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:: 2004 28 March :: 8.47 pm

well i had a lot of fun this weekend and on friday i went to My Ashleys house (Ashley Price) and we hung out and her dad brought us to town saturday and we went to her moms and visited her for a while....so that was fun...and then i went home at 7 and i got so see my lil sister jordyn....i have missed her so! and we had fun and played simon says lol and then we went to church this mournin and we went and seen naudia and mckayla...david and jordan were there so rach hung with them i guess....anywho...ill be goin now...i wanna get a shower....we helped them get some rocks and some were like boulders so yeah anywho....gonna go and take a nice warm shower with strawberry shampoo and conditioner....and orange citrus body wash ( that jen got me for my bday) so anyways
Byes!~ ~Heather Renee

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:: 2004 25 March :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: weird

Mom
Ya know....today at school i was fine...but when i got home...i started thinking about my mom....and sometimes when i get to thinkin about her....so much...that i feel like its real...then i feel like i wanna puke....i just wanna get rid of all the problems she is making.....i feel like i have this really heavy load sittin on my chest right now and it hurts really bad GOD I HATE THIS WHEN I FEEL LIKE THIS *sighs* i need her....but she needs to change.....and i dont think she will its been almost 6 months.....thats half a damn year! i have to go..

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:: 2004 23 March :: 9.55 pm

happy
Today was weird on the bus....when we got to the middle school Cj and Dj made me laugh soooooo hard! and Cj was like Heather look at me nd i go what? and he iwas like lookin in my eyes all close and goes nope she isnt High...lol i was like omg! lol and then Dj put my lipstick on...and was like Heather ..and i looked at him and he took my head and kissed my Cheek i was like omg! lol and then he kissed the other one so i put some one and kissed his cheek...well i forgot about it and my dad seen it on my cheek at the store and he is like Heather what is on your cheek and i told him......and he started laughin...so yeah it was funny....but anywho....I am gonna go to Ashley Price's house 2morrow after school...that should be fun...i love her mom....i call her mom now...it feels weird to have a mom again...but...idk...

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:: 2004 22 March :: 10.07 pm

hmmm.....*sighs* i am bored....i went and babysat for my neighbors who's house burnt down....i feel so bad for them....there under a lot of stress....trying to find a new house b4 the 8 of april...because they can only stay in the house there at for 30 days....and they cant find a place to rent for only 6 months everyone wants them to stay for the year....i think its fuckin stupid...they just need a place to stay till they can get there house built i mean what the fuck my god.......

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:: 2004 22 March :: 3.30 pm

I know i am a nard but i am gonna do my own lol lets see how well i know myself....


1. My name: Heather Renee Rathbun

2. Where did we meet?: i dont know where we met but we met umm Feb 17,87

3. Take a stab at my middle name: hmmm Renee?

4. How long have you known me?: Since February 17, 87

5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: A lot!

6. Do I smoke? Noppers

7. What's my favourite color?: You have 4...baby blue...hot pink...light purple and really light green

8. When you first saw me what was your first impression? no comment

9. My age?: 17

10. My birthday?: February 17, 1987

11. Color Hair?: Bown with blonde highlights

12. Color eyes?: Green and sometimes brown

13. Have you ever had a crush on me? Nope...

14. Have you ever been jealous of me? Yes

15. Whats one of my favorite things to do indoors?: get on here...read...idk

16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? Daddy and mommy

17. Whats my favorite type of music?: Country, rock....others

18.Whats one of my favorite things to do outdoors?: walking sometimes running, drivin around....others

19. Am I shy or outgoing? Depends on the moment

20.Would you say Im funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)or not at all: umm well you can be dumb sometimes but i say both ways

21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: lmao!!!! lets just say both

22. Would you consider me a friend?: yes

23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: average...you get along with everyone who likes you...

24. Have you ever seen me cry?: yes many times

25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?: Amagedon...dont ask

26. Are my parents still together?: unfortuanatly no....

27. Do I have a nice butt? No


28. Do you love me? Yes

29. Quiet or loud? Both

30. Short or Tall: Tall 5'9"

31.Weird or original: lol weirdo

32. Smart or stupid or anything else?: both...

33. Boring or Fun?: usually fun

34. Attractive or Unattractive?: I dont think i am but sometimes with my make-up and stuff i think i am...

DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)

35.A psycho?: sometimes

36.Athlethic?: if you include volleyball and Golf yeah

37. A nerd?: definatly

38. A slut?: no way

39. Ghetto?: naw

40. A bitch?: yeah can be sometimes

41. Two-faced?: no

42. Obnoxious?:no

43. Immature?: sometimes while i am being a nerd!

44. Mature?: yeah i do have to be that cuz umm i am 17!

JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS

45. What do you think I will be when I grow up?: Photographer

46. A) Do you think I will get married?: i hope..

B) If you do, who do you think I will marry?:i dont know

47. When is my birthday?: i already told you...febuary 17, 1987

48. Who is my best friend?: Amanda Smith

49. What song reminds you of me?: umm i dont konw....

50. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?: no

51. If you could rename me, what would my name be?: idk

52. Have you ever had a dream about me?: no

53. A feature that you like about me: you dont care what ppl think about you...

54. If you could give me anything, what would it be? a guy

55. If you could give me one thing in the whole world, what would it be?: Money

56. Am I physically ugly, average, decent, good-looking, beautiful, hot?:
umm average??
57. Would you ever kiss me?: no cuz i am you

58. Would you ever consider being my boyfriend?: no

59.Do you ever think about me off-line?: yeah

60. If we spent a day together...where would we go and what would we do?: hmm thats to much to think about

61. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?: outgoing

62. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me?: oh yeah!

63. Do you want me?: lol oh yeah

64. What word do I say all the time?: Crazyness

65. Is there anything you'd like to say to me?: I love you!

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:: 2004 20 March :: 3.48 pm

well not much is happening...last night Ashley came to my house and we had fun...and then we woke up and got ready for chior festival and i think we did good singin but sight reading really sucked so yeah i was pissed about it....but oh well i guess *sighs* some ppl in there suck...coughsallyncoughs scuse me had to clear my throat lol anywho....now i am at ashley's house and were hangin out.....well ttyl

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:: 2004 17 March :: 4.03 pm

well today was going real good untill 6th hour had a bad day and dont wanna talk about....i think i am become like actually depressed like...i dont think it....i know it...ya konw? everything in my life in going wrong but oh well i will stop complaining now...byes

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:: 2004 15 March :: 8.12 pm

Hey, well i had kinda a weird day...i was up..and i was down...the thing with my mom is takin a real BIG toal on me.....So yeah anyways jared was like were you ok today? and he goes you look kinda depressed...so i was like yeah...but anyways...i have to go ttyl byes

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:: 2004 14 March :: 9.18 pm

well friday i had Amanda Maxwell over here that was perty fun....then her dad came and got her saturday and then mandy came and got me at 11:30....then we went to her family reunion...then back to her house and watch bring it on again...and talked to a guy on the phone...then sunday we went to kerri's suprise party and that was fun too! well thats about it

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:: 2004 12 March :: 10.19 pm
:: Mood: happy

Well i am in a good mood today...amanda maxwell is here..and we just hangin out havin fun...talking to ppl on the net....well g2g! byes!

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:: 2004 11 March :: 5.10 pm

MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!! COME ON!! THIS IS REALLY PISSIN ME OFF I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE AND YOUR NOT THERE!

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:: 2004 9 March :: 6.07 pm

Hey stacy i went to that site www.badgerbadgerbadger.com lol

Its a Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger, Badger.....Its a snake! snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake...its a badger, badger, badger, badger, badger, badger, badger, badger...


Yeah...there ya go

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:: 2004 8 March :: 3.09 am

*Get up The neighbors house is on FIRE!!!*.....i got up this mourning at 1:00 because my neighbors house was ablaze. all i could see through my window was smoke...or big fiire....it was aweful. I got dressed real quick....and ran outside all my neighbors were there including the ppl with the house on fire....i ran up to amanda and gave a huge hug and was like *THANK GOD YOUR OK!!* and the kids were ok too...

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:: 2004 7 March :: 9.29 pm

not a day goes by that i dont think of you, after all this time, somehow you remain oh so deep inside.......not a day goes by.

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:: 2004 4 March :: 9.16 pm

I started crying today....I miss her so much..

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