swimfan14
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2006 12 May :: 12.09pm
$1,000 spent all on pain for me.
And now we also only have one dog.
This day has probably been the worst experience ever.
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fallenfaces
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2006 12 May :: 9.17am
:: Music: Plain White T's - Hey, there Delilah
I swear it's true.
Hey, there Delilah.
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away,
but girl tonight you look so pretty.
Yes, you do.
Time square can't shine as bright as you.
I swear it's true.
Hey, there Delilah.
Don't you worry about the distance.
I'm right there if you get lonely,
give this song another listen,
close your eyes.
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise.
I'm by your side.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
What you do to me.
Hey, there Delilah.
I know times are getting hard,
but just believe me girl,
someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar.
We'll have it good.
We'll have the life we knew we would.
My word is good.
Hey, there Delilah.
I've got so much left to say.
If every simple song I wrote to you
would take your breath away,
I'd write it all.
Even more in love with me you'd fall.
We'd have it all.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
A thousand miles seems pretty far,
but they've got planes and trains and cars.
I'd walk to you if I had no other way.
Our friends would all make fun of us,
and we'll just laugh along because we know
that none of them have felt this way.
Delilah, I can promise you
that by the time that we get through
the world will never ever be the same.
And you're to blame.
Hey, there Delilah.
You be good and don't you miss me.
Two more years and you'll be done with school.
And I'll be making history like I do.
You know it's all because of you.
We can do whatever we want to.
Hey, there Delilah here's to you.
This one's for you.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
Oh, it's what you do to me.
What you do to me.
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2006 11 May :: 1.26pm
ugggghghghghhghghghg
I CAN'T STAND YOU!!!
HOW LOUD MUST I SCREAM IT?!
inside my head that is.
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2006 8 May :: 10.23pm
god today sucked so fucking much. i can'twait to be out of high school and fucking livingo n my own with my sweetiepie.
i was in a GOOD MOOD all day, can you belive it? and it was only beacuse i KNEW i did not have to work today
WELL GUESS WHAT
i'm happy as can be, on alpine just shopping my little heart out, i go to menards buy some stuff for the apartment
tra lalalala
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i head to walmart
i see these adorable little bowls and cups and matching silverware
i go to get a cart
and ring ring a ding ding
my phone is ringing
it's amber from menards.
i was supposed to be tehre at 2:30 pm today she said
BULL SHIT i'm thinking. but twas true.
i wrote down my effing schedule wrong. but at least i have friday off.
god so then i had to go home and change and drive all the way back to work. i was bawling my effing eyes out the whole way there and back . i was so furious because it was so nice out and i was looking forward to getting SO much stuff done and then me and my mom were gonna go to the algoma park and i was gonna rollerblade with my new roller blades. i was so effing exctied and then it all got RUINEd
ugh. but anyway. i'm home, i'm still alive and i .... i duno. i'm tired.
oh and i guess besides everyone hating me and everyone at menards thinking i'm so fucking dumb and absolutely humiliating myself every fucking day...
i'm just peachy.
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swimfan14
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2006 8 May :: 6.39am
Isn't this the best part of breaking up, finding someone else you can't get enough of? Someone who wants to be with you too.
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brokenmentality
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2006 7 May :: 9.09pm
just got back from the tim and faith concert. it was great.
my ears are ringing...
im nervous about this, but i trust you. know that ok?
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2006 7 May :: 9.19pm
well mutha fucka!
i'm done with work and i am so READY for a day off. tomorrow.
oh but wait i still have to go to school.
well mutha fucka.
oh and i dont want to forget what this crazy guy said yesterday.. I was just beeping his little fricken FAMOUS DAVES BBQ SAUCE and he goes "WHAT IN THE LORD'S NAME?!?!?!" he like screams it and grabs the sauce from me (lol) and he goes "..oh, okay spicy" and puts it in the bag.
i'm like hahahahahahaaaaaa. lol
i like jumped a foot when he screamed it because i didn't know what the hell was the matter.
it was so funny. that wwas the only enjoyment i had. really.
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brokenmentality
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2006 7 May :: 7.52am
this weekend started out rough... real rough. but turned into something wonderful.
i've stayed at keegans all weekend.. its odd being home and him being at work. yesterday we went to holland to support a crew all that (circle junkies) not like anyone knows them.... but it was the tulip festival which was nice, thier performance was really quite pathetic... what can ya do right?
we tried to go to the zoo on our way home, but it was closed, so we went to applebees and ended up running into stacy and ashley and sat with them, that was a nice suprise. then we made one more stop and came home. :)
what a beautiful day.
now TONIGHT brandi and i are going to the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert. i cannot WAIT! ahh. go ahead, be jealous. and if you dont like country music, kindly refrain from leaving a smart ass cocky comment because i dont diss your music, and frankly... it pisses me off when people diss mine. (smiles)
SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL. nooooo. oh well, its almost over.
im beginning to let go of certain things. and i really think this is going to help us ALOT. because a relationship is supposed to be based on trust right? and give and take? thats what we're doing. i cant imagine ever losing my best friend, or that feeling i get in the morning when i wake up and he's snuggled up to me, looking so peaceful before he wakes up. i love that. i love the simple things. those are the things that mean the most.
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2006 7 May :: 10.16am
everything is shit.
as usual.
and i really realy don't think i can take seven more hours today of just standing in one spot. standing in one spot and listening to beeps. and pushing buttons. and saying the same exact fucking thing over and over and over and over there's your reciept have a good day. hi how are you hi how are you hi how are you hi how are you credit or debit credit or debit oh sorry sometimes it goes right to debit.
i am going insane it is such a mundane job and i can't take it anymore. EVERYONE: never be a cashier! I'm sorry i got you into this beans.
i wish i had said i wanted to work in a department and wear gloves and a toolbelt.
i hate being a cashier!! i hate it!
oh and tra lala off to work i go until 7 oclock . another beautiful day completely fucking wasted.
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2006 5 May :: 11.35pm
"Goodnight Nurse"
My mom used to say that to us when we went to bed when I was little. it's from a movie or something.
I dont know. All I know is I got up at 6:30, went to school, came home and went to work at 2 pm until 10:15 and I'm tired as hell.
Like I said, Goodnight, Nurse.
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2006 5 May :: 11.20pm
what a shit day.
work went by relatively fast though. it just sucks. it was so funny though katie and i got to talking and we are like exactly alike. our boyfriends are both 2 hours + away and yada yada and blah blah blah. it's funny. she's cool
i can't wait to work with beannnnns!
tomorrow 12-9. BLEH and barf. and sunday 10-7
i need money though.
wisdom teeth out on the 22nd EEK.\
oh and ps. I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL..
To go into further detail, I realized I enjoy work more than school. At least I get paid for a shit day.
Oh and Beans, I talked to Kyle and he was talking about you and said how you catch on really fast . I was like Yeah, she's really really smart. and oh yeah beans I CANNOT WAIT to show you the huge sign with a big ol' grammatical error on it. lol. YOU'RE GONNA FLIP! Betcha can't find it before I show it to you.
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brokenmentality
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2006 4 May :: 9.50pm
people come into our lives for 3 reasons: a reason, a season, or a life time.
which are you?
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swimfan14
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2006 4 May :: 11.22pm
Tonight is just one of those nights where I can't help but think about this.
As much as I try, it's never going to go away.
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2006 4 May :: 9.49am
i hate everyone plus myself and all i want is to go to the park and have a picnic with roman and never go to school ever for the rest of my life because i hate it.
RIGHT NOW!
and i stayed home because i woke up with a bad headache and school is SO INCREDIBLY POINTLESS that i couldn't get myself to go in later... my only two relavent classes that it even matters like 1% if i miss are Brit Lit and Econ and (looks at clock) eh, brit lit is half done and i look like a troll so i'm not going. that's final.
and i've been doing the school then work school then work school then work thing for too long. i CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE DONE so then i can just go to work.
i have to be to rosie's at three and then tomorrow 2-10 at menards and then 12-9 menards and then 10-7 menards sunday and then
finally monday i have a day off. but it's not really a day off because i still have to go to stinky ass school. and then tuesday i'll be at rosies and probably same wednesday AND THEN THE REST OF THE WEEK IS AT MENARDS. HOWDY DOODY WHAT A WEEK.
it probably wouldn't be so bad if i just didn't have to go to school. you know?
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2006 2 May :: 8.47pm
Hey everyone
i'm changing my email address to jessicawilde@hotmail.com
please add me.
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