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alastar

:: 2005 22 November :: 11.03pm
:: Music: the Mars Volta

There are no nets on solid ground

It's like walking on embers or glass or nails or razors.

These are the times that make thin ledges or tight ropes or balance beams seem easy.

I am confused and corrupting myself, wrapping me up in worry.

There is no need, go to sleep. You're giving yourself too much time to think.

What happened to chainlink? There is something in daylight that makes my armor fade.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 20 November :: 12.41pm

if only all music videos were this real
takes a little while to load, but it'll start...
Read more..

5 day[s] remain | the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 19 November :: 2.57pm

somewhat cliche, but interesting considering the context

6 day[s] remain | the end is here


alastar

:: 2005 17 November :: 11.34pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle


The horns and hooves were dancing in headlight haze and then on the hood.

Dents caught fur and blood while paint was scraped and scratched off. A face full of glass cut bridges of noses and lips of mouths and brows of eyes.

What if..?
I couldn't..
This close..
I wouldn't..

I would never let you go.

The foreshadowing was everywhere, we surely must be blind.
We could have prevented this, if only we'd opened up our eyes.

Deer tied down with faces mortified.
Warnings to be careful.
A joke about running into traffic.
Warnings to be prepared.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 17 November :: 11.42pm

JJJJJJJJJJJJJOOOOOOOOOOOOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2 day[s] remain | the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 17 November :: 5.37pm

moveon.org is sponsoring this backlash against congress for the republicans' proposal of cutting social welfare programs, and what they want people to do is take a picture of themselves so that members of congress will see the actual people that their actions affect. i thought some of the pictures were inspiring and humorous, and it was just nice to see some "normal" people out there with families and the same concerns as the rest of us get involved. grassroots action always gets me. check it out

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 17 November :: 1.24am

tori amos - real men
take your mind back
i don't know when
sometime when it always seemed to be just us and them
girls that wore pink
boys that wore blue
boys that always grew up better men
than me and you

what's a man now?
what's a man mean?
is he rough or is he rugged?
cultural and clean?
now it's all changed
it's got to change more
we think it's getting better
but nobody's really sure

and so it goes, go round again
but now and then we wonder who the real men are

i see the nice boys
dancing in pairs
golden earring, golden tan
blow-wave in the hair
sure they're all straight, straight as a line
all the guys are macho
see their leather shine

you don't want to sound dumb
don't want to offend
but don't call me a faggot
not unless you are a friend
then if you're tall
handsome and strong
you can wear the uniform and i could play along

and so it goes, go round again
but now and then we wonder who the real men are

a time to get scared
time to change plan
don't know how to treat a lady
don't know how to be a man
time to admit
what you call defeat
'cause there's women running past you now
and you just drag your feet

man makes a gun
man goes to war
man can kill and man can drink
and man can take a whore
kill all the blacks
kill all the reds
if there's war between the sexes
then there'll be no people left

and so it goes, go round again
but now and then we wonder who the real men are

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 16 November :: 8.57pm

who protects you from your protector?

1 day[s] remain | the end is here


alastar

:: 2005 14 November :: 6.12am
:: Music: Tool

A plan of attack

These clothes have become rags so I'm tearing the threads apart right at the seams. I'll sow them together again with my faults and frays. I will use my mistakes as armor.

Threadbare to chainlink.

Food has become vile and foul and has lost any source of vitality or fuel. Watch the numbers fall

------------------ 10
--------------9

----------------8
----------------------------7

----------------6

-------------------------------5
------------------4

-------------3


----------------------2





------------------ONE



the end is here


rina

:: 2005 14 November :: 3.26am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: ruby blue - róisín murphy

ready to go, go, go
i suppose this is quite unhealthy.
being awake at 3.30 on a school night and such.

it doesn't faze me though.
it should, but it does not.
the only thing it succeeds in doing is making me tired and rather irritable.

oh, i wish i was nocturnal.
or that everyone else slept the way i do.
maybe it wouldnt be so lonely when you're splitting time with another person.
ah well.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 13 November :: 11.20pm

"djheu3erjbre? dekjhrhewgew. ekjrhwhgre."
"dkjhfehgrwe. fdjkfge. jdjhdje jee jbekjekkjw ertutiknf sknfofjbf ejbewj wqrejbe."
"hekewu?"
"ekjrhb, ekjr he wgrew peubrnej ft."

3 day[s] remain | the end is here


rina

:: 2005 13 November :: 12.53am
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: cosy in the rocket - psapp

nobody knows where we might end up
i miss this.
but the truth is, nothing's all right anymore.
what is?
i'm down down down, drowning in work i can't finish.
my head spins just thinking about it.

so i'm thinking, deciding about what to do next.
what to think next.
i'm pretty sure i need a vacation, and soon.

art has taken a swift turn from the believable to the surreal.
i'm making up things that don't make sense.
and apparently its disconcerting for others.

i'm much too morbid for their taste, maybe.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 8 November :: 10.36pm

please watch this

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 8 November :: 8.51pm

"lenox avenue mural" by langston hughes
what happens to a dream deferred?
does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
or fester like a sore --
and then run?
does it stink like rotten meat?
or crust and sugar over --
like a syrupy sweet?


maybe it just sags like a heavy load.


or does it explode?

3 day[s] remain | the end is here


alastar

:: 2005 6 November :: 10.29pm
:: Music: Rise Against



All of these bricks and boards are building lies
Secured with cement and screw alibies


This is the effect; I am the cause
Calling beauty to all of your flaws
And naming them reasons for affection

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 5 November :: 12.25pm

i received this as an email. it's for those of us who don't speak fluent rap
Read more..

3 day[s] remain | the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 5 November :: 12.16am

wake up, america
shit is hitting the fan around the world. U.S. big business and government need to get a fucking grip. no one wants you shoving your noses into their lives anymore. they don't want to be part of your free trade bullshit. leave them alone! stop raping the whole world!

i'm so glad people are standing up to imperialism. it's such a refreshing thing to see. good for them.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 2 November :: 8.23pm

what i would do for a little anesthesia and a chainsaw.

the end is here


alastar

:: 2005 1 November :: 8.52pm


The rumors are starting to rub away the skin on your tongue. Sandpaperlies.

Oh come on

you can come up with something better than that. At least exaggerate a little.

the end is here


cowboy67

:: 2005 31 October :: 6.21pm

i have an intellectual crush

the end is here

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