Estuans Interius Ira Vehementi

:: 2008 14 November :: 2.57am

thursday night, that means its time for bowling scores again

this week, highest game ever of 211, 182, and 134, it was a 529 series.

fuck yeah!

average last week was 151

:: 2008 13 November :: 2.59am

I figured out the whole issue of "us" tonight.
we're two different people outside of privacy.

It just doesn't work that way.

9 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 12 November :: 2.51am

I guess this is the time of year for drama.

3 people i know with relationship issues right now.
1 person possibly going to jail.
and a whole slew of other problems.

6 slinked away | face the fox

phil-himself

:: 2008 10 November :: 3.46pm

Lawls my insurance company gave me a PT Loser to drive while my chevy is getting fixed.

This has been a fun afternoon of abusing someone else's car.

m&ms487

:: 2008 10 November :: 2.58pm

I haven't updated in a while. I haven't had time. No. That's incorrect. I haven't had the motivation.

Something is wrong. I'm sleeping all of the time and always tired. It's not depression. I went to the doctor's and they told me I had a viral infection and anemia. A week later, it should be better, but I slept for over twelve hours last night and I've been laying down every chance I get.

I went home on Sunday for a family reunion and the only things people said to me is that I look like a poster child for anorexia and I look tired. I've lost almost eighty pounds. I'm trying to stay stable at 130.

Although my test came back negative for mono, I still think I probably have it. Why else would I be so tired all of the time? Everything is suffering because of it: my grades, my attitude, my dealings with my friends and brothers.

I just want to wake up and be okay.

1 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 10 November :: 2.50pm

eddy

:: 2008 10 November :: 9.39am
:: Music: The Ladie's Man

So much for things looking up for me.....

Because now I'm doing absolutely fantastic. =] This situation is turning out to be so much better than I could have imagined, and it's nothing like I've ever had before. It's all so new to me, and I'm not sure how to react sometimes, but I wouldn't change a thing. =D

:: 2008 10 November :: 2.10am
:: Music: hank williams tear in my beer

1:
Theres a tear in my beer
cause Im cryin for you,
Dear you are on my lonely mind.
Into these last nine beers
I have shed a million tears.
You are on my lonely mind
Im gonna keep on sittin here
Until Im petriified.
And then maybe these tears
Will leave my eyes.
Theres a tear in my beer
cause Im crying for you, dear
You are on my lonely mind.

2:
Last night I walked the floor
And the night before
You are on my lonely mind.
It seems my life is through
And Im so doggone blue
You are on my lonely mind.
Im gonna keep on sittin here
Till I cant move a toe
And then maybe my heart
Wont hurt me so.
Theres a tear in my beer
cause Im cryin for you, dear.
You are on my lonely mind.

3
Lord, Ive tried and Ive tried
But my tears I cant hide
You are (were? ) on my lonely mind.
All these blues that Ive found
Have really got me down
You are on my lonely mind
Im gonna keep on drinkin till I cant even think
Cause in the last week I aint slept a wink
Theres a tear in my beer
Cause Im crying for you dear
You are on my lonely mind.

rayray

:: 2008 9 November :: 11.15am

I feel like I have a lot of emotion to pour out.
But I don't know how to put a lot of it into words.
It's been so long since I have vented any of my emotions.
I think that its because Im gradually getting better at telling Mike how I feel instead of bottling it up, and then just lashing out at him the next time he pisses me off.
Its kind of pathetic that after 3 years I still have a hard time telling him how I feel about certain things.
Most the time I am just trying to spare him the hurt, because I am a harsh bitter person.
I used to blame his daughter for every little thing, and I'd hide out in the bedroom when she'd come over.
But I've overcome that, and I think that I am even coming around to the thought of having kids eventually.

I think I'm growing up..

phil-himself

:: 2008 9 November :: 12.27am

More bullshit, a fucking car wreck. Fucking Hell just what I needed tonight.

I would really like to be able to talk to a certain someone right now.

5 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 8 November :: 1.41am

I've no idea where I stand right now.

7 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 5 November :: 11.59pm

i thought the pornstar's husband was going to rat everyone out.

FUCKING CLASSIC!!!

:: 2008 5 November :: 1.53pm

kimbo got tko'd. lol.

rayray

:: 2008 4 November :: 9.11am

So I've basically spent the last day and a half in bed..
I made an attempt at work yesterday. I felt perfectly fine, then all of a sudden I'm sweating profusely, feeling like I am going to vomit, and then I passed out.
I've been shakey, cold, then extremely hot.
The littlest movement makes my head throb so bad I start balling.
My head hurts even more when the lights are on.

I feel like ass, and look just as worse.

My sister, Derrick, and Seth are coming up in a couple of weeks.
Im really excited about that because I miss them all..

angel_bob

:: 2008 4 November :: 12.35am

Vote tomorrow, bitches.

eddy	:: 2008 3 November :: 6.36pm :: Music: Chevelle - Panic Prone The old problems still stick around. But I think things are looking up for me. I'm hopeful, at the very least. 5 slinked away \| face the fox

:: 2008 2 November :: 2.32am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3M4VacJ4NU

done this1 million times but nobdy understands still. except mishy. kimbo = not shit and washed up. anderson silva is king. nobody will ever be as dominate as he was/is. 1:01 spinning back elbow knockout, who does that? no one. sickest move ever in mma. respect anderson or die.

edit. 4:45 is the sickest bjj triagle you will ever see in your life. and 6:02 is the most disgusting knockout you will ever see in your life. spiing beck
elbow. ouch!.

edit # 2. Spelling wasnt the best, but i still have to give him props. nobody will ever match his skill of fighting. kimbo is chump, lenser is chump, everybody ever is chump compared to him. regardless who it is, it could be fedor at 185 and andersons clinch is to good for anybody to withstand. his strikes are all sniper style. the just hit, and you feel it. love the man, many kudos. plz dont retire in 09!

edit # 3: im sure most of you know this already but i just want to say it. most youtubers (90.5%) of them are morons and try to ethug out.

1 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 2 November :: 2.32am

:: 2008 2 November :: 1.45am

this is how i roll. Oberon, our summer ale. An American wheat ale with the color and scent of a summer afternoon. i dont need to dress up. Im Jay motherfucking Zulla. happy halloween peeps. i hope everyone had as fun a time as i did.

chelthesmell

:: 2008 31 October :: 1.45pm

Thank goodness for the weekend...!
=)

:: 2008 31 October :: 1.17am

FYI: my turds are tapered.

also, i bowled a 163, 149, and 169 tonight.

my average is 147

:: 2008 30 October :: 4.18pm

You have confirmed your interview schedule on 11/6/2008 at 4:00 PM. Please report to the HR office at Sears Auto Center. For more information, please call 6162857721.

4 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2008 27 October :: 11.37am

the sun came out today.

:: 2008 27 October :: 5.46am

All my eggs are now in one basket.

Chapter 2: the beginning.

:: 2008 26 October :: 9.54pm

Its hard to forgive what happened.

Its also hard to lose a friend that close.

what to do?

:: 2008 26 October :: 3.52pm
:: Music: blink 182 - always

for once, i'm enjoying the rain

phil-himself

:: 2008 26 October :: 1.22pm

Not going into work today till 6:00pm because I have the flu. Such a shitty week this has been.

:: 2008 26 October :: 1.19pm

it really sucks losing sombody i was that close with, Its not worth my pain for that though.

also, with all the depressing entry's lately, i bring you ken, the lawn jockey

angel_bob

:: 2008 25 October :: 10.41pm

Did I tell you I updated my ~~law blog~~ photoblog?

Because I did.