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2006 12 February :: 6.38am
finally! i get to see roman for the first time in 3 weeks .
sooooooooooo happy!
thanks girls last night for a fun time at swirl.
oh and jess honestly you broke my toe. it's all purple, blue and black and it hurts so bad and i can't walk on it. so now i am cripple. but i know it wasn't your fault .
ouch.
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2006 11 February :: 4.14pm
:: Mood: unexpected
20 years old.
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2006 10 February :: 5.28pm
So I kind of have a differen't Spring Break plan. Lisa and I were going to go to Atlantis in the Bahamas this year but my dad decided that he want's us to go next year and it will be our graduation present so that's next year and he said he'll probably let us go by ourselves if we wait until next year so that's even better. He promised that we can go next year so i'm really excited for that. This year he wants us to stay in the U.S. haha so we are going to Florida. I'm pretty excited for that too. We can't decide which day we want to leave to go there. We have to leave Florida by April 7th because my grandma is going to go to where my family is from (Italy) so yeah she's pretty lucky she's going there.
So I guess that's really all. Spring Break isn't all that far away. I can't wait!!
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2006 9 February :: 7.07pm
You drive me up the fucking wall. Ugghh.
Just be with me. Drive here, pick me up, tell me you miss me and that you'll never let me go again.
It's that easy. That's all you have to do.
It's just money. Realize that, please. It won't make you happy. I can't fucking believe you think that's the answer. It's just paper. Yeah, you need it to survive and the world revolves around money. Blah, blah... who gives a fuck.
It's not what you need. I am what you need. You're what I need.
When will you see that?
Sooner or later I will be moving on, because as much as I want to I can't wait around forever. I just can't.
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2006 9 February :: 11.31am
Our Conversation at the Jail-Support for Yesterday's Entry
NOTE: Both parties have permagrin the whole time.
Me: " So what are you doing on Valentines Day? "
Him: " Umm...I'm supposed to go to a movie with Nikki...why?"
Me: " I was just wondering...I didn't have any plans."
Him: " Well, I don't really want to go with her. How about we go to a movie instead?"
Me: "Sounds great. I'd love to."
Him: "I'd rather be with you anyways! You're the only one I want...that (she) was such a mistake."
*shakes head and looks down in shame
Later....
Him: "I missed you."
Me: " I missed you, too. How much did ya miss me?"
Him: "More that anything in the whole world."
Me: "Hehe...I love you honey."
Him: "I love you too beb."
Me: "How much?"
Him: " More than anything in the entire world."
Me: " Awww!"
Yeah. Thats what I thought. :)
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2006 8 February :: 10.19pm
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay
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2006 8 February :: 10.44am
Touche to things that make ya go "hmm"
It's funny...it really makes me ponder...
How someone could be such a low-life to weasel their way inbetween our relationship after they hint the slightest disturbance. You were supposed to be my friend.
And to think all the time on New Year's you were just pretending to be my friend. I knew I should have stayed suspicious of your phone call. You know the first major clue? The fact that you had sex with some random guy for and hour and a half after only just meeting him 45 minutes before. Touche to things that make ya go hmm.
It's ok. Because I know what you are to him. He's told me about everything. And even though we may be going through a rough spot in our relationship, I know who he loves. I know who he has feelings for.
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2006 7 February :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: TIRED
The Play
Mishy's comment:
Re:, 02-07-06 10:21pm
You did too, I'm very proud of you.
You're on your way.
Remember me when you're famous, and remember the knives stabbing your back if your turn it to the audience hahah :)
Mishy would always tell me that to prevent me from turning my back to the audience and it would always work, so thank you.
I'm sad the play is over just because it was fun while it lasted but i'm also glad it's over because I really am exhausted with the practices and everything. I'm tired. We all did it, it's over and done with. It was awesome tonight. The talent in our class is great. I think everyone did a good job.
I was a lot more scared tonight than last night. I knew a lot of people there so it made me nervous. I seen a lot of people who I haven't seen in a long time so that made me really happy.
There's nothing like that.
I just wanted to let you know that i'm really dissapointed in you.
I have to go to bed. I'm falling asleep here.
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2006 7 February :: 9.42pm
yeah.
blah blah blah.
i am but words writ in water.
blah blah blah.
*sigh*
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2006 7 February :: 11.20am
omg. i seriously cannot even take 5 more days of this...
i am so serious!
i haven't seen roman in 3 weeks
THREE WEEKS
i am freaking out times a million.
and what's more ... i got hired at QUIZNOs where i dont even want to work. it MIGHT be good because i'll be getting a lot of hours. 18-20 to start. and i can keep my lazer skate job. BUT who wants to work that many hours anyway.
i'd rather work less hours for more money so if this job really turns out to suck, i'll just go back to ever-lovin' Rosie's
ughghgh
i'm so frusterated i cannot take it.
and 3 tests in one day. what more can suck?
and it's my first test in my class at CC.... Rueben if you read this tell me what it was like PLEASE!
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2006 6 February :: 9.30pm
The play was awesome. Good job to everyone. We all did wonderful!
I was so scared before my monologue. I kept going over my lines in my head and I would completely forget them. I thought I was going to throw up and I really didn't enjoy how close the audience was. H wanted it to be "personal" and it definitely was personal enough for me when people were not even a foot away from my face. I'm also proud of myself and I never missed a single line. I know I need to talk slower though but I just get so nervous I talk really fast.
Tomorrow is the last night of the play. Thank god. I'm so tired of practicing and staying up late to memorize my lines. I'm happy that it will be over and it was an expierence i'll never forget.
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2006 6 February :: 6.51am
:: Music: Tom Petty - Learning to Fly
What an amazing dream.
[Too bad I had to wake up]
Oh, and I have to stop tricking myself. I haven't met anyone worth my time yet. I am trying too hard to move on and that's stupid. Eventually I will and it will be with the right person at the right time. Until then I have to accept that there's no one and it's ok that there isn't.
I'm trying.
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2006 5 February :: 5.51pm
:: Mood: Tired/Exhausted
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World-Futures
Spring Hill was definitely amazing.
I don't really know how to explain it. I guess I basically just have a new outlook on everything.
I'm so tired and I feel like my arms are going to fall off. We were supposed to only have 16 girls in our cabin but somehow we ended up with 22 girls so a lot of us had to share beds. My cabin consisited of Brittany, Lisa, Me, Emily S, Dani, Megan, Annalise, Brittani, Lindsey, Janie, Sam, Kendra, Amber, Trisha, Pam, Ari, Erica, and then a few other people but I don't know all their names. It was so much fun in our cabin. I don't think any of us really slept much. Emily and I laughed all night so we kept a lot of people up.
We all went tubing a lot. I mean a lot, a lot. We went last night at midnight and we had 6 girls plus Austin and Bruce and we only had three tubes for all 8 of us. We all had to pile on and I was always on top of everyone because I was the lightest and I thought I was going to fall off and die. Lisa and I both fell off once but I didn't die though. It was a scary thing.
We won broomball again. Exciting? I know.
Ummm i'm trying to think of more stories....oh yeah..last night it was like almost 1am and I was taking a shower and then I came out of the bathroom and Austin, Cory, and Tyler were all standing there and they chased me and everyone got into a snowball fight.
The speaker was amazing. I could relate to almost everything he was saying. He made me laugh and cry basically all at the same time. The whole expierence changed me. I never really thought that going to something for one weekend could do that but, it does.
The band was awesome. Everyone knows why.
I can't really think of anything else right now but it was really awesome and if you didn't go this year then you should go next year. It's worth it, trust me.
I'll post Spring Hill pictures later.
I love you all.
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