i've been really busy with golf lately. I played in a few more tournoments and our team is doing pretty good so far. Last night was cool. I went to stacy's house last night at like 9:30. Erika was over there. It was pretty fun over there *smiles*! Oh good times good times! So yeah then today i had golf practice at 10:00 this morning. That was kinda boring. My mom and dad went to a golf outing in Wayland all day. My brother is at a friends house and Kamie was either working or doing something with some friends. So earlier after practice i had some guys come over and swim for a while. I had Dave Ducat, Josh Schlump, Ricky Kuzawa, Anthony Lawrence and Brandon Bauer all come over and swim. They are all on the golf team with me. We had some fun. And i talked to Erika here and there through out the day. So i've been home for most of the day. Kinda boring. I think tomorrow after practice i'm goin with Dave and Brandon to Grand Haven for a while. I can't believe school starts on monday. T his summer has gone by so quick.......i can't even remember half of what i did this summer. I only remember the good stuff! *this time with erika and that one time with erika! lol* But anyways.......hope all of your summers went well and you all had fun!

Kevin

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:: 2003 17 August :: 10.57 pm

I feel really bad......and really shitty........

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:: 2003 13 August :: 7.47 pm
:: Mood: blank

Yesterday we had our first golf tournoment. We took 1st out of like 4 or 5 teams. And i got a medal for being on the winning team. We got a plaque that said "Cedar Chase Classic Champions!" I came in 5th on the team with a 93 and i came in 7th over all out of all teams. Then i went golfing again up at Whitefish. Then i stopped at Erika's for a little while. I have only seen her for like 10 minutes at a time every other day since i got back. I'm not liking it. We have to get together and see eachother longer than just a few minutes every day or every other day. I think we are gonna go shoppin saturday. So that should be fun! Well i'm sure it will be cause we always have fun when we are together! I miss her. Even though i am home and only like 7 minutes from her house....i still miss her. We just haven't been able to do anything together yet. I haven't really talked to her on the phone since i got home. I haven't even had a chance to tell her all the details from my Texas trip. Which is really sad cause i have things that need to be said and i don't like to keep them inside me. And i can always go to her to talk about my mom and how much i miss her and all the fun we had in Texas. So i really want to get together with her just so i can sit down and talk to her. It will make me feel better. SHE will make me feel better. She always does no matter what it is. But yeah.....

AAAHHHHHH yes and then there was today. We had another golf tournoment at Gracewil, its over in Walker or down in Walker.....where ever it is at. This time there was 12 teams and we also played 18 holes. What a strange day it was for me. The front 9 holes i shot a 48......really s hitty. And the back 9 holes i shot a 38 which is excellent! It is only 2 over par! My best score ever.....so i'm real happy about that one! So today i shot an 86. Our team finished 3rd over all. We did have a 3-way tie for 1st but then they looked at the #5 man's score for all three teams to decide which one was better out of the three to declair a winner. Well i was that guy and mine was the 3rd best so we took 3rd place. But still 3rd out of 12 is real good and also shooting the best game of my life is excellent too! I think it was cause i was so calm today. I didn't know anybody that i was golfing with. And i was thinkin about Erika and my mom. So nothing i would really like to share with the other guys. I was kinda quiet and calm and thats what did the trick.

But anyways......yeah i miss erika. Golf is going real good. I miss my mom. So yeah.......

Sorry this wasn't much of an entry. I'll be supprised if someone actually has something to say about t his entry.

Kevin

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:: 2003 11 August :: 9.52 pm
:: Mood: exhausted

Ok, today i had my final day of my golf tryouts. Sunday i had to golf 18 holes for the first part of tryouts. Everybody else had their tryouts friday but mine were sunday cause i was in Texas. I did ok, i shot a 95 on sunday for 18 holes. And then everybody tryed out today for the final tryout day. We only golfed 9 holes today. Once again i did ok. I shot a 48. Kinda shitty. So the coach is only keeping 8 guys on the team. And here's how it goes in order from 1-8..........Dave Ducat, Josh Schlump, Brandon Bauer, Jason Loosenort, Anthony Lawrence, Nate Haadsma, Ricky Kuwzawa, and ME! I'm so glad i made the team! We have our first match tomorrow. Only 6 can play in it. And i get to play the #6 position. So thats pretty cool. But anyways....my trip to texas was ok. Seeing my mom and my family was nice. But it over all was ok. And i had a near death experience. I was outside on this driving range and i got a heat stroke. I was de-hydrated. I was there for like a half hour and i didn't drink any water while i was playing....so taht did the trick. I got all dizzy and light headed. I couldn't walk straight and i was about to faint. I wasn't really that scared until i found out i could have died from it. All i had to do is stop sweating and i would have had a stroke and died. But lucky for me i kept on sweating. And now i'm scared to be outside in the heat for a long time. I realized that yesterday and today when i was golfing. When i get really hot and start sweating really bad......i just think to my self......"now that i started sweating if i get light headed and stop sweating then i could die"....and its really scary. So i think thats still gettin to me. It still scares me just to think that all i had to do is stop sweating and that would be the end for me. But i don't know if it was luck or what. But anyways i thank god that i'm still alive. There was no way that i was gonna die from a heat stroke in Texas without seeing Erika's beautiful face again! So i guess i have Erika to thank for that come to think of it. Cause i was thinkin about her while it was goin on. So thanks for bein in my life erika. If it wasn't for everything you do for me and all the fun we have together......then i probably wouldn't have been thinkin about you so much. Lol but anyways.....thanks baby! But i'm gonna go to bed now. I gotta get some sleep before my match tomorrow.

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:: 2003 10 August :: 1.39 am

I'm home!
Hey, i'm home! I just got home. My flight didn't come into GR until midnight. So yeah i'm home and very tired. Just thought i would let you all know i am home!

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:: 2003 31 July :: 5.18 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Genuwine-In those Jeans

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:: 2003 29 July :: 9.32 pm
:: Mood: blah, and in love!
:: Music: Hardball

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:: 2003 28 July :: 6.18 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Hardball

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:: 2003 26 July :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: blah

don't know.

Hey. Well last night i stayed the night at rodneys house. It is a real nice house, they just built it. We were up watching a few movies. Me, rodney, randy and jimmy. And then today i helped work on building their deck out back behind their house. And i just now got home. I don't think i am doing anything tonight. My mom and dad arent home. Its just me and my little annoying brother. My sister is at some party doing what ever the hell she does. Erika is up north with her mom. Hopefully she is having fun. She usually does have fun with her mom. Either way, i just hope she is happy and havin fun. Well.....i leave for Texas in less than a week. I'll be down there for like 8 days or somethin. So yeah, i'm lookin forward to it. I'm just not lookin forward to leavin erika. Its not real easy to leave behind someone you love. Even though you know you will be back in less than 2 weeks, i don't know its just the fact of leaving. I don't know how to explain it, but im sure erika feels and felt the same way about her Florida trip. She tells me not to worry about it, and im gonna try not to. Im just gonna have fun the best i can, thinking about her and still being happy. So i dont know, i'll work it out. But anyways she gets back sunday sometime. Me and her still gotta get together and hang out a few more times before i leave on friday. but anyways, im gonna get goin now. bye.

Kevin

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:: 2003 24 July :: 2.21 pm
:: Music: Simple Plan

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