Extremely Strange.......

:: 2006 29 January :: 12.58pm

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you.

:: 2006 28 January :: 1.34pm

UGHGHGHGHGHGHG I HATE PEOPLE!!!

and i'm getting so sick of YOU!

stop assuming things and actually do something. gawd you drive me up the wall in the worst ways sometimes. actually fucking just do something

and nothign is gona get better.

:: 2006 27 January :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: crappy

well i guess that's the end for us!!

it's been hard and i guess it wasnt worth it afterall

and please note all of this is entirely untrue and i'm saying it out of extreme spite.

and look who just called

see. what'd i tell you? i'm totally just saying it cuz i'm mad. after we fight

and there he goes calling me to talk. right in the middle of the entry i'm writing purely because i'm mad at him and we say we're going to end it. see there he goes messing up my entry. now none of it's relevant.

and look he wants to be with me

and i'm all smiley because this is dumb.

uggggggggggggggggggggh take me home with you.

:: 2006 27 January :: 4.09pm

So we pretty much got caught. It was bound to happen anyways. I just feel bad now but somehow I always do.

Last night I was driving and Elyse wanted to steer my car so I was letting her and when she turned she hit a snowbank. It was hilarious.

The cemetary thing didn't go so well today. Never ever go in one of those. It was just a bad idea.

And no I'm not going bowling. Everyone knows I hate bowling so if I wont go for anyone else i'm sure as hell not going for you.

You probably should stop making this into something it's not and just believe me when I tell you that I don't.

Anyways i'll update more later I gotta go to Brittanys.

:: 2006 26 January :: 11.06pm

1. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SOMEONE FROM YOUR PAST OR AN EX AND IT WAS AKWARD?

Sometimes it's akward and sometimes it's not. It depends on the person. I see people I had "things" with all the time and most of the time I just ignore them...

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS OF YOUR ROOM?
Pictures, posters, other stuff.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
I don�t know how to describe it..sparkly maybe lol

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
All kinds..

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Yeah, 2:22 AM

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To do something I�m not allowed to do haha..

7. WHO DO YOU MISS?
I don't miss anyone.

8. WHAT ARE YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSIONS?
My cell phone, my family, my friends, and my trusty credit card!

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?

Yeah esp. when H locked me in a locker at strike and he put a pencil through the little hole and I couldn�t get out..

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?

Sometimes after I watch scary movies haha

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?

Nobody's worth crying over.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
ABERCROMBiE AND FiTCH!!

14. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT YELLED AT?

Haha at school..in math...me and april and cohen...yeah we're just a little too loud. It was a bad choice to sit us next to each other..

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
Umm I don�t know I don�t really think about these things

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?

Coffee for sure

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?

Haha pepperoni I guess

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Nothing I�m not even hungry

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I have no idea

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?

Like I remember...

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Obviously

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?

No

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?

Abercrombie, Juicy Couture..or stuff from Urban Outfitters.

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?

I don�t know lol I don�t really pay attention to cars..

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yeah lol.

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Dogs and cats.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?

I would try not to since I would just get screwed over but you can�t help how you feel.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?

To tell them lol

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
2

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes; because someone has to be smart.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?

I call a lot of numbers often...pretty much the ppl that are important to me.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
A lot of things...umm when people wear black and brown together or when people talk a lot ..like a lot a lot and they don�t know when to shut up and when people straighten/blow dry their hair too much and it looks all fried and dead...it's gross.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yeah many times

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?

I care too much.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
YES!!! Lots of them!

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Who can honestly say they haven�t?

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
I was hanging out with my lovers at the v-ball game

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?

I wouldn�t...

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?

Something to do while I�m waiting.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?

My hair or outfits or purses

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME iLLEGAL FOREVER?

Nothing. It�s not the end of the world.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?

Umm I don�t know it�s a ways away

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?

Like a million haha kidding I don�t know yet

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

I don�t think so

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I used to until I realized the wishes never come true and I�m just wasting my time.

48. WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?
Well I slept until 10:00 then I went to school for a while then I picked up Britt and Elyse and we went to the v-ball game.

49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?

Pizza earlier and then a ring pop a few minutes ago

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeah sometimes

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?

Ugh..idk

52. ANY BAD HABITS?

Yeah. A lot.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?

I don�t really know lol...

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

Yeah

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?

Only because I had to

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?

Yeah I guess in some ways
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?

I don�t really have anger problems so I wouldn�t know

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?

My dads house lol

59. WHO IS YOUR FAMOUS/ ACTOR/ SINGER CRUSH?

Gerard Way, Orlando Bloom, Adam Brody (Seth Cohen <3)

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?

Haha probably my babies

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?

I don�t know I�ve never counted

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?

Yeah

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?

Nope

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?

Umm ask me if you really want to know that bad...

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?

My mom and step dad always call me by my middle name (Megan) and Logan and Justin call me Laguna because they say I remind them of the girls on Laguna Beach and then Little One at school

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Birthday Cake @ Coldstone Creamery is sooo good if you haven�t been there you pry should.

73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?

I don�t miss anyone or anything

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?

Haha I don�t know

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I could care less

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?

Panic! At the disco

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?

Water

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Umm Emily Sorensen just called me a few minutes ago

79. THE FUNNIEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY?
Omg I don�t know I�m always laughing but probably at the v-ball game when Elyse made me tell this joke thing to Katie, Jacque, Angela Klementowski, and Marissa Walker..we all were dying laughing...

80. LAST THING SOMEONE SUGGESTED?

Well today Mike Kratjewski haha I don�t think that�s how you spell his last name but anyways he said that he thinks I should go to the next away bball game with him and so should Lisa.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?

Favorite thing? Let's try "favorite people"

82. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXT MSG�D YOU?

Logan just did like five minutes ago..

83. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TALKED TO YOU ONLINE?

Aaron Cohen or Stacy

84. FAVORITE COLORS?

Pink & Orange

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown

86. EYE COLOR?

Hazel

87. HEIGHT?

UMM... 5'3
88. SIBLINGS?

Like a million

89. FAVORITE MONTH?

June since that�s when school gets out or July since that�s usually when I go to Cali<3

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
YES!!

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?

The v-ball games and The O.C!!!!!

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?

Christmas, My Birthday..and the whole summer counts as my favorite too.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?

Yeah probably

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?

Summer

95. KISSES OR HUGS?

BOTH!

96. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU BORROWED?
Umm I don't know lol I don't usually borrow things but Ryan Case and I both love Life As We Know It so he just told me I can borrow the first season of it because he's just that nice lol.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Clothes

98. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?

I got bit by a dog.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?

The very last Gossip Girl book!!

100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Yeah basically...

:: 2006 26 January :: 10.14pm

ughghghhghg right

1 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

breezeyluvsu

:: 2006 26 January :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: Enthused

I miss you.

O.C. Night Bitches!!

5 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 26 January :: 4.41pm

What an ass.

6 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 25 January :: 7.11pm

Today was definitely exhausting. It was my first full day back.

Today in Anatomy we had to disect sheep brains and it was alright I guess but Bruce Hunter and I always joke around and pretend to be mad at each other even though we never could possiably be mad at each other, we just like pretending and anyways we were cutting our brain and he was just messing around and he threw a piece of the brain at me and it hit me and then some of it went into my mouth. I wanted to throw up lol. He kept looking at me and smiling afterwards to see if I would smile back at him because thats just what we do to show we are kidding and then I wouldn't smile back and then when class was over he's like "Bye Ashley!" and I just walked out and he goes "Fine, I see how it is!?!?" and I didn't say anything so now he really thinks i'm pissed off about it but I really don't even care I thought it was gross, yeah but it was also funny.

"I'm just going to forget all about them when i'm famous and they wont get my money" haha Mishy it's true..they don't get my money now lol.

Oh and yeah stacy and I went to McWendys today. It was pretty sweet. I totally said that by acciden't and then today I was standing there after school and Ashley Marini comes running up to me and she gave me a huge hug and she was freaking out because she hasn't seen me in so long. Aww she's so cute I love her.

Wow I can't believe he called me. :) That was a nice suprise. Seriously.

:: 2006 25 January :: 10.45am

people astonish me in the absolute worst way possible.

i hate it here.

and i hate you

:: 2006 25 January :: 7.15am

ughghhghgghhghghghhgh alll you stupid people ughghghghhghgh
i'm never taking it for granted anymore. way too many stupid people do. ughghghgh
sdgas
dglksadg
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i can tell today everything is going to piss me off.

i miss roman and for real this time i wont see him for... let see: not this week not next week not the next week after that but the next WEEKEND after that i will see him.

fuck this.

3 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 24 January :: 7.20pm

Aww Stacy my background makes me so sad. It's so good but it just makes me sad to look at it because of everything we talked about. I hate seeing people cry and looking at my own picture of me crying is sad. I <3 you!

It's pretty much true though....

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 24 January :: 5.10pm

I can't forgive. I can't forget. I can't give in. What went wrong? Cause you said this was right. You fucked up my life. You'd rather watch me burn than break a sweat. You'd rather watch me drown than get your hands wet. You'd rather watch me fall than put weight on your hands. You'd rather walk away than try to understand.