Estuans Interius Ira Vehementi

:: 2008 6 May :: 5.25pm

I can't decided how i feel about anything right now.

to much drama, its freaking me out.

:: 2008 6 May :: 1.43am

glad to be out of that place.

we just moved to erin's dad's house, we each get our own room and we've got our own bathroom to share. :)

the only thing we left was a note on the counter that says

"Dear A's, went to mexico <3 justin and erin"

i thought it was clevar.

:: 2008 5 May :: 8.40pm

In Rockford all week. However, I am working 9 to 5. So if you want to hang. Gimme a ring a ling.

rayray

:: 2008 5 May :: 4.00pm

I am not eligible for a Pell Grant.
Therefore I have to get Student Loans.
I am mad because tuition is due Thursday.

Fucking cock suckers!

:: 2008 4 May :: 8.06pm

so....

i'm in texas.

I hate where i live, to many fucking rules, i have to put all my stuff in one tiny closet when i'm done with it, a real pain in my ass.

i don't like not having my own place, i don't like not having a vehicle, and i really don't like feeling like i'm trapped.

i knew this was going to happen.

ugggh, i don't like this place right now.

7 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 4 May :: 8.42pm

I went to AQ's graduation yesterday. The girls (Bekka, Laura and Theresa) all graduated.

Today they moved out. And even though I know that we will keep in touch and I will see them again, it still makes me sad. I hate endings.

fishyrere

:: 2008 3 May :: 8.45pm

Quite a night.

m&ms487

:: 2008 2 May :: 12.32am

Things I have to read for the GRE. Note: I've read about 1/3 of these, but do I remember them?
Milton, John Paradise Lost 27 5
Chaucer, Geoffrey Canterbury Tales 22 7
Shakespeare, William King Lear 20 5
Pope, Alexander The Rape of the Lock 17 5
Anonymous Beowulf 13 6
Swift, Jonathan Gulliver's Travels 13 5
Shakespeare, William The Tempest 13 5
Marlowe, Christopher Doctor Faustus 12 5
Gray, Thomas Elegy Written in a Country Churchyard 11 4
Thoreau, Henry David Walden 11 5
Spenser, Edmund The Faerie Queene 11 3
Alighieri, Dante The Divine Comedy 10 3
Sophocles Oedipus Rex 10 4
Faulkner, William The Sound and the Fury 10 4
Shakespeare, William MacBeth 10 3
Arnold, Matthew Dover Beach 9 5
Dickens, Charles Great Expectations 9 3
Swift, Jonathan A Modest Proposal 9 3
Shaw, George Bernard Arms and the Man 8 5
Plato The Republic 8 5
Keats, John Ode on a Grecian Urn 8 4
Shakespeare, William Othello 8 4
Jonson, Ben Volpone 8 4
Homer The Iliad 8 1
Fielding, Henry Tom Jones 7 5
Tennyson, Alfred Lord Ulysses 7 4
Joyce, James Ulysses 7 4
Congreve, William The Way of the World 7 4
Bronte, Emily Wuthering Heights 7 4
Dryden, John All for Love 7 3
Fitzgerald, F. Scott The Great Gatsby 7 3
Shakespeare, William Hamlet 7 3
Forster, E.M. Howard's End 7 3
Milton, John Lycidas 7 3
Homer The Odyssey 7 3
Johnson, Samuel The Preface to Shakespeare 7 3
Byron, George Lord Don Juan 7 2
Milton, John Comus 6 4
Pope, Alexander An Essay on Criticism 6 4
Anonymous Everyman 6 5
Hardy, Thomas Jude the Obscure 6 4
Wordsworth, William Lyrical Ballads 6 4
Shelley, Percy Bysshe Ozymandius 6 4
Richardson, Samuel Pamela 6 4
Sheridan The Rivals 6 4
Sterne, Laurance Tristram Shandy 6 4
Tolstoy, Leo War and Peace 6 4
Eliot, T.S. The Waste Land 6 4
Shakespeare, William Henry IV, Part 1 6 3
Shakespeare, William As You Like It 6 3
Johnson, Samuel History of Rasselas, Prince of Abyssinia 6 3
Amis, Kingsley Lucky Jim 6 3
Melville, Herman Moby Dick 6 3
Malory, Sir Thomas Le Morte D'Arthur 6 3
Johnson, Samuel The Vanity of Human Wishes 6 3
Dickens, Charles Hard Times 6 2
Shelley, Percy Bysshe Ode to the West Wind 5 5
Forster, E.M. A Passage to India 5 4
Aristotle The Poetics 5 4
Goldsmith, Oliver She Stoops to Conquer 5 4
Anonymous Sir Gawain and the Green Knight 5 4
Eliot, T.S. Tradition and the Individual Talent 5 3
Chaucer, Geoffrey Troilus and Criseyde 5 3
Thackerey, William Vanity Fair 5 3
Spenser, Edmund The Shepheardes Calender 5 3
Shakespeare, William Romeo and Juliet 5 3
Faulkner, William A Rose for Emily 5 3
Spenser, Edmund Amoretti 5 3
Coleridge, S.T. Biographica Literaria 5 3
Dostoevsky Crime and Punishment 5 3
Dickens, Charles David Copperfield 5 3
Thomas, Dylan Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night 5 3
Webster, John The Duchess of Malfi 5 3
Pope, Alexander An Essay on Man 5 3
Steinbeck, John The Grapes of Wrath 5 2
Hemingway, Ernest Hills Like White Elephants 5 2
Johnson, Samuel Life of Cowley 5 2
Etherege, Sir George The Man of Mode 5 2
Browning, Robert My Last Duchess 5 2
Eliot, T.S. Journey of the Magi 5 1
Tennyson, Alfred Lord In Memoriam A.H.H. 4 4
Eliot, T.S. The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock 4 4
Flaubert, Gustave Madame Bovary 4 4
Cervantes Don Quixote 4 4
Joyce, James Dubliners 4 3
Austen, Jane Emma 4 3
Shaw, George Bernard Major Barbara 4 3
Eliot, George Adam Bede 4 3
Melville, Herman Bartleby the Scrivener 4 3
Huxley, Aldous Brave New World 4 3
Milton, John Samson Agonistes 4 3
Wilde, Oscar The Importance of Being Earnest 4 3
Moliere Tartuffe 4 3
Boswell, James The Life of Samuel Johnson 4 3
O'Neill, Eugene Mourning Becomes Electra 4 3
Edwards, Jonathan Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God 4 3
Butler, Samuel The Way of All Flesh 4 3
Wright, Richard Native Son 4 2
Sophocles Antigone 4 2
Conrad, Joseph Heart of Darkness 4 2
Anonymous Sir Patrick Spens 4 2
Hawthorne, Nathanial The Scarlet Letter 4 2
Orwell, George Shooting an Elephant 4 2
Woolf, Virginia To the Lighthouse 4 2
Wycherley, William The Country Wife 4 2
Wilde, Oscar The Critic as Artist 4 2
Swift, Jonathan A Description of a City Shower 4 2
Frost, Robert Design 4 2
Villon, Francois/Rossetti The Ballad of the Dead Ladies 4 2
Mill, J.S. On Liberty 4 2
Marlowe, Christopher The Passionate Shepherd to His Love 4 2
Wilde, Oscar The Picture of Dorian Gray 4 2
Shakespeare, William Richard II 4 2
Fielding, Henry Joseph Andrews 4 2
Defoe, Daniel Moll Flanders 4 2
Twain, Mark Huckleberry Finn 4 2
Bruegel Icarus (painting) 4 1
Plath, Sylvia The Mirror 4 1
Raleigh, Sir Walter The Nymph's Reply to the Shepherd 4 1
Keats, John Ode on Melancholy 4 1
Dickenson, Emily If I Could Stop 4 1
Holmes, Oliver Wendell The Chambered Nautilus 4 1
The Venerable Bede Historia Ecclesiastica Gentis Anglorum 4 1
Virgil The Aeneid 3 3 Burney,
Fanny Evelina 3 3 Thomas, Dylan Fern Hill 3 3
Keats, John Endymion 3 3
Milton, John Areopagitica 3 3
Voltaire Candide 3 3
Heller, Joseph Catch .22 3 3
Miller, Arthur The Crucible 3 2
Joyce, James The Dead 3 2
Boccaccio Decameron 3 2
Tolstoy, Leo Anna Karenina 3 2
Dickens, Charles Bleak House 3 2
Godwin, William Caleb Williams 3 2
Miller, Arthur All My Sons 3 2
Meredith, George The Egoist 3 2
Finch, Anne Adam Pos'd 3 1
Burns, Robert Ae Fond Kiss 3 1
Paine, Thomas The Age of Reason 3 1
Mencken, H.L. The American Language 3 1
Donne, John An Anatomy of the World 3 1
Fleming, William Arts and Ideas 3 1
Raleigh, Sir Walter The Author's Epitaph, Made by Himself 3 1
Wilde, Oscar The Ballad of Reading Gaol 3 1
Browning, Robert The Bishop Orders His Tomb 3 1
Cooper, James Fenimore The Deerslayer 3 1
Sidney, Sir Philip The Defense of Poesy 3 1
Yeats, William Butler The Dolls 3 1
Stevenson, Robert Louis Dr. Jekyll

chelthesmell

:: 2008 1 May :: 10.36am
:: Mood: optimistic

Everyone should vote for me for the Chevy Riders!! [[PLEASE!!]] Text 'VirgilineD' to 28546! You can be entered to win a brand new Macbook Air and I will be voted for to get a frickin' sweet job! So do it, even if you dont know me or dont like me! Please do it!! And tell your friends to do it!! You have from today until 5 pm on May 7th!! YAY!!

:: 2008 1 May :: 1.03am

well, my plane leaves tomorrow morning at 10:37 am

for those of you that didnt' get to see me before i left....

tough shit, i'm gone now, i'll be back when i get back.

for those of you that did take time out of your busy lives to come see me before i left, i really enjoyed it, thank you.

also a big thanks to jenny and jenny's mom for throwing me a party
thanks to everyone that came.

2 slinked away | face the fox

fishyrere

:: 2008 30 April :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: pissed off

The thing I hate most about having friends from church is that they are always on their high horse. GET THE FUCK OFF IT! I'M HUMAN! So every once in a while I smoke and drink. whoopdefreakindoo! Just because you are better at keeping your "sin" hidden doesn't make you a better person. Lay off ass-holes. So much for church "friends."

4 slinked away | face the fox

supineness

:: 2008 29 April :: 1.14am
:: Mood: Emo

WB
I wrote you a letter and I signed it with a smile.
I asked you how you've been and if you've seen your brother.
I wanted to know your position on the weather.
Maybe it's only winter where I sit.

I told you that I miss you.
Your coffee wasn't as bitter.
I wanted you to call me.
Right now your at a party.

Best friends fade into the summer.
Responses cause viral diseases.
There is no need to write me.
We were only pretending for the masses.

You were only being friendly.
Godly to the core.
Forget I even wrote you.
I didn't say I needed the support.

Life is so much easier anonymous.
Cyber and alone.

ojeeztutone

:: 2008 28 April :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: anxious

Growing up and out
So... In just a few weeks i will be a new homeowner, with lots more bills and responsibilities. Very exciting and scary at the same time. sw00t. Party at my place, everyone bring furniture and alcohol!!! :P

rayray

:: 2008 28 April :: 8.02pm

I have tough girl exterior that i show to everyone except my family.
Which also means that my family gets to me most of all.
They know what pisses me off, and makes me cry.

My brother most of all, knows each and every button to press, like he's dialing his best friends phone number over and over and over.

Today I got told that I am too small to be a corrections officer. And that if I work in a mens prison facility, I will be gang raped..

8 slinked away | face the fox

jayzulla

:: 2008 28 April :: 2.21pm

This is why i hate Devin Hester.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgn-4BLeLsc

eddy	:: 2008 28 April :: 12.50pm Today I fell and felt better Just knowing this matters I just feel stronger and sharper Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful face the fox

eddy	:: 2008 28 April :: 8.25am Sometimes I wish you were more open and clear. So I could just get past this rut and decide which way to turn... face the fox

:: 2008 27 April :: 9.25pm

Looking at cars as ours is dying/dead. I found one I really want. They say it runs fine, it just doesn't reverse. How much do you need reverse anyway? Just park where you don't have to back up.

So if you guys find/see/hear of any cheap cars... let me know.

I love you all.

8 slinked away | face the fox

ojeeztutone

:: 2008 27 April :: 9.19pm

w00t
Yes, I too have one.
Awesome.

4 slinked away | face the fox

tehwaht

:: 2008 27 April :: 3.26am

Another step closer.
We fixed up a few things at the house today.
It isn't fully his yet, but it is close enough.
A few weeks away.
There is going to be an engineer going through it sometime.
There is also going to be an appraiser going through.
After they go through there will be more paperwork.
After that paperwork, it should be his.
Finally after all of that, it will be our home.

supineness

:: 2008 27 April :: 3.12am
:: Mood: Tired

I am very talented.
I live for my talent.
If only I knew the right people.

I could easily say good-bye to Washington.
I would roll all over more than just Lincoln, Hamilton, and Jackson.
I would rub hard on McKinley, Cleveland, Madison, and Chase.
When I got a hold of Wilson, I would do more than roll and rub.

It is sick how poor I am.

:: 2008 26 April :: 1.52am

weird isn't it?

how you see someone you went to school with and they are pregnant.. and having twins.

seems like just yesterday we we're playing on the swings at recess.
my how time flys.

in other news, 5 days. I'm nervous about the move, but i've got a good feeling about it at the same time, i got my bill paid tonight. fuck you chase mastercard i don't owe you shit anymore!!!!!!

heh.

anywho, off to meet the sandman.

:: 2008 25 April :: 11.56pm

before

after:

4 slinked away | face the fox

eddy	:: 2008 25 April :: 11.04pm I don't want to be alone tonight.... 2 slinked away \| face the fox

:: 2008 25 April :: 12.36pm

probably should have posted this earlier.

tomorrow night is my going away party at jenny reed's house
BE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!

call me for directions 616 835 2734

6 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 25 April :: 1.09am

Thing I just remembered:

When Hannah and I went to see Don Quixote, we thought during the entire ballet that this one woman was this other chick's mother. But then she suddenly marries/hooks up with this creepy guy. And she is apparently other chick's really old and ugly sister.

m&ms487

:: 2008 23 April :: 10.02am

It's getting so close...the end of the semester, that is. Today is my day off...tomorrow I have KKY meetings and I get installed. I work Friday and Saturday. I have an exam on Monday morning, and two on Thursday.

Then I'm done. Well, I'll be up here for another week working...but then I'll be done. Then, back to living with the parents, going to the dentist for the first time in a year (I'm sure I have numerous cavities), getting my brakes checked out, settling in, maybe do some lounging. Who knows.

:: 2008 23 April :: 10.38pm

okay, so the deal i made with my credit card might not happen.

i was expecting a paycheck today, boss is in chicago and won't be home till friday, fucker forgot to write me a check and now i'm missing a little more than half the money to pay my fucking bill tomorrow.

its a last chance for this. fucking stupid

11 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 23 April :: 7.38pm

andy came over, we got the cutlass running, it breathed its last breath by me, then it ran out of gas.

it made me smile with it running again.