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2005 26 January :: 7.36 pm
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: good charlotte-movin' on
today was a shitty day. day three of my cold, day two of staying off school. trying to hold down barf all day wasn't to my liking, lol. i sat on the internet alllllllll daaaaaaaay loooooooong...doing nothing...listening over and over and over and over and OVER again to the media-player-thingie on http://www.lpjz.com...haha, i have the cd, and yet, i stream it...anyhoo...
around 2pm, my dad called off of his cellphone. welllll, here's how it went.
me=italics
him=regular
hello?
rinne?
yes? daddy?
why are you home?
i'm sick
oh...is...is your mom there?
no...why?
i need to talk to her...what's her work number?
###-####, i think...why, what's wrong?
it's gram, sweetie, she's not doing good...
oh my god, what happened? is everything okay?
she's had several heartattacks this week, and a few days ago, they had to fly her to hershey medical center...tiff and i didn't leave here until after midnight last night...we came back today to get pap and bring him to see her...
daddy, is everything going to be okay?
she's in surgery right now...i'm going to go and call your mom. say a prayer for gram.
alright, i will...love you
love you too, bye
bye
much better than the last phone conversation, length-wise, as well as the fact that it wasn't as weird - but still, it wasn't good...so alllllllllll day i was worried sick...
...i...never...prayed...
well, the rest of the day was boring. around 5:45 pm, my dad called - but nobody got it. he didn't leave a message, so my first instinct was that something was wrong. well, about ten minutes later...he called again.
my great-grandmother, someone very close to me passed away. i loved her so much, and never again will i see her. it's so heartbreaking to me...before, when others close to me died - well, that's the thing - they normally weren't too close to me...and besides, the last few times anyone has died, i've been too young to understand death. but now, i understand perfectly, and god has taken someone very, very, very special and close to me, away from me. my mom told me not to put this on my journal, but i felt that i had to get my feelings "out," because any time i talk to her now, it's so, so, sooooooooooooo weird and i can't talk without bawling. i can't do anything without bawling right now - it sucks.
well, i'm going to go now. although she's gone, please continue praying for my family and i, and please, pray for god to continue watching over my grandma, although we already know that she's probably in heaven. :)
thank you so much annette for your support!! -pokes the comments to the entry below this one- you're such a great friend and i'm so glad that you're willing to be there and help me through these hard times. thanks again. lylas!
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