:: 2003 10 February :: 3.10 pm

hey guys whats up i am kinda disappointed i hear that mike may not be going to swirl and i really want him to go its cuz he has school friday and we dont so (starts to cry)i dontk now and my mom and her bf got in to another fight this weekend i just just wish that he would go to hell and leave my mom alone but of course my mom is *in love* and if they keep fighting the way they are they are gonna break up which is fine with me cause i would like to kick Wesley's ass and put him in his fucking grave early! WHOS WITH ME!!! lol n e ways sory i had to get that out so n e ways yah and i helped my cuzin move into his first aprtment that was kool he was so excited he was like heather give me a hug and so i did lol he's awesome he is like my second brother he cares for me a lot he was like heather if n e guys try to hurt you you tell me ok just like my dad making sure i have the right guys lol but n e ways gots to be going yall so talk to you later byes

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:: 2003 6 February :: 6.00 pm

well today i am kinda happy i am going to swirl with mike and i am gettin my class ring and i am ungrounded if you wanna about why i was grounded ask lol.....and ummmmm yeah so but this all so much money i feel like i am putting a lot of pressure on my mom and dad because my ring is 300$ and the dress will be about 50$ and plus a ticket to swirl which is another like 10 $ i think plus i just got my glasses witch were 225$ and my dads car is getting fixed which is another 145 dollars man i feel really bad now :( plus my friend jackie is mad at everyoneso yeah i guess it isnt the greatest byes

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:: 2003 28 January :: 3.19 pm

I am so happy cuz i found out that janices cuzin likes me and that we are going to swirl together!! woohu lol i have to go and get my dress this weekend and then after swirl is my SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY!! UH HUH OH YEAH UH HUH OH YEAH!! lol i cant wait i am so happy i am gonna be 16 why i dont really i know i just am and then when i turn 18 ill get my license and go everywhere and come home during the nights lol well talk to yall later

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:: 2003 27 January :: 3.49 pm

hey everyone whats up not to much here friday i went to my moms house saturday my mom and her bf got into a fight just stupid shit and so they werent like totally talking at the time so my mom was like well i am taking the girls an we are goin shoppin i was like"YES" so we went to the mall (woodland) i konw some peeps dont like it there but my grandma works ther and she is like a boss of costumer service so dont say ne thing to me ok i dont feel like hearing it n e ways so we went there and my mom let us go and she stayed with jordyn were the play area is with the bacon and all that is n e ways i went to Clairs and got somereally kool earings and a necklace....OH stacy guess what i got! i got a new GC poster its awesome i got it at hot topics lol......n e ways so then i went back to my mom and she and my sis went to some other stores. then i watched my sisters (jordyn and mallory) and so jordyn fell (she wasnt crying though) so i asked if she was ok mallory goes yeah..so then this lady goes are they yours !!! lmao ! i was like no they are my sisters.she was like oh i was like i am turning 16 in february ...she waslike O0O!! lmao that was to funny then sunday i watched te superbowl at my grandmas well ttyl byes

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:: 2003 23 January :: 8.02 pm
:: Mood: depressed

i really dont have n e thing to say but i am happy cuz i am going to swirl with mike but for some reason i am depressed why i havent a clue i just feel down right now. i cant wait til february cuz i will be 16 and yay for me do i sound amused to you? NOT REALLY ! i wish i was n e place but home. i dont konw why though and i wished i did. it seem like evrything is going right in my life now (except my mom and her bf) that pry what it is but now that i have everything almost i am just depressed i wish sometimes i could die others i am so happy that i dont know what i would do with out life....I guess the reason i actually have a life is cuz of my dad i would like to thank him efor being there ( DAD YOUR THE GREATEST AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOR EVER AND EVER AND EVER!!) my friends for being there for me espesually you janice your like a sister to me and you stick up for me at school if i need ya! i love you hun! and stacy you just make life fun we always laugh when we are together i mean like a nonstop laughing almost (my dad can even tell you that one i think you know when and what i mean) and jackie i dont know what i would do without you gurl your just as crazy as me.... Mike (janices cuz) i would like to thank because he is going to the dance with me.... umm who else is my frinds lol well i guess i could say jake but i dont know if he is mad at me but jake your just there lol but your awesome even though i know you dont "know" me as you say but n e ways i have to go guys so talk to yall later!

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:: 2003 22 January :: 8.42 pm
:: Mood: peaceful

its my poem
Its called: There and Gone by me.
I remember the days i came home to find you sitting on my steps, i was so happy to see you.
It was alwyas my welcome home hug.
We held eachother for what seemed a forever.
The next day had come and only to find you not there.
i sat in wonder as to what could be wrong.
I heard the phone ring and picked it up to find out that you were in the hopital.
They told there was an accedent only to find out you would probably die.
As i started to cry i got into my car and rushed to the hospital,
I got there just in time to say i love you and goodbye
As i go home after the long hours i can only think of you.
why had this
happened?
Suddenly i came out of my thoughts just in time to see a head on collision, now its my turn, as i feel the sharp paid shoot through my body.
I think of my lifetime memorys and see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I think to myself "what is this"
Then it hit me "now i am dead"
Now him and i can be together forever
It was so fast, we were there and gone.

well thats all byes

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:: 2003 20 January :: 8.24 pm

so does ne one ever feel left out but some reason you dont know why? I did today at the bar cuz i asked my dad if i could play pool and he was like ok so he got some quarters and started playing with other poeple not me! i was like umm i said me not them ! but then me and my sister were acting tupid out on the dance floor n e ways so i still had fun.....n e one wanna go just tell me! lol

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:: 2003 20 January :: 6.45 pm

WHY DONT N E ONE EVER REPLY TO MY JOURNALS N E MORE AR THEY BORING OR SOMETHING???

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:: 2003 19 January :: 11.22 am
:: Mood: awake

well i hope next week goes better than last week did and guess what! i me\ight be working at the church that i go to soon i am gonna help out at the nursery and see all the lil kids there so cute!but today i saw some really hott guys at the church they were new and omg talk about hott i think they were collage guys but im not sure all i know is one short ones tall and and they are both hott!!! well ok thats enough of that. we had a dog at our gmas because and it was the seocond time so us girls and my dad were gonna keep it but it sheds to much and so we couldn. so we found the owner and he came and got it well ttyl byes!

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:: 2003 17 January :: 4.43 pm

STACY AND TJ ARE THE CUTEST COUPLE AROUND AWWWW THEY ARE SO SWEET TOGETHER ! I LOVE YOU STACY !! ( as a friend) lol

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:: 2003 17 January :: 3.47 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: sad slow music

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:: 2003 13 January :: 5.45 pm
:: Music: GC!!!

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:: 2003 13 January :: 5.45 pm
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:: 2003 10 January :: 3.10 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: GC

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:: 2003 9 January :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: sad slow music

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