things are kinda going better, i guess...i'm never getting my phone back, in may when our contract ends i won't be getting a phone either. oh well. screw it. cellphones give you tumors anyways. hahaha. i hope everyone with a cell dies...LOL...*hopefully* frank will be the first to go!!! YEAH!






i found this in angela's journal...so...time to use it! lol!




Spell your first name backwards: enniroC
The story behind your user name?: Um...well a lot of people call me "Wonder," and I made this username when I was in my LOTR/Elvish days...lol...so I did Wonder + elf and now here's Wonderelf, lol
Are you a lesbian: Umm...NO
Where do you live: Hagerstown
Wallet: Hot Pink...with a Snowboard on the front, lol
Hairbrush: A...um...it's Suave something...black & hot pink..hehe
Toothbrush: Purple & White
Pillow covers: Baby Blue/Soft Yellow/Soft Green...but it's ALL changing soon...
Blanket: Same as pillow covers
CD in stereo right now: Green Day-"International Superhits"
Tattoos: None
Piercings: Ears, but I never wear them...thinking about my Lip once again...
What you are wearing now: A brown & pink Aeropostale monkey shirt + Tilt jeans + Mudd socks...with cows jumping over moons
Hair: Dark brown, NATURAL red highlights


•WHO or WHAT• (was/is/are)
In my mouth: Lyrics [to Nice Guys Finish Last," since it's on...]
In my head: Lyrics [...same song, same reason, lol]
Wishing: Frank would die, I could meet Green Day, I could marry Billie Joe...haha <3
Talking to: DeAnna
Eating: Nothing
Person you wish you could see right now: Green Day...lol...Nick?
Is next to you: The CD case...mm..hahaha...a Caffeine Free Diet Pepsi, a stapler, speakers, all of these other computer accessories...a half empty bowl
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: Dropping out of Guard
The last thing you ate: Chinese
Something that you are deathly afraid of: Needles/Syringes
Do you like candles: Yes
Do you like hot wax: Yes
Do you like incense: Yes
Do you like the taste of blood: No
Do you believe in love: Haha...not anymore
Do you believe in soul mates: No
Do you believe in love at first sight: It's happened to me before...but screw it now...
Do you believe in Heaven: Yes
Do you believe in God: Yes
What do you want done with your body when you die: Buried...next to Green Day...lol
Who is your worst enemy: I don't have enemies...well, wait...maybe Emily Jackson...stupid retarded prep-hoe-slut...lol
If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: A snake
What is the latest you've ever stayed up: Until 7 am
Ever been to Belgium: No
Can you eat with chopsticks: Somewhat
What's your favorite coin: ...Golden Dollar! Hehe
What are some of your favorite candy: *Smarties*, Skittles, Swedish Fish, Starburst
What's something that you wish people would understand: I'm not really the bitch that I play and act to be...and I'm not dumb either...it's pretty much all a joke...all an act
What's something you wish you could understand better: That not everybody thinks like I do
What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow: I don't know...Frank can die? LOL...um...for Annette and I to stop fighting and then she can ditch the hoes invading MY original plans
How old are you: 14
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?): 10...lol...no, I'm pretty average in how I act...
What are your worst qualities: I'm moody, bitchy, easily pissed off, a brat, spoiled
What are your best qualities: I don't have any =/
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning: 45 minutes when I take a shower, 30 minutes when I don't
Do you dream at night: Yes
Do you remember your dreams: Sometimes...it depends
Describe one: I have this reoccurring dream that my mom and I are in Chincoteague in the Rendezvous and we're on a REALLY tall bridge ((like...the height of the Empire State Building)) and it's one lane, and there's a car coming so we swerve and drive off and fall...and each time before I hit the water I wake up
What time do you go to bed usually: After 11
What time do you wake up normally: Around 8...lol
What time do you wake on weekends: It depends on what I did that night before/the week before
Do you find waking late nice or annoying: It depends
Do you sleep with one pillow or two: Two


•SCHOOL•
Do you like school: Kinda
Why/why not: It's boring, but then again it's something to do during the day...lol
Whats ur fave subject: German, maybe...? No, probably Biology because I kick everyone's asses when it comes to grades and answering questions :D
Most hated subject: Algebra
Do you have a fave teacher: Mrs. Watson
Ever had a crush on a teacher: Um, ew, no
Are you a math/science person or an english/drama person: LOL...Science/English...but that doesn't fit any of them...haha


•FAMILY•
Do you like your parents: No comment...pffft and it's not just because of last night
Ever run away from home: "Yes"
Ever thought about it: Hell yeah
Do you have any siblings: No
Do you feel your parents spoil you: Yes
Do you have big family get togethers ever: I guess


•RELATIONSHIPS•
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: No
If so, are you in love with them:
Do they love you:
How long have you been together:
Most romantic thing they've ever done for you:


•Sex•
Ever had sex: No
Do you believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage: I could give a shit less about someone else...but me...I don't think it should happen
Believe in casual sex: I dunno...?


•Religion•
Do you have a religion: Yes
Do you practice it: No...
Do you believe in God: Yes
Jesus?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Heaven?: Yes
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you?: I'd go to Heaven? I'm saved and all but God probably doesn't want me anymore...lol
Does death scare you?: Yes


•Morals•
Have you ever been drunk?: I think (;
Taken drugs?: No
Stolen?: One gummy shark from the Martins candy bin once...lol
Shoplifted?: See above
Tried to commit suicide?: Yes
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend?: No
Gotten into a fight?: Verbal, yes...and I've hit/punched a few people in my 14 years...lol
Are you more innocent or guilty?: Guilty
Would you date a drug addict?: If it was Billie Joe...YES...<3 LOL...um, I dunno...
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict?: I don't think so
Are you racist?: No no no
Are you discriminatory to anyone?: No
Have you been a hypocrite in the past?: Yes
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings?: Closed...I'm a bitch and it SUCKS )':


•Media•
Do you watch tons of tv?: No
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months?: 2 or 3
Do you listen to the radio often?: Yes
Do you read the newspaper?: Yes
Do you read magazines?: Yes
Are you a couch potato?: Yes
Do you use the internet too much?: Yes


•Music•
Whats your fave style of music?: Rock...anything rock...Punk, Emo, Ska, Heavy Metal, Hard Rock, Alt...although I tend to like Punk bands the best, lol
Do you play an instrument?: Yes; Alto Saxophone, Electric Guitar [I suck balls at it]
Do you sing?: Not good
Whats your fave band: GREEN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Ever since...whenever! LOL! <3 Forever and always, always and forever...

i'm crying so hard right now. i'm shaking unstoppably. i'll tell you all about what happened in nyc/outlets/etc., i promise, but later...



alright...so today started out good. school actually went by pretty fast. well...after school, annette and april needed a ride home, so i offered. wellll...annette wanted to wait with evan until his bus came. so finally at 4 pm, his bus came, and so all three of us were going to my mom's car, and leah ended up needing a ride, too. so all of us went out to the car. everyone got in...my mom was apparently pissed...well you know what, i felt bad then, but as of now i could give a FUCK less what my parents feel like and are thinking because i won't be with them for much FUCKING longer.


so i got home...got online...and it ends up that my mom bought some tables and an entertainment center for my room...well, i helped her put my closet on top of my drawers ((it's a complex big closet/drawer "set" that stacks...lol))...so after that i figured my mom would leave my room and all, so i came back down here and got online. well around 6 pm, my mom came screaming down the stairs bitching about how she'd been in my room all day and i've just "been sitting my lazy ass on the internet." well, i nicely told her that i didn't know she was still in there and working, and that i really never asked her to stay in there and clean/reorganize it all for me...because...well, quite frankly, i DIDN'T ask her to do it all for me.


sooooo...i sat down here and minded my own business. between eating swedish fish, texting joe, and looking for mp3's to try and do the new layout on here...i was quiet and all, didn't say a thing or anything.



around 8:45 pm i went upstairs to use the bathroom, and when i came out, my mom was sitting on the chair & ottoman, watching some show. i mentioned that fact that i was texting joe and i laughed about the fact that he STILL hadn't given me nick's number. my mom got an angry look on her face and was like: "i told you not to text anymore!" frank was in the kitchen but he came strolling back on out at that time and as soon as he did i said: "we should get unlimited text messaging, it would be a really good idea, i think"...well then frank snapped and was like: "don't talk about the fucking phone and tell us what to fucking do!" i was kinda confused...so i just KINDLY replied that i was just suggesting it...and next thing i know here comes frank grabbing my body, screaming in my face to "shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up"...i wanted to cry because i did nothing to him, the only thing i said to him all night was in my own defence, just saying to him that i wasn't telling anyone anything, i was just suggesting something...well, frank...he seriously, serious to god, snapped on me and started shaking me and then he turned me around and pushed me down the hall screaming: "GO GET YOUR FUCKING PHONE!!!!!" omg i wanted to cry SO hard...but i held it back, thankfully...and then i started walking back torwards the kitchen because my phone was down here, in the basement ((and for those of you that don't know my house...the hall and the kitchen are in the opposite direction, lol))...well frank was standing in the doorway to the dining room ((that leads to the kitchen...that leads to the basement)) and he kept pushing me back so finally i pushed back against him and i told him that my phone was downstairs...he followed me to the stairs stomping his feet and screaming and yelling profanity words...then he shouted down the stairs as i was walking down: "YOU GET THAT FUCKING PHONE AND BRING IT UP HERE! BRING IT RIGHT UP HERE! AND I'M GOING TO THROW IT IN THE FUCKING GARBAGE! IT'S GOING IN THE FUCKING TRASH!" ...so i slowly walked down here, got my phone, took it out of the alligator and quietly walked back upstairs with it in my hands and quietly put it at the top of the steps. then i heard the car keys and the front door slam...about 10 minutes ago, i looked up the stairs to see if my phone was there; it wasn't...i don't know what happened to the phone/where it is...and to tell you the truth i am TERRIFIED to go upstairs. i don't know what to do now...i want and i feel like i need to tell someone but every single time something like this happens and i tell my dad, tiff, or my grandma, and they try to do something, frank acts all sweet and stuff again and claims nothing happened...and of course, everyone believes him! god, i am crying SO hard right now, i'm bawling uncontrollably, and i'm so, so, so scared to go upstairs...it's 9:20 pm now and i don't know what to do...omg...i just can't explain how hard i'm crying and how terrified i am right now...there's just no words. the day i got home from new york, i was so, so so so glad to finally be home with my mom and frank...but not anymore, right now i would give ANYTHING to get away from here...omg...who should i call? what should i do? what CAN i do? i can't go upstairs, but i can't stay down on here all night...sooner or later either my mom or frank will come down here and pick me up and drag me up the stairs. and if it's frank, he'll drag me by my hair, because he's done it before to me...except he pulled me out of the car by my hair and made me fall on the ground of the parking lot at kerch's.



well...i hear footsteps...i don't want them to know i'm writing this, so i'm going now...please pray for me and wish me luck, i hope everything will be okay, i'm just so scared right now...

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoooo! 2005!



yeah! and guess what that means?!? TIME FOR A NEW LAYOUT! oooh, what now?!? haha...well, it's green day once more, but not american idiot. so you all had better like it. not because it's not american idiot. but because...: IT'S GREEN DAY, BIOTCHES! so love it our get the HELLLLLLLLLL away from my journal. thank you, that is all.


edit: due to *certain* issues and the fact that there isn't an mp3 the internet would like to share with me...the new layout may take longer than expected. terribly sorry. ):



well, i just got back from nyc. and guess what?!? i'm too tired to type! =P so i'll update next time quite a few things...what happened tonight, yesterday, in nyc, AND I STILL NEED TO TELL YOU ALL THE STORY ABOUT THE OUTLETS! ): aww, man, i'm behind, aren't i?!? i had better start updating daily. or perhaps 10 times daily. haha. okay, goodnight.