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2003 2 November :: 1.45 pm
i went to church this mourning.....my dad looks so funny!! he shaved his gotee..and he dyed his hair and he was fred flinstone for halloween and janet was welma..! it was great!!! but my dad looks so different!! lol its great only a few of the ppl knew who my dad was!! lol but he is growing his hair back and is trying to get the dye out lol so ttyl!!! byes!
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2003 1 November :: 3.57 pm
well its Saturday and i just got home from my aunts house i had a great time but a big part of it was missing.....my lil sister jordyn...her dad decided that she wasnt gonna go over there and so now i miss her a lot i havent seen her since last week wendesday and man i feel bad for her i dontk now if she was with her dad or my mom....but we went trick or treating and then spent the night at my aunts and just hung out today and now i am home and yeah....janet is gonna come over so i cant wait for that....my dad and i were talking yesterday and he is finging out that i am depressed he could see i was sad while i was doing the dishes...he even came upto me and was like whats wrong Heather...and i told himits gonna be really hard not seeing my mom for like 3 months and i was crying and he said that i can talk to him and janet would love it if i talked to her and that he said he could get counseling for me cuz i been so sad lately....and i even talked to my aunt about it and she was totally aggreeing to everything i said to her....so i dont know i just dont know what to do anymore my life is no longer a good one...i am always depressed and shit and it pisses me off and i cry sometimes and *ugh* i dont know i have to go..........byes
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2003 29 October :: 4.33 pm
:: Mood: confused
well you all know i am not talking to my mom...she just came over!! oh man i am so sad seeing my mom cry...and now i am crying its so hard i cant stand this anymore....its seems like all thats ever happening is saddness and depression why is it me god that has to be in this situation *sighs* well i dont know but ihave to go love ya all ~ Heather
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2003 26 October :: 1.15 pm
well i went to Bradie's party and it was fucking hilarious we went and played ding dong ditch..well chet went up and rang the door bell and me miranda tyler brandie adam and a whole bunch of other ppl ran and like there was a dip that we didnt know about in the grass and miranda tripped caught herselfand tripped again and flipped going down the the hill lke 2 or 3 times i laughed so fucking hard omg so then we were all qiet and the guy came out and stood there looking for us for like 5 mins and then went back in side we all ran like hell then went to another house and me miranda ashley and adam hid in the weeds by there woods and tyler and chet went up to the door and rang the bell and ran all sudden you hear BANG BOOM BANG!! and you hear chet say OUCH! and lmao they ran and the guy came running outa his house and ran to the end of his drive way and then i think his son came around the house adn was like BOO! and no one was there but he was like right by me and the others and he went inside and i was like RUN!!! so we all ran all the way back to brandies house lmao it was great but then before we knew it, it was 11 and i had to go lol so well that was my weekend so ttyl byes!
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2003 25 October :: 10.38 am
:: Mood: HAHAHAHAHA
well last night i went to janet house and met her 2 boys bill 16 and tony 19 and they arte really fucking HOTT!!! lol well i am gointo brandy pooles party tonight its gonna be awesome!!!! lol well ill talk to you laters byes!!
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2003 25 October :: 10.31 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANET!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE SO GOOD TO US AND YOU HAVE BEEN MORE OF A MOM TO ME AND MY SISTERS THAN MY MOM HAS MY WHOLE LIFE...YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO US AND DONT KNOW WHAT WE WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU....WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
~Heather
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2003 23 October :: 7.25 pm
ok i have this pet peeve going on...i HAVE to ask this....WHY DO PEOPLE GO UNDER ANNONYMOUS??? its so fucking gay...its like they are scared to say something to me!! are you?? are you fucking scared? if not than why the hell do you do that shit be a real man/ woman and say it under your name just like saying to my face damn it!! it pisses me off! i dont see why they do that shit!! its dumb as fuck...ok i had to get that out..byes!
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2003 22 October :: 8.22 pm
well today was kinda bad i went to my moms and on the way home from her house we were all talking not talking yelling at eachother...about how she dont see her family and yeah we gave her the note today and now i am really scared i just i dont know well anyways ill talk to u later byes
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2003 21 October :: 6.10 pm
:: Mood: depressed
hey guys whats up??! not to much here i am just bored as hell i dont think any one likes my journals..im starting to think i should just stop writting in here i dont know all i do is type for nothing no one reads it so i dont know what do you think? anyways i am kinda depressed again my sisters and i arent gonna be going to my moms for a while
we arent gonna see her on weekends or wednesday nothin is getting to her head but here is the letter i wrote to my mom if you wanna read it
Mom,
Well you may not like this letter like all other letters but we have a serious problem and I really don’t think it is ever going to go away or change…which is one of the facts I am going to talk to you about. You know I really wanted things to change and me and the girls gave it a try. We thought maybe things will change ya know, they haven’t. It really pisses me off that you sit there and say oh yeah there so many things that are going to change is he getting this nice job where he gets all this money and we will go do things…well here we are….but WHAT ARE WE DOIN?? We go get movies all over again and sit at home and do nothing its BS and this past weekend we didn’t need to hear the shit that you and Wes were talking about it was inappropriate, very inconsiderate, immature, and just childish stuff that shouldn’t be said in front of us kids such as when I was telling Mallory it was gross that she put that pumpkin guts in her mouth, all of a sudden Wes is up and saying yeah well I eat nastier and looks at you. Do you know how sick that is to know that….when I told him I didn’t need to know that I MEANT IT! Do you know how uncomfortable I felt. Mom that is the SICKEST THINGS OFF ALL THINGS I WANTED TO HEAR!! Not only that I don’t need to hear it! That stays between you and him! That don’t get out! Oh and by the way I want to say thanks for sticking up for me when wes called me a fucking thing…the girls told me all about it…and all you said was that’s my daughter and then he said I don’t care and you shut right up, when he was trying to leave you shoulda let him , someone that says something about your own kids should be gone! At least dad did. Now I know how much you really respect me! You don’t! Do you know how many poems I have about you, how I feel, how you are? I have so many mom you don’t even know! And you know what they are all in the depressed mood like. And you know what sometimes you act like such a bitch it gets to the point of where I wish I were in heaven already… How does that make you feel? Do you feel good about that? I hope you do cuz that’s how I feel.
And by the way when a man comes walking in the picture it doesn’t mean that you leave your family. Let me ask you something, when aunt Darci asked if we wanted to go to her house and we asked you and you said no, because you want to get the big candy… is that because you want to do it for us or for you? If its for us we would rather to go aunt Darci’s house.
And you know what else? You guys sit there and go out and eat and all that stuff but when we are there no one gets to go out. That is another thing families get to go out! I mean yeah not all the time but out of the year that you have been with him ..we haven’t went out once. We used to go shopping a lot too but I don’t see that happening do I? Nope. So why don’t you like seeing your family?? Really I want to know. And don’t give me *we are tired and don’t have time* we have all the time in the world!! But no we stay at home all the time doing nothing…..Don’t you miss your family? You know what I have another fact for you….you say dad never let you see your family, do you see them now????? Wes don’t let you see them does he! Or you just don’t want to but either or its not a good thing your hurting your family and your self so I don’t know what you are trying to prove but you aint doing a good job of it that’s for sure….oh and by the way if you say that he is such a great person and that he loves us so much why do you guys hide from the family huh?? Prove that we are wrong mom PROVE IT are we wrong about wes?? If so why don’t you guys go to see aunt darci or see grandpa all you ever see is grandma raine and hardly her! So I don’t know what you are doing but get your act together and start coming around to the family more often I mean if you really want us to like him prove he is a good guy…and don’t give me an excuse of *Well Wes don’t like your aunt Darci because he don’t feel comfortable around her* mom I thought you told me he was in a gang! Would he really be scared of aunt darci?? I really don’t think so!! So do something don’t just sit there and let your whole family be afraid for you or be worried about you your going the wrong way with this mom, you really are and I don’t know what it is going to take for you to know that but obviously a long time! You don’t make any sense at all! Well anyways until you do we aren’t going with you again for a while, so I hope you get your stuff together. Oh and we aren’t doing the Wednesday things either I guess if you need to talk to us call us…..
Love you always and forever,
The girls
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2003 19 October :: 6.32 pm
well my fucking weekend sucked! we had to go to our moms house and friday we went and got movies, saturday we went and got pumpkins, sunday we went for a walk...the worst part was that my mom and her bf were acting like teenagers i was like what the fuck????? my sister was fake eating the pumpkin guts and i was like that is sick and my moms bf was like i eat nastier i was like omg that is gross and then kept going on with the comments i was like omg,,so yeah it was so gross i missed my dad a lot and we are telling him what they said and shit so that my dad can say something to them so anyway......i hope your weekends went better than mine love yas! byes
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2003 17 October :: 6.30 pm
well this weekend is gonna suck i have to go to my fucking moms house adn yeah it sucks i dont want to go. she pisses me off so bad my aunt wanted us to go trickor treating with her but no my mom wants to go to the rich ppls place and get big candy FUCKER!! i would pick my aunt over big candy anyday! my aunt is awesome and yeah she is just kool she is one of those ppl that i wanna be just like her she is like a total role model in my life....well anyways i cant go to janices party which sucks i hate my mom.......she is a fucking fucker fuck face! ttyl byes
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2003 12 October :: 5.57 pm
:: Mood: drunk
hey! well i had a great weekend i went to amanda maxwells house this weekend and stayed the night there and yeah that was crazy me and amanda got to be really good friends and then chris came over and that was about crazy...then in the mourning my dad came and got us and the we went home caved pumpkins lol and then sunday i went to church and got baptized and yeah it was awesome!!!! lol g2g byes!
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2003 11 October :: 5.11 pm
| Three things that scare me: | | 1: | people | | 2: | big holes | | 3: | you | | Three people who make me laugh: | | 1: | janice | | 2: | amanda s | | 3: | stacy! | | Three Things I love: | | 1: | my friends | | 2: | my family | | 3: | my dog | | Three Things I hate: | | 1: | people who judge my friends | | 2: | Mrs. babbit | | 3: | fuckers | | Three things I don't understand: | | 1: | fuckers | | 2: | people | | 3: | did i mention fuckers? | | Three things on my desk: | | 1: | web cam | | 2: | pictures | | 3: | phone | | Three things I'm doing right now: | | 1: | doing this fucking thing | | 2: | typing | | 3: | talkin | | Three things I want to do before I die: | | 1: | have sex | | 2: | get married | | 3: | be famous for something stupid | | Three things I can do: | | 1: | get out | | 2: | talk | | 3: | laugh | | Three ways to describe my personality: | | 1: | fun | | 2: | awesome | | 3: | nerdish | | Three things I can't do: | | 1: | be perfect | | 2: | umm care about mrs. babbitt | | 3: | call her a fucker...damn |
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2003 8 October :: 7.42 pm
ok this is to all my friends
Stacy gurl your fuckin awesome....i love you gurl you make my day like as soon as you get on the bus your just awesome and i know if i have a problem that i can come to you even if you dont wanna hear it to bad lol *jk* *hugs* love ya gurl
Janice you have been there for me though the tough shit and that good shit i love you lots and i dont know what i would do with out you your awesome! love a hun..
jecika omg your fucking funny..and you know my dad more than anyone else so when the accident happened it felt really good when you gave me that hug i felt a lot better...i wished you didnt have to move, *tear* i am gonna be sad when you go i love you
I fuckin LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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