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2004 19 February :: 3.32 pm
well today was a good day....i think i laughed waay to much! lol in 6ht hour i cant remember what i was laughing about and on the bus ride home....so it was fun. and today in family living it reminded me of my mom...i miss her a lot...and idk *sighs* i wish i had a mom again....
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2004 17 February :: 4.17 pm
you know i was having a really good birthday untill Dj got on the bus...he sits there and is like heather shut up....no one wants to listento you and i am getting sick of it...and yet i sit there and take it...he was like why is it so great for you to be 17 when you dont have a car....or a boyfriend for that matter....and i couldnt take it anymore and when i got home...i just started crying. idk what to do....but I'm *nice Heather who would never sy anything* and Dj is like you know i am joking i just think its cute when you get pissed off.....well im sorry but when you do it every fucking day to me i start to get really pissed off....anyways im gonna stop complaining and go now.
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2004 16 February :: 7.15 pm
this is a song i wrote to my mom....
Do You Care
Do you care if i die?
What if i go to Heaven early?
Would you care enough to go to my funeral?
What if someone suddenly took me?
Would you care? ask yourself do you care>
Would you ever leave to make yourself happy?
I would cry
I really dont think you care enough to care about me.
You made yourself happy and accidently had me
You probably never thought you'd have me till you did which made you cry cuz you didnt care.
And you didnt want me
You say you really love me but is it true?
I dont know you probably dont!
Mama i thought you loved me, but I guess you just dont care!
I think not which gets me pissed
I feel like crying everytime you do this which is everyday..EVERYDAY!
I tell myself i hate myself for making you hate me
It just kills me, kills me
It just kills me, kills me....
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2004 16 February :: 5.14 pm
You know whats bad about Vday? my dad didnt even say happy vday...so anyways...2morrow...we go back to that damn school. FUCK! well that kinda sucks but then again its kinda kool cuz its my bday 2morrow and i turn 17. woohoo...i think. anyways ill talk to you all laters
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2004 15 February :: 4.59 pm
:: Mood: idk
well i hope at least some of your valentines day were good....well i was at my aunts house....and i got to see my cuzin mandy and Tj...and there bfs and gfs so that kinda sucked that i didnt have one...oh well i guess...but we all hung out an that was a lot of fun...i have missed them a lot! Tj lives up in the UP and mandy lives over by pando but i only ever see her during xmas..plus she lives with her mom and her dad is my uncle...but yea anyways idk my break has been good...well i found out some bad news about my mom though....my moms ex bf *my lil sisters dad* said he had some tapes of my mom and wes talking he hid a tape player in the van...and on it...my mom said yeah i neer wanted my daughters and rod *my dad* can go to hell. but i dont know if she was just saying that because wes was there and thats what he wants to hear or if she really meant it....so now i know why she dont fucking care if she see's us...she has her fuckin head up her ass and she cant see whats going on....oh well the hell with it i guess.
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2004 14 February :: 5.07 pm
You know what i dont see the fucking point of valentines day??? i mean what if you have know one to celebrate it with...to me i never fucking will so FUCK IT! sorry had to get it out..what about those who dont have a *lover* like me! they need a *Who needs a lover day* cuz i would pry be there every year....well anyways ttyl
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2004 13 February :: 12.37 pm
I think that sometimes when life sucks you sink way down on your self esteem and that must happen to me a lot cuz im in this whole that i cant climb out of....and no one can help me...
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2004 12 February :: 10.10 pm
:: Mood: excited
Friends
Amanda S: my bestest friend in the world!! omg i love you soo much! you mean a lot to me and i know i can come to you for anything.
Jackie R: Girl you are so funny! omg we have to hang out soon...you just make my day when i see you at lunch! you make lunch and Choir well worth being there.
Jenni S: OMG!! To much to say right there!! lol i have missed you soo much and yet we live right around the corner from one another! lol that is just craziness, but i love you soo much!!
Stacy C: wow your so funny! lol at least we have math together??!? lol its so funny yet were like failing it lmao oh well at least its all fun, we have to get together more often.
Jake: My brothers only Brother....lol your a good friend and you mean well. and yes i do miss you...and my bro....i dont see you guys all that much anymore *sighs* well idk what to say!
Danielle P: We are to crazy together!! damn! lol but i still love you!! haha!
Cj F: your just a crazy guy....but its great!!
Dj C: your just crazy too! lol and its also great
Amanda Maxwell: Wow have we been in to much trouble together lol oh well its all fun...we just need to plan ahead from now on!! lol love yas!
Well thats all for now.....and ITS MY 17TH BIRTHDAY ON TUESDAY!! WOOWOOO! lol anyways ttyl byes!
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2004 9 February :: 4.11 pm
well....i went to swirl with my friends.....friday i didnt do anything....saturday i went to audies and ashley cut my hair..while she was doin it i blacked out...got shaky...started sweating and i almost couldnt hear the music that was playin...it was scary so i sat down...than ater that was done...then we went to big boy...back to her house for picks....then we went to the dance...had fun...then i went home with manda and we we snowmobilin sunday...then we called my cuzin and wished him happy bday. well ttyl
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2004 6 February :: 5.12 pm
im sooooo happy! omg i have been hyper all day....i am going to swirl!! lol woowooowooowo!
anways i havent been writeing a lot lately....idk feel like know one cares anyways....well ttyl byes
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2004 4 February :: 6.10 pm
PPL ARE SO DUMB! anyways i dont know if i am ungrounded or what so anyways ill ttyl
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2004 3 February :: 6.27 pm
well lots goin on.....idk if i am going to swirl i hope i can.....ill be sad if i cant.....ummmm yeah i dont know if i am ungrounded yet...well i have to go byes
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2004 3 February :: 6.26 pm
hey jake.....thanks....
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2004 2 February :: 7.29 pm
well i havent been on because of bein grounded latley *sighs* i hate it its like anything i do i am in trouble...oh well i guess that life...anyways i am still alive...more laters g2g
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