Ok, i have been golfing alot lately to practice up for my tryouts for the varsity golf team. Well the actual tryouts are during the time when i fly to texas to visit my mom. So me and my coach decided that we were gonna have separate tryouts a few days before i leave for texas. Well he talked to the Athletic Director and he said that since i am going on "vacation" and i can't tryout with the team, the i can't tryout at all. And that is a crock of shit. Its not "vacation." It is simpily flying to texas with my sister to visit my mother t hat i only see for 10 days every year. If that. So i guess what he is saying is that i have to choose if i see my mom or if i tryout for golf. Its not li ke i have a fuckin choice, its not up to me when i see my mom. Its when she sends us tickets, all we know is its every summer. For 3 weeks straight i have been playing and practicing, and the A.D. is gonna take it away from me, thats not even fuckin cool. I'm only trying to do something for his school, be on his team, why won't he just let me play? He said that it woudl be unfair if i had a good tryout day, like weather wise, and everyone else had a rainy day for tryouts. It does'nt matter what the weather is like. Golf is golf, you play no matter what the weather is like. You play how it is. And its not li ke golf is a team sport anyways. It is played as an individual, but your scores are added together as a team, if it is good enough. So its not like i'm doing this for the team, it is for me. It won't have any affect on anybody else. But what ever, i wont find out what happends or what is gonna happen until sometime tomorrow.

Kevin

don't really know......

Hi. Well today is pretty shitty. I woke up and started to clean the house cause i am a slave and i have to. I am always stuck at home watching my 12 year old brother. I have no fuckin clue why he can't stay home by himself. I never have any freedom to do what i want to do and do things with my friends. So that also took place this morning. I talked to erika and stacy this morning. And i wanted to go golfing with my dad today. But it is raining, or atleat it was. I think it is clearing up now. But yeah so maybe i can do that. I have to practice before my tryouts on thursday and friday. I have my own private tryouts cause i will be in texas the day they have the team tryouts. So that kinda takes pressure off me. So i don't know. Lately i have kinda been in a shitty mood. Not real sad but not as happy as i would like. Hopefully things get worked out for me soon. I hate being like this. But hey someone feel free to leave a comment cause i don't really get much and it will give me somethin to do today, and hey maybe it might make me feel some what better.

Hey, do any of you ever have the feeling where you just want everybody to leave you alone and quit ragging on you? Well i have exceptions, and Erika is the only exception. My family, i can't stand them right now. Its been like t his for the past few days now. And i say erika is the only exception cause i have nothing against her. I never have. And yeah i really do love her alot. I know i am in love and my love for her will last forever cause i have had feelings that i have never had ever in the last 7 months we have been together. There's not one moment where i am mad at her or sad about something she did or anything. And thats how it should be. It is great to find a person that is also in love with you at the same time. But the great part about this is she is so good to me. She does so much for me. Erika you really do alot for me and i thank you so much for it. You are always here for me no matter what and you always will be. And i love you for everything you have done. I love you so much erika, more than anything.

Kevin

Well today was quite the shitty day. But i don't really feel like explaining it to all of you. So i will talk about last night. One of the greatest nights i have ever had! Yesterday was 7 months for me and Erika. I worked most of the day, then i got to her house at about 6:00. Her mom and I sat around and talked along with Erika while she made dinner for me! And she made pumpkin pie! Its my favorite, and she did an excellent job on dinner and the pie! So that was an excellent night! Until i got home. But yeah im gonna go now. Bye.

Kevin

Hey! Well, stacy and becky were just here, for some reason lol ! It was funny, they kinda just stopped by! But anyways, last night was an excellent night! We went out for dinner and then we went bowling! And bowling was a supprise cause it was only like 8:00 and they had the strobe lights and party lights and all on, it was really cool! We had alot of fun. We always have fun! But we wanted to go to Westgate first, well it was $20 for 1 lane and then extra for shoes. So we went to Sparta and it was only $12 for 1 lane and that included shoes. So that was cool. We got our hours worth. We did 2 1/2 games. I won all of them! But it wasn't pretty cause i played like shit, right erika lol ! So that was my night last night. And we should have fun this Tuesday! Cause it is 7 months for Erika and I on Tuesday, Yay! I'm so happy for US! We have come along way and been through some hard times and we have worked together through things and we manage to always come out on the good side! I love you Erika, i am so happy for us!

Kevin

Erika is back!

Hey! Erika is back from Florida! She came back sunday night. But i wasn't able to see her until monday night. But wow, she looks amazing. Even better than when she left. Extremely beautiful! And she got her hair cut. It looks really good. Just....wow she looks even more sexy than before she left. But hey she is always sexy so what ever. I love her so much. And i missed her so much. I was so miserable with out her. It just didn't feel right. I LOVE YOU ERIKA!

Kevin

Erika!

I LOVE ERIKA CHILDS! I just love her so much! We always have fun together. Ever since school got out, or something like that, we have had more and more fun each time we see each other! I am the happiest i have ever been. We are just both so happy. Lol and we are so funny together too! We have good times. I just can't get enough of this girl. I am never going to leave her, not even if the world depended on it. Well, i just felt like updating my journal cause i haven't in like 10 days or something. And what better to talk about, Erika! I just love her so much. Everything about her. She is the best thing that ever happened to me. She is so beautiful too. I don't care what other people say, she IS beautiful! I am impressed everytime i see her. Its just like "wow, you look amazing!" Thats what i think all the time. And she does, i just want her sexy body so bad lol ! She's the love of my life! I love you baby! So much love for you, sooooo much!

Kevin

Hello. I am extremely tired this morning. I don't think i fell asleep until like 1:00 last night. The phone kept ringing and ringing, people kept calling! But anyways, yesterday was quite the hectic day. My mom was being a bitch as usual. Nothing new there. And my little brother was still being such a little fa......ok i won't finish the word cause it bugs some people when i say it. Sorry! But yeah he was being......a queer! Lets put it that way. I can't stand that kid. He is mean to people every day now. No wonder why he has 1 friend, he is mean to all the others that try to be friends with him. But anyways, yeah yesterday was pretty messed up. I finally talked to Erika, at like 7:30! But its ok cause i knew you had drivers training! But anyways i wanted Erika to come over last night cause we were getting ready to make dinner and all and my sister was having Todd over so it would be pretty fun! I thought i would hear from her earlier but i didn't. But thats ok cause it was kinda spur of the moment anyways. So i talked to her on the phone for a while, and then she was being a baby cause i had to leave lol ! I didn't talk to her at all yesterday until 7:30 when we talked for like a half hour and then i had to leave. And i went and got my haircut. Nothing exciting about that. And i just woke up like 40 minutes ago and i only got like 9 hours of sleep. It should be like 11 hours of sleep. But hey what the hell. So today is friday and i don't know what i am doing. Probably nothing. And then saturday morning at 8:00 (too early) i have to take my road test in Sparta. I hope i pass. But if i do i won't get my license until Monday cause the Secretary of State isn't open on the weekend, not till Monday. So thats real gay. Ahhhh yes, then we have Sunday, Fathers day. Also 6 months exactly for Erika and I, just incase you guys weren't keeping track of it lol! But thats really cool, i'm happy for the both of us! I'm supprised she put up with me for this long, let alone even like me lol! So sunday morning i am going golfing with my dad, grandpa, and my dads friend Rick. Then off to my grandma's house for dinner, at 1:00, pretty early dinner. And t hen maybe the parents will let Erika and I do something, i mean we have to, it is a half a year, 6 months! So what ever, i hope something works out.

Kevin

Bored

Wow, i am gonna shoot my brother. He is being the biggest faget ever! I swear, my life would be alot better if he wasn't around. On top of that, i'm bored. I have nothing to do. I am still waiting for my mom to call about the plane tickets for Texas. And i'm scared and worried cause my dad said she might be in jail cause she hasn't been paying child support. And if she is, she needs a shit load of money just to make bail. And it is scary cause if we don't go to texas this summer, then i don't know when i will be able to see her again. And its hard enough living 2,000 miles away from her and only seeing her for 2 weeks out of the year. Imagine how it would be if i couldn't see her at all. I'm crushed right now and i would be even more crushed if i couldn't see her at all. I don't know, i just need someone to talk to and nobody is online and i am home being bored. Erika is at drivers training and i don't know when i will talk to her again. And i just don't know what to do.

Kevin

Don't know!

Hello! I am so very bored right now. It is like 5:45 and i have nothing to do. Isn't this just a spectacular summer. Sit home every day and do nothing at all. I am just so thrilled so see whats in store for the next 2 months! But not really. I just want to get my license so i can actually do something. My life will go alot smoother when i get it. Or atleat i hope it does. But anyways, this entry was very pointless! So anybody feel free to leave me comments. But its not like that would happen anyways cause nobody ever does. But hey what the hell, right? Yeah ok i'm goin now. bye

Kevin

What ever subject i talk about the most....

Hi! Today is Friday, last day of school! Its always good leaving school but it is also kinda sad cause i don't see everyone so much. Today didn't seem like the last day at all. I had my bst exam, that was kinda difficult and a long exam too. I'm pretty sure i passed it but not too sure. Then my Algebra exam last hour. I had to pass this exam in order for me to even have a chance of passing the semester. I got a 68% on it, and that made my grade go up, some how, and it averaged out so i got a 60% for the semester! LOL so i got pretty lucky there! So now i am home. I'm happy that school is out but now i have 3 months and i have no clue what i will be doing. Except going to Texas in August. Hell, i don't even know what i am doing t his weekend. I am so bored and lonely. For some reason something is wrong. And i dont know what it is. I can just feel something is wrong. Well what ever it is, its really bugging me cause i am in this shitty mood not knowing why or what is going on. I need to start having fun. And i think that now school is out, i can have alot more fun cause i have the extra 5 days of the week where i'm not at school anymore. Honestly, i don't know why i keep writing in this thing. Nobody really leaves me comments anyways. I guess its just something good for me to get things off my chest that need to be said. Even if they aren't to a specific person. Alright well i'm gonna go now. Have fun everyone, who ever reads this.

Kevin