Extremely Strange.......

Extremely Strange.......

:: 2006 24 January :: 12.08am

That's what makes me so crazy, the difference between us. You can be heart broken and you can just...move on and I am just....broken.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 23 January :: 11.36am

The year is half way over. I'm happy about it and also in a way, sad about it. Lisa and I now have our 2nd hour together. We're pretty happy about that. It most likely isn't going to benefit us considering we already got in trouble for talking and we weren't even in there for 10 minutes yet lol. Oh yeah, we can't forget this.... The one person that I basically hate is in our class too. Lisa and I about died when we heard her name being called. I don't know why but i've never liked her and after everything last year she gave me a reason to hate her. She's going to get on my nerves real fast. Ohhh I can already tell this is going to be a long rest of the year.

I just want to get this over and done with. The easier it will be for me.

How does it feel?

swimfan14

:: 2006 22 January :: 12.48pm

It's all because of the way it was.

How does it feel?

swimfan14

:: 2006 22 January :: 12.05pm
:: Mood: Tired

I can't do that to you. I just can't.

I would never hurt you like you hurt me.

swimfan14

:: 2006 20 January :: 11.36pm

Aww I love Annalise!! She's too sweet to me!

Haha I love how someone will call me and then I didn't hear my phone ring and I notice that I have a missed call about two seconds after they called so I call them back and they are right in the middle of leaving me a voicemail and then listening to their voicemail cracks me up because sometimes they don't know if they should stop talking and switch over, or what. I don't know it just has happened to me a lot with many people and it's pretty funny.

Emily called me tonight and that happened, but that isn't my point. She wants to come over tomorrow with Logan and Justin to visit me. Afterwards she said she is feeling sick and she thinks she has mono from me.. Everyone who gets sick all of the sudden think they have mono lol. Let's hope not.

Thank god I only have like 10 minutes left. Robot mode is over soon Stacy lol.

Well this was pointless so I'm going to stop rambling on.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 20 January :: 9.26pm

i am in a really bad mood right now...

i have to go to lazer skate in like 5 minutes and work the entire night at all nighter and for what? ... to earn about 50 fucking bucks.

i swear i should just become a prostitute i'd make so much more money. seriously i can't even believe myself that i'm staying up an entire night working for only 50 or 60 dollars.

and then.. tomorrow , i have to babysit. can you believe it. right

and then Sunday to top it all off......................... the day i'm supposed to see roman ONCE A FRICKEN WEEK

we're not even seeing each other this week

oh but next week

well next week

we wont see each other either

and probably not the fucking week after that until he gets his first paycheck at his new job down there

god i'm gonna fucking cry i know i'm trying to be freaking strong or WHATEVER but hey it's not working when i dont see him for more than a fucking week.

So yeah i guess what i'm saying is i HATE lack of money and i HATE not seeing roman so dont take seeing your loved one for granted okay.

ughasdlgkjasdl;gkjsdgl;kasjdgl;jasdgl;jl; jwhat a fucking shitty day.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 20 January :: 1.32pm

Last night I was in the hospital again. I was actually going to explain everything thats going on, but now I don't really feel like wasting my time. If you're important then i'll let you know what happened.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I can't wait until I can go back to school next week.

I probably wont ever say that again.

swimfan14

:: 2006 18 January :: 6.59pm

Today was a long long day. I haven't slept very much today. I had a lot of friends come over to visit me :) I love them. They're too sweet.

Now my sleeping schedule is off track. At around 3:30 am my mom wakes me up to so I can take my medicine. I fall back asleep. Then at 7:30am she comes and wakes me up again so I can take more medicine. I sometimes get up and go visit everyone who's getting ready for work and school or sometimes I just fall back asleep. I sleep until around 11:30 when she wakes me up again. I get up..she makes me eat something..I watch a movie...I sleep until 3:30..usually by then someones here to see me..I see them for a while...I usally sleep some more..wake up..i'm forced to eat..I watch tv for a while then I sometimes fall asleep and at 11:30 before my mom goes to bed she wakes me up again and makes me take more medicine...

Haha im going to be addicted now.

I pretty much didn't do that at all today so tonight's probably going to be rough.

I'm going into my 3rd hour (drama) for like 20 minutes just so I can talk to H and see what I'm going to do about the play and I have to get all my homework from the rest of my teachers. Ugh..

Josh's letter he wrote me was so cute. I'm so sad for him. He has to face Ms. Eilola alone...oh well things happen. I'll write his letter tonight, and I can't forget to write Lisa's and Kelli's too.

When I got my picture taken for my license the lady was like "you could have at least smiled" since I was complaining about me looking horriable and then she said that and I just wanted to slap her and be like "umm maybe you should shut the fuck up I have mono and I've been in the hospital" and then I also just wanted to lick her or something so then she'd get mono too.

Anyways I don't really have much to say and too many people are talking to me and my brain still can't function very well and im getting too confused so I can't do all this at once.

~mCaLa~ says:
bummer....so H found out today, did u hear this story yet?
*ASH*-forget the things we swore we meant <3 says:
no
*ASH*-forget the things we swore we meant <3 says:
lol
~mCaLa~ says:
oh...well he was in shock..he's like "are you serious? lil one has mono?" we're all like "umm..yea" he let out a yell..lol

Hope this was fast enough Stacy!!

<3 ashley

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 18 January :: 6.54pm

so i figured out what i hate so incredibly much

and i would never do that to any of you so i really hope karma comes back to you to get you what you deserve.

ughghghghg

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swimfan14

:: 2006 17 January :: 11.23pm

I'm not really mad at you. I just don't think you meant what you said. You lied to me and from now on I can no longer believe anything you say.

How does it feel?

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 17 January :: 10.14pm

lol hahaha omg. jess i have something to tell you. omg............. rarr.

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brad

:: 2006 17 January :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: Painful

Well, my back isn't getting any better, if anything, it's getting worse. I might have to get a skin graph and some surgery done. we're suing the insurance company and the city of fort myers.. I had a meeting this morning with a lady from the insurance company and we talked about what happened and everything. I wish we could just get this all over with. This incident might just make me rich though. Last night I was really, really fucked up, i had to take these pills and i was puking and i couldnt even walk. I woke up this morning not able to walk or move really. I hope to god I get better soon.

On another note, I guess we're moving to Tennessee in a week or so. I don't really want to but that's what we're doing anyways. Yesterday we just got brand new 4-wheelers and im getting one once we move.

I guess that's about it for now. later.

Brad

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fallenfaces

:: 2006 17 January :: 1.59pm
:: Music: Bob Dylan - Blowing in the Wind

Everything reminds me of you.
Days like today are hard.

I hate memories.

Some times I wish they could all just go away.
Yeah, it's better to have loved and lost or whatever the fuck.
But, it's not easier. And I miss you every day and think about you every day. I just want you back. To this day I'd still take you back.
And that is pathetic and sad.

It wasn't like that for a while and now it is again.

I'm trying to be strong. Sometimes it works other times it just does't.

I wish I could throw all of what I remember in your face so you could miss me like I miss you. Did you just forget? Does it just not matter to you? Did it ever matter? I have a million questions that I'll never know the answer to.

I just want it to be over with.

When will it all be over with?

Nevermind. It makes no difference.

fallenfaces

:: 2006 17 January :: 1.26pm

That's what I want.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 17 January :: 11.40am

damn ice. im greatful school was canceled... but if it would have been snowing i would have checked the weather BEFORE i got ready (well ready as in washed my face and brushed my teeth.... but STILL awake enough to be angry about getting up) this is ridiculous. middle of winter and it rains. psh.

i was watching the news this morning....

"a chocolate new orleans?" are you kidding me! why is it that racism starts at the top of the chain?! pathetic.

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