Extremely Strange.......

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 23 April :: 12.27pm

Oh, and just so everyone knows, I love Stacy Cain!

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 23 April :: 11.56am

It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna be
It's gonna be love

wierdo

:: 2006 22 April :: 2.17pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: U2-with or without you

Wow, its been quite the time since i've been in here. Not a whole lot is new. I no longer work in the factory. I got a store on Alpine. Its just like the one in Cedar that my parents own, except its a different name, and i'm the manager of this one. So thats pretty exciting. It calls for a long summer, but it also calls for a lot of money! Umm.....i'm on crutches right now, lol so that kinda sucks. But it shouldn't last long. I strained a muscle on my foot. Let's see........my sister moved back in with me. Her and Todd are kinda having troubles. Kelsie is gettin big. She will be a year old on June 3rd. I can't wait for the day to come when she says her first word. She's crawling pretty good, but she can't walk yet, and she's really trying to talk. So all that is pretty exciting. I don't know what else to talk about really. I just recently turned 19 on April 7th. yay. I spent my birthday weekend with my sister. So that was a lot of fun. It's nice to be around her more. If any of you know me and my sister, then you know what i mean. We're a close brother and sister. Hmm......and thats probably about it. Kevin L. Meek

1 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 20 April :: 10.42pm

it's like just one more aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalkj;lkj;lkj

so no school tomorrow either because of a health event thing.

and everything is okay for the moment.

and by everything i mean almost nothing but more than something.

:: 2006 19 April :: 11.02pm

The fact of the matter is, we don't have anything to fix. It's to the point where I don't even care what you have to say and the whole thing where you say you don't want to see me hurt. Well it's a little too late for that. And obviously you don't care about me more or you wouldn't be doing this. That's a lie. Everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie. I would rather you just admit it than act fake about it. I know. He knows. You know. We all know.

Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life

I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's was everything
Everything I'm not

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

:: 2006 19 April :: 10.04pm

i love how nothing is EVER right

EVER

oh and one more thing
god i fucking hate all you people who get to see your boyfriends everyday.

aslkfja;sldjas;lkfj FUCFK

1 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

brokenmentality

:: 2006 19 April :: 4.24pm

heres to the worst day ever...

2 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 18 April :: 9.42pm

okay so get this

on TOP OF THE FRICKEN FULL RIDE i also got a $1000 scholarship I applied for a long time ago

and my parents say

what you expect us to pay for you books

and they STILL WONT HELP AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FUCKING MOVE OUT AND THEN START SCHOOL AND CHANGE JOB LOCATIONS ALL IN THE SAME FUCKING MONTH

I CAN'T STAND THEM. NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH!!!

WHAT DO THEY EXPECT?!??

:: 2006 16 April :: 10.55pm

Everything seems so shitty. ugh, it is.

:: 2006 16 April :: 7.14pm

so i worked all day and now i'm finally home.

ughghghghghg what a dumb day.

6 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 16 April :: 1.33pm

Well this weekend was pretty interesting to say the least. I pretty much just hung out with my friends and yesterday I got my prom dress.

I can't figure out why things like that happen and they always happen at the worst times. It throws everything off for me. Cheers to another akward moment.

I never knew, I never knew that everything was falling through. That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, to turn and run when all I needed was the truth, but that's how it's gotta be.

Everyone knows I'm in over my head, with eight seconds left in overtime, she's on your mind & suddenly I become part of your past, I'm becoming the part that doesn't last, I'm losing you & it's effortless.

Stacy I'm waiting for you because I have my picture of my dress ready for you now lol.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 16 April :: 6.11am

friday was so beautiful. keegan and i went to AJ's and went mini golfing (which i won) and then in the batting cages. i'm not sure that i've ever even held a baseball bat.. lol.

then we got ice cream and went to riverside park which was wonderful. after that we drove around downtown and stopped at nicks house (breakdancer) and last but not least, got smoothies from coldstone. it was a really good night.

saturday we had a yearbook work day. the senior section is seriously awesome. if you havent bought a yearbook you NEED to. for the people who didnt buy a book this year.. i think that once it comes out next year and people see how good it is, we're going to sell all of our extras.i just did 3 spreads in 3 days. (just so you know.. it takes some poeple about a month or more just to do one) im so excited for the book to be done!

yesterday after the yearbook thing and before i went to work, i went for a run/walk. i havent excersised in so long. and then i got home.. cleaned out under our bunny hut (which was long due... ugh) and wheel barrowed it to the back of our property. i was just in such a good mood ijust wanted to be outside. but TODAY my legs hurt from overdoing it on my walk thing, my back hurts from lifting the wheelbarrow wrong, my shoulders hurt from doing countless handstands, and my tricept is a bit inflamed. ah well, who cares.

we're going to my uncle david and aunt pats today for easter dinner. keegans coming after he gets out of work. he has to be in at 11 and his boss wouldnt let him come in at 12 after church. like ANYONES gonna be eating at logans on easter during church hours. so that's to bad.

the "easter bunny" brought me the carrie underwood cd and a silk robe in my easter basket this morning (thats right, im 17 and still get easter baskets and christmas stockings... my mom doesnt want to let go) and im SEEING carrie underwood at the KENNY CONCERT! i can barely stand the wait. derks bently is gonna be there too.. but i dont really like him. BUT brandi and i just got tickets for the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert too! OMG... now im just freaking out. because im going to two of the biggest concerts this year. i cant WAIT!

happy easter!

:: 2006 15 April :: 12.16am

I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the thought of you and when you're gone, but the world spins madly on.

And everything that I said I'd do, like make the world blend in, and take the time for you, I just got lost and stepped right through the dawn, and the world spins madly on.

I let the days go by, I always say goodbye, I watch stars from my windowsill, the whole world is moving, and I'm standing still.

I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the night is here, the day is gone, and the world spins madly on.

The thought of you and when you're gone and the world spins madly on and the world spins madly on.

I miss you.

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 14 April :: 11.29pm

Does anyone have either

a. Some jewelry i can wear for prom ( i know you said you probably did for me erika)

or

b. Some light pink gloves...

my dress is light pink and... um.. i dont really care what it's like if you want to tell me about it... just not like a little chain w/ a jewel or something... something a little more than that.

thanks

:: 2006 14 April :: 11.06pm

This one reminds me of people at rosie's and maybe what i'd like to say back to them:

Fairway: Your Source for Vintage Foods
Old woman: No! No! You need to cut from that side of the meat. Last week you gave me a cut from the right side. I want a cut from the left side! Don't you know that I want a fresh cut of meat?
Deli guy: Only way you gonna get a fresher cut of meat is if I take it from your wrinkly white ass.

--Fairway Market, 74th & Broadway

Lol and this one is so funny
Woman on cell: No, I mean, whatever. I cried for that baby when it died and all. Shit! I even went to its funeral and the damn thing wasn't even born! Who the fuck has a funeral for a baby that wasn't even born?...Whatever, that's not the point. The point is, I'm sure as hell not going to a birthday party for a baby whose funeral I went to a year ago. That is fucking morbid...and they had better not be expecting presents.

--14th between 7th & 8th

hahha all these remind me of the other day when me and roman went to applebees to eat and we listened in on this lady (we couldn't help it because she was SO loud and then it got SO interesting) for like seriously an hour about her husband who worked for a school and then she found out he was cheating on her with a student... she had two kids and he left home and she figured out he was at a hotel nearby that they had went to together before and she was able to coax the hotel manager into giving her a key because she had the same last name as her husband and she said she had the kids and didn't have a key and she went to the hotel room and put the card in and opened it a crack because she was afraid of what she'd see and she saw make up on the counter(GASP) and then it all came out that it was a student and blah blah blah... unfortuanttely that was all we got. it was so funny. we hardly spoke a word to each other because we were listening to her story.

Girl #1: I know it smells kind of cheap, but I like it because it's the perfume I was wearing when I lost my virginity.
Girl #2: I thought you were wearing Ralph when you lost it.
Girl #1: No, that was my other virginity.

--60th & Columbus

Woman: Look at all these rude motherfuckin' men! Can't get up and let none of these ladies have a seat.
Man: Having a vagina is not a disability.

--L train