I baby sat on Thursday and Friday, it was ok. One of the kids is so good but the other one is really whiney and annoying but atleast im making some money I have to babysit tommorow and Tuesday. Friday night I watched The Butterfly Effect. It was so so so so good. I really liked it but it was really sad and I cried about 3 times through it. I also wathced Elephant. It was wierd but I liked it. It was really sad at the end though but It didnt make me cry, there was alot of hot guys in it. Yesterday I didnt do anything except sleep and stuff. Today I went downtown with my mom and Jodi and Kathy. Me and Jodi went off and got gelato it wasnt as good as it usually is. Then we walked around and we saw Chris, he was walking behind us. We were in the Eatons center place and there was this boy and his mom was getting mad at him and then she kind of just turned away and Jodi did something I dont know what and she was like "Oh son of a" she didnt swear but the lady turned around to her son and was like what did you just say because she though it was her son that said it and it was so funny. We saw them later on and the boy and his mom kept glaring at us. I visited my grandparents today it was nice. Im really tired.

Today was alot like yesterday. I didnt really do anything, I spelt in and got up and watched t.v all day. I was to lazy to exercise but I did exercise for periods throught the day. Im making rolo cookies, they are so yummy!!!

Ingredients

2 cups flour
3/4 cups cocoa
1 tsp. baking soda
1 cup white sugar
1 cup firmly packed brown sugar
1 cup softend butter
2 tsp. vinilla
2 eggs
70 rolo candies

Directions

1. In a bowl combine flour, cocoa and baking soda
2. In seprate bowl beat white sugar, brown sugar and butter. add vinilla and eggs
3. Combine the two mixes
4. Chill dough for 1 hour
5. Shape dough around rolos making sure rolo is completely covered
6. Place on ungreased cookie sheet and chill for 1 hour
7. Bake 7 - 8 minutes
8. Cool on a wire rack

I have made these with and without rolos and they work both ways so ya.

Well thats all the exciting news for today

Well today is today. It is a boring day, I slept in then woke up and watched some tv and exercised then I had a shower, after that I just hung out for a while then straightend my hair and ya I got dressed like 5 minutes ago. Hmm I dont know what to write Its taking me forever to write this to because I am talking to people, I am multi tasking because im cool like that. Cara is coming over around 4 i think. Jodi and Natalie went out to the school. I am here at my house being bored.

Canada day
Today I woke up, had a shower, got dressed, did my make up and went downtown with Jodi. We met Natalie and Mariah in centenial square. We looked at the stuff there because folk fest was going on. Then we went to China town and bought bubble tea, we also went to hearts content and I tried on dresses, they were really pretty. Then we went to the music store and looked around. After we headed down to the waterfront where the rest of folk fest was going on, we met up with Kelso and Frita. I got a balloon sword and wand with a heart on it. We walked around and looked at the stands from all over. Then we signed the giant Canadian flag they had, I cant remeber what we wrote but Jodi wrote something like Canada rocks the socks off your old dead grandfather. We then got gelato it was so good. We walked along the inner harbour and hung out. We also saw Chris it was nice. Then we got Mc.Donalds, I was happy. I had a great day.
My mom is hung over, all she ever does is drink literally. She gets home from work sits outside with her friends until bed time and drinks. She went out last night though and stayed out till two drinking. She is hung over and in a very bitchy mood tonight. I am pissed off because someone stole my cheetos and I love cheetos and someone stole mine so I am pissed off. My mom is pissing me off to. Even though I love her so much Im sick of living with her, all she does is drink.
I should have gone to see the fireworks with Cara but I didnt want to.

1. What is your full name: Holly Rea Vandermeulen

2. B~day? December 16

3. Age? 13

4. Sex: female

5. Social security? …………..?

6.Where do u live? Victoria, British Columbia, Canada

7. What school do you attend? Shoreline but only for one more day!

8. Pets? Mr. Pickles (my special fish) Kaluha, Bootsie, Trouble, Smudge, Lucifur (My kittys) Cliffa (My dog)

9. Righty or lefty? Lefty

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10.Original hair colour: Dark brown

11.Hair colour now: Brown, Black, Blondish, Faded pink and some other random colours

12. Eye colour: Green sometimes Hazel sometimes Brown and Sometimes orange

13. Contacts or glasses? neither

14. Do you have any piercing? No

15. Do you have any tattoos? I wish

16. Do you wear any rings? No

17. Do you have a certain fashion you follow? Nope

18. How are you today? Ok I guess Im rather depressed today though

19. What pants are you wearing right now? My really cool light purple pj pants with dark purple butterflys

20. What shirt are u wearing right now? My red fox racing tank top

21. What does ur hair look like at the moment? Fried and messy

22. What song are u listening to right now. Lip gloss and black

23. How is the weather right now? Really nice, the sun is setting and its just warm not to hot or to cold

24. Last person you phoned: Jessica

25. Last dream you can remember: When the steamroller went through my room……….that was a horrible dream it made me so mad!

26. Who are you talking to now? Stormy

**********MORE ABOUT YOU!**********

27. What are the last four digits of ur phone number? 7866

28. If you were a crayon, what color would u be? Black and Lime green that’s right people I would be the worlds coolest multi coloured crayon!

29. Have you ever almost died: Yes

30. Do u like the person who sent u this: Oh ya she is sexy and I love her <3

31. How do u eat an Oreo? Many different ways

32. What makes u happy? Friends, Fun, Music, Laughing, Stupid stuff, Random stuff, Motocross, Dirtbiking and so much more

33. What's the next cd that ur going to buy? Probably a Nirvana one

34. What's the best advice ever given to you? Don’t compare yourself or your problems to others. Its hard to explain but when you get it, its an amazing piece of advice and has helped me alot

35. Have you ever won any special award? No, I have won awards but there not special

36. What are ur future goals? Surfing, Dirtbiking, Skiing and to get married, enjoy life, maybe have kids and ya I don’t know

37. Do you like to dance? Do I like to dance haha……………..I love to dance!

38. Worst sickness u have ever had? I cant remeber

39. What's the stupidest thing u have ever done? I cant remember, I do a lot of stupid things, like really stupid.

41. What's ur favourite memory? Being in the mosh pitt with Mariah and Miles at the finger eleven concert. But I have some more favorite memorys but that’s the only one I can think of

42. If you could change something about you what would it be: Umm honestly I would change my body image because I think im fat

43. Where do u shop most? Idk random places

44. How many kids do u want to have? Twins! So 2 but they have to be twins! Otherwise I don’t know

45. son's name? Derrick or Meigel because I love thoese names

46. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do u use? Herbal essence shampoo and pantene pro v conditioner

47. What sport do u hate the most? I hate golf because it is so incredibly boring

48. What are you most scared of? Elevators

49. How many t.v's do u have in your house: 2 at my moms and 3 at my dads

50. Do u have ur own phone? No because I never really talk on the phone

51. Do u have ur own phone line? no

52. Do u sleep with a stuffed animal? Sometimes

53. Have you ever broken, fractured, a bone? I have never broken a bone but I have fractured my nose

54. Who do u dream about? Lots of random people, and people I like

55. Who you tell your dreams to: no one usually but sometimes I tell some people

56. Loudest friend u have? Cara

57. Is cheerleading a sport? Yes I think so because it can be very active

58.How many licks does it take to get to the centre of a tootsies pop? 133

59. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? The egg and Im to lazy to say why

**********YOU AND LOVE**********

60. Do u believe in love?? Yes

61. Do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend? No

62. Do u believe in love at first sight? No but I used to

63. Where do u want to go on your honeymoon? Somewhere sexy

64. What song do u want played at your wedding? Anything by Nirvana

65. What is the first thing u notice about the opposite sex? Eyes and personality

66. Are u to shy to ask someone out? Probably yes

67. who do u want to spend the rest of ur life with? I don’t know im only 13!
68. Do u find yourself attractive? Hell no

69. Do others find you attractive? I doubt it
70. Whats worse having your tonsils or appendix removed? I don’t know I will get back to you when I have both things removed

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71. Boxers or briefs: Boxers

72. Curly or straight hair: Doesn’t matter

73. Tall or Short: Doesn’t matter

74. Six pack or muscular arms: Doesn’t matter

75. good or bad? both

77. ears pierced or not: Doesn't matter

78. tan or no tan: Doesn't matter

79. dimples or not: Doesn't matter

80. rugged or sporty: Doesn’t matter

81. studly or cutie: Doesn’t matter

82. accent or not: Everyone has an accent, what a stupid question, but some accents a real turn on like omg fuck me now hot guys or girls with English and Spanish accents but only Spanish if you can speak spanish

83. glasses: Doesn't matter

84. smart or dumb: Doesn’t matter as long as hes not a complete idiot

85. what sport should he play: Doesn't matter

86. dependent (whipped) or independent: Independent

*ON GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT (for guys only)*
(Im bisexual so I will fill this out to!)

87. sandals or thongs? Doesn’t matter

88. painted nails or not: Doesn’t matter

89. regular or sports bra: regular

90. bra straps showing or not?: Doesn’t matter

91. cute n' mysterious or wild n' sexy? Doesn’t matter

92. dark or blonde hair: Doesn’t matter

93. long or short hair: Doesn’t matter

94. curly or straight hair: Doesn’t matter

95. dark light, or crazy kool eyes: Doesn’t matter

96. long or short nails: Doesn’t matter

97. hat or no hat? Doesn’t matter

98. good or bad gurl: Doesn’t matter

99. hair up or down: Doesn’t matter

100. jewellery or none? Doesn’t matter

101. tall or short: Doesn’t matter

102. accent or no accent: Same as for guys

103. pants or dress: Doesn’t matter

104. tan or fair: Doesn’t matter

105. glasses: Doesn’t matter

106. pretty indoor chick or crazy party chick? Doesn’t matter

107. freckles or none? Doesn’t matter

108. shy or outgoing? Doesn’t matter

109. funny or always cool: Doesn’t matter

110. talkative or shy: Doesn’t matter

**********PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT**********

111. lights on/off: Off


112. sun or rain? Rain

113. Mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (burger king): Mickey D’s all the way and I don’t care what anyone says!

114. do u like scary movies or happy movies better? Scary

115. on the phone or in person: In person

116. paper or plastic: Plastic

117. sausage or pepperoni? Neither yucky

118. summer or winter: Both

119. hugs or kisses: Both

121. root beer or dr. pepper: Root beer, I totally don’t get what everyone sees in dr. pepper

122. tape or DVD: Doesn't matter

123. cats or dogs? Doesn’t matter.

124. mud or jello wrestling? Mudd all the way baby!!

125. vanilla or chocolate? Both

127. day or night? I like both but im more of a night person

128. cake or pie? Both

129. diamond or pearls: Doesn’t matter

130. sunset or sunrise: Sunset because its more sexy

********YOUR FAVES*******

131. colour: Black

132. food: Fish and Chips

133. Fast food: Mickey D’s

134. sport: Dirt biking

135: ice cream flavour: OH theres to many to choose from

136. number: I like a lot of numbers

137. radio station: the zone at 91.3

138. Song: Float on by Modest mouse

139. Band: Atreyu

140. Fav actor: I don’t know

141. Actress: I don't know

142. Favourite day of the year: Not sure

143. Favourite month? July

144. TV show: The Simpsons

145. store: Funkytown, Second hand roses and sideshow

146. Teacher: I hate all my teachers

147. card game: speed

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148. loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes

149. drank? yeps

150. Ever gotten dumped? Yes

151. broke the law? Yes

152. ran from the cops? no

153. stole something? nothing big

154. tried to kill urself? Yes

155. made ur self throw up? Yes

156. been in love? Yes

157. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Yes

********ONE FINAL NOTE**********

158. Do you like filling these out: Yes but not when my computer is being a stupid fuckhead and Im almost done then it shuts down and I have to do it all over! roar

159. How many ppl are you sending this too? none

160. Do you want you friends to write back? How can they if I don’t send it to them?

161. who is least likely to respond: No one!

162. Who is most likely to respond: No one!

163. Any comments? No thanks

164. favourite car: i don't know anything about cars

165. Who would u say u can trust most: Stormy

166. Who’s your hero and why? My aunty Donna because she was so amazing and im not going to get in to detail because it will just upset me

167. Who would you like to thank? Stormy, Sam, My mom, My family, My friends, Tianna and a lot of other people and things

Yesterday I didnt do much, me and Jodi went to the sushi place and got sushi then we went to the park and ate it. It was pretty good.
I went to the races last night to watch Leah, she is so good at it. There were some pretty good crashed last night to. Shane went over a jump and he fell off his bike and hit the road then fliped and landed then he just layed there for a few seconds and go up and started again. Some other dude landed on another dudes bike but nothing really happend to the dude except the one who landed on his bike fell off. Then there was another crash i didnt get to see and two guys hit each other and they fell off so the other riders were weaving in and out of bodies. That was only the dirtbikes. There were a few crashes with the race cars but I dont really watch the race cars, but I like it when they crash.

Wednesday was a pretty good day. After school me Cara and Tianna went to dq and hung out with Tyler and Hadi while they rode there bikes around the parking lot we flung ice cream at Tyler and everywhere else it was fun. That night I went to watch lea race out at western speed way it was cool but the race got canceled because someone broke there collar bone which sucks.
Every other day sucked Im way to depressed to even bother with anything. I have to babysit my mom is going out with all her friends to celebrate her birthday. Its just a stupid excuse for her to go out and get really drunk and probably sleep with some random guy. All she ever does now is sit outside with her friends and drinks shes a stupid alcoholic and im mad at her. So now I dont like both my parents much, my dad doesnt give a fuck about me and just lets us do what ever we want and ignors us acting like were not even there which may sound great but it sucks when you have to deal with it, everyones like oh why are you sad about that it would be great but its not seriously! My moms an aloholic, she goes to work early then comes home then she gets changed goes outside and sits with her friends and drinks after shes done that for several hours she comes in and goes to bed. Im getting more and more depressed each day, im always crying or mad or something. I really wish I would just die.

9 days till the concert!!
Well I havent updated because I havent been home, I spent the whole weekend at Caras grandparents. We didnt really do much on Friday night or Saturday but on Saturday night I went to my cousins grad party and it was fun, the people there were really nice especailly Helen and Tim. We had alot of candy on the weekend and we were totally sugar high the whole weekend we bought alot of candy, I had gummy worms because i emo heart them and choclate squares and lot of chips and popcorn and a bunch of other differnt candys and candy necklaces and ring pops and thoese candy hot dogs and hamburgers. It was really great.
I saw Harry Potter the 3rd one i dont know what is called but it was really good. I got so scared at one point and i like jumped on to cara almost and i screamed it was embarassing but funny.
Ive been really depressed latly and I think its cause ive my friends, im still having trouble with it and now even me and Tianna are falling out which really sucks. Well I forgot what I was going to write oh well

Only 13 days until the concert!!
Not much exciting happening in my life, yesterday I was out on the field with Kory, Mariah, Nolan, Cara and Timmy Windell and it was just after we heard thunder and so there was still alot of electricity in the air and pieces of are hair was standing straight up it was really really trippy. Last night I went to Jades and we worked on our homework, oddly I really didnt get much done and I worked for a long time but oh well. Im getting a little better at reading music, Its still pretty hard but it is getting easier. I dont really know what else to say so I will update when something intresting happens