:: 2003 28 March :: 7.36 pm

hey guys whats up im not doing the greatest.... i get this feeling my dad wants me to stay home all the time i never get to go to friends at all i was gonna go to janices house this weekend but he always says no and its like he gets to go to the bars all the time why in the hell cant i ever have n e fucking fun it pisses me off.....do n e of you ever get that or am i the only one i am 16 years old and cant do n e thing i feel like my life is meant to be sheltered in home and cant have a social life at least half of youget to do n e thing i could break down and cry right now why is he doing this to me!!! im really starting to not like having a life sometimes i want to kill my self and i could just put a gun to my head but others its like thanks so much for this life i have.... right now i dont have a boyfriend and it seem like everyone else does i really wish i had one and i guess no one can except me for who i am ...im just another fat gurl who cannot be excepted in others peoples lives except janice and she is like my sister she is there for me and when i look down she knows i am and she is asking whats wrong and ill tell her BUT GOD DAMN IT IF NO ONE LETS ME GET OUT (SAYING THIS TO MY DAD) THEN WHAT KIND OF A FUCKING LIFE DO I HAVE....maybe i should just kill myself i dont know but if a change doesnt happen soon i dont know what i am going to do SOMEONE HELP PLZ !!!!!!!!

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:: 2003 20 March :: 3.31 pm
:: Mood: happy

Hey guys whats up not to much here i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better than what i did yesterday and yeah i cant wait till tomorrow cuz talent show tryouts are after school and i really cant wait!! yay! lol well g2g byes!

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:: 2003 19 March :: 8.27 pm

I AM HAING THE WORST DAY EVER!!! MY NOSE HURTS FROM BLOWING IT SOOOOOO MUCH AND MY THROAT HURTS EVERYTIME I COUGH AND MY EYES ARE WATERIN I ALMOST FEEL ASLEEP IN 2ND HOUR AND I ALMOST WENT HOME 5TH HOUR BUT I FIGURED WHY GO HOME WHEN I OLY HAVE AND HOUR LEFT OF SCHOOL SO I WENT ON WTH MY DAY AND STILL WELL..... YOU KOW IT... FEEL LIKE SHIT!!! THEN AT LUNCH I SPILLED MILK ON MY PANTS AND OMG I HAVE TO GO BYES!!

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:: 2003 18 March :: 6.32 pm

I FEEL LIKE SHIT!! my nose is plugged my throat is killing me and i cant breathe and i didnt sing in choir today and i didnt do n e thing in pe if i didi do n e thing in pe i wouldnt have been able to breathe trust me i know what its like i have done it before and yeah...i went to the golf emporium and it was a lot of fun well love yall

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:: 2003 14 March :: 9.40 pm

well the situation with my mom is going no where it seem that everytime we get to her when she is by herself without wes its like theres no point it goes in one ear out the other and iat pisses me off last weekend my sis tried to tell her that we dont lik him AGAIN for the second time we pulled her aside and she didnt want to listen to us at all i dont know if its true or not but i think he beats on her and that scares me because i if he is OMFG so help me god i will fucking kick his ass he pisses me off so much i mean i feel bad for my lil sis jordyn she is 3 and she has to listen to them figh all the time and i wish she didnt so like my whole family want to get together with my mom and tell her how we feel like my WHOLE family my grandpa knows something si going on and doesnt like it so does my aunt uncle and all them we want to tell her what we think but i know she would get pissed and them not let my aunt see jordyn n e more so i dontknow N E ONE HAVE ANY ADDVICE!?!?!?

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:: 2003 14 March :: 9.31 pm

hey guys whats up the past 2 days were kinda like not right cuz it was way to quiet on the bus and in school why?? CUZ JACKIE wasnt there!!! and we all missed her sooooooooooo much and we love her and yeah and like i am so glad its the weekedn it took forever to get here( at least i think) and golf is going good for me i know to some they thinkits a stupid sport but really its not its fun you just have to consentrait and have fun with it so yeha ttyl

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:: 2003 6 March :: 7.51 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: GC!!!!

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:: 2003 5 March :: 2.13 pm

hey guys whats up i am like really excited about saturday becuz me mike chris and janice might be going to the mall that is gonna be so fun i really hope my mom lets me go i really want to becuz i really wanna hang out with janice we havent in a looooong time and i would like to see mike again. so yeah well ttyl byes,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,oh yeah and i really hope i can go to the GC concert with stacy that will be SO MUCH FUN!!!!

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:: 2003 3 March :: 8.16 pm

short and sweet
hey guys bye guys

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:: 2003 28 February :: 9.03 pm

hey guys i am really excited cuz tomorrow i have festival for choir and i think the choir will do really good i know we can even though we had a HALF day of school lol thats was great then as soon as we got home power was back on lmao that was great but yeah well i have to o love yall

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:: 2003 26 February :: 3.22 pm

hey guys whats up long time no see right lol well n e ways i was going to start babysiting these lil kids that i used to babysit and then golf just happened to comebetween us so yeah now i am doing golf and miss the lil ones but its ok i will babysit after i am done with golf but today is wendesday and i have to go to confrences with my mom or dad but i hope it my mom cuz i just want to she might go easier on me bout my grades than dad but its not like i have d and e and fs but i do have one D+ but thats the lowest so good for me huh lolso yeah n e ways i dont really have n e thing so say except give me good luck for saturday i have a choir festival thingy and we all get judged on our singing well c yall later

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:: 2003 21 February :: 6.25 pm
:: Mood: weird

hey guys whats up i know i havent really wrote in a while so n e ways i dont really have n e exciting news except that i am 16 woohoo right lol well byes

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:: 2003 17 February :: 7.58 pm

hey everyone your suppose to say HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HEATHER!!!! lol yeah today is my birthday and i am finally 16 but trust me if your not 16 already let me give you a hint ( it doesnt feel n e older!) lol n e ways my valentines day was ok but i didnt get to see my dad cuz he had to do something so then the 15 he came so us girls ( me and my sisters) and he said i am really sorry i wasnt with you on valentines day and he gave us each a rose i was like awwww then in monday he brought us to the mall and i got a new pair of pants for my birthday and they were like 50 dollars but yeah and i saw Mr. Martins there and we all talked for a lil while ( we were at woodland mall) and then we came home and thats about it lol tommorow i am celebrating my b day with my grandparents and all so yeah n e ways got to go LOVE YOU ALL!!!

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:: 2003 14 February :: 10.19 am

hey guys i had the best night last night it made up for the last 2 weeks me and mike danced to ALL the slow dances and even the other ones lol but we had fun my dad scared the shit out of mike though when chis,janice,and mike came and got me my grandma was taking pictures of me in my dress and all well they came in. then my grandma was like heather get in with your boyfriend there and well get a picture of you guys so mike put his arm around me and my dad waas like HEY HEY HEY NO.....then started laughing i was so embarressed omg and right away mike backed up and was like what what what did i do so then i puched my dad (not hard) in the stomache and i was like lets go then my grandma waslike lets get the pictures then you guys can go so me and mike got togther and got pic and then all of us did so we went to applebees and got some food and then we got to the dance and had a blast!! i had so much fun lol well got to be going now so talk to yall later byes

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:: 2003 12 February :: 11.00 am

hey everyone i am haveing the worst 2 weeks of my life i just found out that now mike cantgo to swirl withi me and i have no date for it *sighs* back to point one again i hate my life n e one else care to join????

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