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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 24 December :: 2.17am
:: Mood: head hurtsss
:: Music: Tom petty - last dance with maryjane

aw come on ONCE MORE TIME TO KILL THE PAIN!
well again i got into another fight with jason, this time i claimed to gotten on his nerves about something. but hes the type who doesnt wanna talk about it ever. so yeah he gets all pissy and yells. but whatever; i told him i was sorry.

"i'm always right"




i did one more run today to the mall for last minute christmas shoppin; alaina came and got me and we went and just hung out. it was nice seeing her again. she got her liscense and a car LUCKY BITCH! lol. so ya i had a good time, we went to wal*mart first (it was insane so much traffic) but ya who goes to wallyworld and the mall a day b4 xmas eve. UHH US! haha. so yeah we saw my cousin roland and our friend steven there, they were wrapping xmas presents for people for community service LMAO and he was wearing a santa hat.. pretty freaking halarious. but yeah thats my day. i have a headache so im outtie.

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TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 23 December :: 2.55am

Ultimate survey of 2005. past, present, future, and everything random!
Basics
Time::2:24am
Name::Rochelle
Nickname(s)::Roach, Chelle, RoRo
Favorite nickname::Roach, i've had it since 4th grade.
Age::16
Age you act::older.
Age you wish you could be::18
Height::5'5
Weight::average
Shoe size::9 1/2
Siblings::Yes, one sister
Pets::No
Living situation::With my mother.
Location::Finleyville..
Childhood past and General past
Favorite toy::My ball
How did you dress?:Like a little tom boy.
Preschool::Yeah i went there
What age did you stop using the bottle?:Uhm. the bottle? like 1.
Did you prefer playing indoors or outdoors?:Outdoors
Did you have an immaginary friends?:Nope
First pet::My dog, bandit
What did you want to be when you grew up?:Vetenarian
Do you still want to be that?:No
(assuming you do) did you always have your own room?:Yep
Did you ever ask a fat lady how long she'd been pregnant for?:Sure did.
What age did you learn to read and write?:Very young
Were you quiet or nosy?:Noisy, but i was a good kid. trust me
What was your favorite story book?:Velveteen Rabbit
Second favorite?:I didnt have a 2nd
Third favorite?:I didnt have a fucking 3rd favorite.
Sum yourself up as a kid.:I was well mannered.
Who was your first best friend?:As a kid?. i didnt have any friends
How old were you when you had your first birthday party?:uhm 1? duh. first bday party.
Where was it?:My house
What was your earliest bedtime?:8
When did you learn to ride a bike?:Very young
Were you immaginative?:Yes i was.
Did you play with gender appropriate toys?:Sure did
Did you play with age appropriate toys?:Sure did..
What was your favorite stuffed animal?:My bear
How many barbies did you have?:like 39024984 x 5
Did you have carebears?:I had the tapes.. beat that biiiitch
Ninja turtles?:I LOVED THEM
That creepy bear that reads books?:Creepy bear? uhm. okay not clicking
Did you like to climb trees?:Haha, no never ask me that again
Throw tantrums?:All the time, i had to get 7 catscans
Was it hard to sleep, or did you sleep like a baby?:I slept like a baby, except for when "santa" was coming
Did you go to the zoo?:Like 2 times.
Did you scream a lot?:Sure did
Did you ever go to an amusement park?:Yep
When and where was your first kiss?:When i was in 7th grade.
Kissed someone of the opposite sex?:Yes i have..
Kissed someone of the same sex?:Yes i have.. *ahem*
how many total goldfish have you collectively owned?:5
As a kid, what was the best thing ever?:My swingset, and poga stick
The worst?:Nap time
What was the best year of your life?:When i was happy.
Generally, in the past, have you ever:
Ran away from home?:Nope
Snuck out?:Yep
Wished on a star?:Yep. never works
Danced in the rain?:Yeah all the time duh; your not cool unless u dance in the rain
Been to an unsupervised party?:Surely have
Been drunk?:Noway..
Smoked?:I smoke cigarettes.
Been beaten up?:No i will beat someones ass.
Been depressed?:Yeah who hasnt
Been lonely?:Indeed i have
Been afraid of the dark?:Yep
Cut your own hair?:Yep
Stayed up all night?:Yep
Gone streaking?:Yep
Gone skinny dipping?:Yeppp
Played strip poker?:Nope
Been on a roof?:I was on this girl angies roof. pretty nifty.
Been in a trash can?:haha yeah thanks roland!
Egged somebodies house?:LOL NOWAY! not I.
Teepeed someones house?:no dude. wtf
Cheated on a guy / girl?:No i dont believe in that shit.
Cheated on a test?:Yes
Set something on fire on purpose?:Yes
Set something on fire accidentally?:yes
Eaten squid?:eww wtf
Eaten sushi?:WTF NO
Had a cell phone?:YEA its a piece of shit
Had a computer?:Yeah and i want to kick it
Had an ipod / mp2 player?:pish not that lucky.
Broken a light bulb?:Yeah i have; over your forehead.
Cruised the streets past 3 AM?:It was wrong i know.
Did a prank call?:lmfao. ya and i almost got arressted
Gone to school with a hangover?:noway
Been in love?:Yes....
Sworn at your parents?:bloody battles.
Regretted something you did?:All the time
Regretted something you should have done but never did?:Dont fucking remind me.
Lied to your parents?:Yeah
Lied to your friends?:Yeah
Currently:
Are you a lucky person?:No
Are you a happy person?:No
Are you a virgin?:No
What are you wearing?:MY BIRTHDAY SUIT!
What did you have for breakfast?:A cheese sandwich
What kind of socks do you wear?:colorfull ones and white ones
What are your most comfortable shoes?:Audios cause there old and worn in
Are you doing well in school?:Okay i suppose.
Do you have a lot of friends?:No.
Are you happy with them?:No
Past of 2005:
Did 2005 treat you well?:i suppose.
Did it go by fast, slow, or at just the right pace?:right place?
Approximately how many parties did you go to?:Ziltch
What was your biggest acheivement this year?:To do good on my report card.
Did you change over 2005?:yeah i have
Did your hairstyle change?:yea it has
How much taller did you get from last year?:i havent grown since 7th grade
Did you make new friends?:Yes
Did you lose any old friends?:yes
Did you try new things?:Yes
Go places you've never been?:Yes
Do things you've never done?:No
Things you never thought you would do?:No
Have fun?:No
What do you miss most about 2005?:your mother.
If you could choose one thing to completely undo, what would it be?:I would have never dated daniel ray merico (aka smokey)
If you could choose one thing to redo (fix) what would it be?:I would have never dated an asshole
If you could choose one thing to relive, what would it be?:Im with a better person?
Did 2005 have a big impact on your life?:no
Do you think 2006 will be better?:no
Was 2005 special?:no
Was it the best year for you?:sure why not.
Future, mainly 2006
Have you made a resolution?:To lose weight.<-- thats mine every year.
What's one thing you will do differently in 2006?:Everything
What are your goals?:Pass 11th grade
Do you feel fullfilled?:Noway
Are you going to learn something new from 2006?:No
What's one place you want to go?:Greece
What's the main thing you want out of 2006?:for you to shut up
Back to this past year, have you bee..
Naughty or Nice?:naughty
Happy or Sad?:okay
Dull or Interesting?:dull
Boring or Fun?:boring
Cray or Normal?:normal
Wild or Calm?:wild
Mean or Kind?:both
Caring?:sure
Carefree?:no
Careless?:no
Careful?:sure?
Loud or Silent?:all depends *winks*
Smart or Stupid?:Both at times.
Last but not least..
Nine things you won't be able to live without. Go.
1.:Phone
2.:Computer
3.:Friends
4.:Jason
5.:Sleep
6.:Food
7.:Music
8.:Sweatshirts
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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 23 December :: 2.16am
:: Mood: UGH!!!!
:: Music: Scarling - beautiful

What the fuck!!!!

oh i just love fighting with boyfriends



ugh, wtf? im tired of it i really am, 2 nights in a row.
all its all for stupid shit; when hes mad he takes it out on me.. then i say WHAT the hell is your problem and he explodes like a time bomb i swear.. its fucking rediculous!!!!!!!

anyways yeah. fuck it. im just in one of the moods.

i miss you so much baby. MUAH!

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 22 December :: 2.26pm

hello hello
today was my last day cause of christmas break -so excited- so now i get to lounge around and be a bum (i have no job) hahaha. sleep in til bout 2 and wear pajamas all day, mwahhaha!! when i got home at like 12:20pm. my baby called me i was so surprised he called.. like we usually talk on the phone but he isnt a phone person. and i was so happy!!! :) it made my day!. but lastnite we got into a little bit of a arguement and he wasnt to happy with me.. and i felt like shit when we got into it i kinda felt like a lost little kid with nowhere to go. im like baby? why are u so mad at me. and he told me to leave him alone, so i did even though i didnt want to... but we got back on good terms and were fine. hes just so cute!!! i adore him x 43948204825023759387970267 x5 LOL. so ya i cant wait til xmas. i dunno what i got, but im sure its gooooood. and hes coming either tuesday or wednesday YES YES YES!

my aim is fucked up so i cant use it i have to use AOL messanger wich is total SHIT I HATE IT! ive been tryin to download so many versions of aim but it wont work. all because my friend is an asshole and did something wrong.. FUCK U BRUCE! im so pisssssed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 20 December :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: sick

Ugh
welp im gettin ready to wrap the last of my christmas presents!

i had a semi-okay day today, except for me being sick! so when i came home my mom was having me run all over the place and im like mom im freaking sick!!! haha. gay. anyways Jason gets on and hes askin me if im feeling better and blah blah.. and he tells me hes going to the movies with some friends so i ask him if girls are going to be there and he said 'why are u jealous?' and i said 'no i just wanted to know' and hes 'like well it must bother you or something' and i said 'no i just wanted to know' and hes 'like are u worried? and i said no.. and hes 'rochelle only me and the penises are going okay?' and i said 'ok' and his friend got on and was like 'jay just left were leaving bye' wtf? jason didnt even say goodbye to his own girlfriend? hmmm hes probably mad cause i was semi accussing him. oh well. i do trust him, i just get alittle worried cause ive been fucked around on to many times.. but i told my friend ben and hes like


bevisandbendawg: fuck Jason
bevisandbendawg: I even told you next time something happened, its gonna be the last time.
absent x dreams: nothing did happen though
absent x dreams: im just mad because he didnt say bye
bevisandbendawg: how do you know hes not there with a chick?
bevisandbendawg: huh?
absent x dreams: .....i keep tellin myself hes not
absent x dreams: im just goin to be ok with him goin out and trustin him
absent x dreams: cause me and u are hangin out over break anyways
bevisandbendawg: well we're not fuckin or makin out or anything he could possibly be doin
bevisandbendawg: or are we.. -_^
absent x dreams: i hope he isnt
absent x dreams: ben dont tell me that he is. im all worried now
absent x dreams: im lookin forward for him to come over on break. i miss him
bevisandbendawg: OoOo lol ok



wtf? i hate it when he does that. hes jealous i swear.


just i really like jason and i adore him and i want us to be okay. i dont want some dumb shit happening errr

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 19 December :: 8.14pm

I woke up this morning feeling like shit; i really hope its just allergies and im not getting sick.. i usually always do around the holidays.. just i dont wanna be

SICK

for break cause my babys coming over!!!!! and i cant wait!!!!!!


anyways today was alright i suppose. i slept in all my classes except for english cause shes a bitch and says if u sleep u go to the nurses cause ur on drugs.. WTF? fuckign retard haha. i did it anyways! and heard 'ROCHELLE WAKE UP!' like 393 times.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 18 December :: 2.27pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Scarling - stapled to the mattress

It's over you're sober -pants around your ankles
You're ship wrecked - You've gone mute
Nothing there to say
You're naked and shaking like a 2 bit Judas
You fall down closefisted and end up in my way

You're the people who just want me to notice
You're the people I try so hard to ignore
You're the coward who demands me to save him
You will smother - under covers- stapled to the mattress.

You traipse on your loved ones
Most who will disown you
You'll search for a family, those you can destroy
Methodically sickened, by their inhibitions
But rather then fix it- you will just avoid

You're the people who just want me to notice
You're the people I try so hard to ignore
You're the coward who demands me to save him
You will smother - under covers- stapled to the mattress.

You're a person who I can't help but notice -
Enjoys drowning into other's self disdain
Void of person - No, I don't think I know you
Please hunt others
Vultures hover
You're stapled to your matters

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 18 December :: 2.20am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Scarling - the last day i was happy

FUCKKKKKKKK
i get a LATE NITE PHONE CALL from someone who i wasnt planning on talking to ever again.

this is the conversation

Rochelle, what are you doing
nothing.. who is this
what have u forgotten about me already??
uhm.. who is this?
its smokey
-----silence-----

are u there?
yea. im here, what do u want
i heard your involved now, mom told me some things to
yeah im with someone.
i thought i told u noone would ever want u?.. ur mine i fucking told u that, ur worthless and not worth anyones time
Smokey why are u doing this to me.. its been 8 months let it go please.
i wont let it go ur MY GIRL!
how are u calling me... why
dont worry about that, whats this guys name?, how old? where is he from?
-sigh- this is none of ur business. dont call my fucking phone to fight with me. whats done is done. i didnt do anything wrong
u cant do this to me right now
omfg STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT! i cant take it anymore, uve been out of my life for so long just let it alone
i cant believe u, u worthless piece of shit. i hope u get hit by a bus or u get jacked over by this guy
ya uve grown up i see. havent changed one bit.

THEN I HANG UP!
(and it did go something along those lines.)

calls me back few mins later i dont answer

i get a voicemail :: i cant believe u, how are u going to do this, i trusted u and i told u for u to be with noone. and u go and ruin things i no i fucked up and did wrong, but i told u noone will ever put up with u like i have. u fucked over so bad i dont no what..-silence- FUCK IT! FUCK YOU! U WHORE!


MEANWHILE NOONE KNOWS WHAT I WENT THROUGH WITH HIM. i stayed with an asshole for 2 years. ya i was dumb but i was to scared to leave. why u may ask? because i was scared of him mentally and physically and plus i didnt wanna be alone. im scared to be alone. but i mended fine when he got sent away and i moved on.. and im so much more happier now.. i just cant take bullshit. i see his mother all the time naggin in my ear ' u need to get back with my son, u were the best thing thats ever happened to him and blah blah..

^ ya u can see why i was the best thing that ever happened to him because i was somebody and i treated him good. and i put up with him.

but im done. ive been done.


i moved on and im happier than ever. so FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!

dont fuck with me

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 16 December :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: indescribable

jack off jill - swollen
its friday and i dont wanna do anything but sit home. no no dont feel sorry haha i chose to do this.. really i do.


today my stalker was really gettin on my nerves with his sick comments.. it grosses me out so bad! ugh.. fucking moron

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 15 December :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: tired, always tired
:: Music: jack off jill - horrible

wooo my day today was fucked! but hey it will be ok i guess... blah



Really Long Survey (over 200)
What is your name?:Rochelle Lynn
Are you named after anyone?:No
What's your screename?:Absent x Dreams
Would you name a child of yours after you?:I dont think so. theres only one Rochelle
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:umm.. BARTHOLMEW! hahahaha
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:Noone. my names cool i think
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:Ya. they say R-A chelle. its RO-Chelle like row row row ur boat. but its cool my mom evens says it wrong
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:Nah
Basics
Your gender::Female
Straight/Gay/Bi::Straight
Single?:TAKEN
If not, do you want to be?:I am taken so therefore SHOVE IT!
Birthdate::2-28-89
Your age::16
Age you act::Older
Age you wish you were::eh, 18
Your height::5'5
Eye color::Blue
Happy with it?:Sure am, its pretty
Hair color::Brown
Happy with it?:Yeahhhh
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::RIGHTY TIDY!
Your living arrangement::I live with my mom
Your family::I love my small family
Have any pets?:Nope
Whats your job?:Sleeping
Piercings?:Ears
Tattoos?:Not yet
Obsessions?:UNDERWEAR
Addictions?:Sex. LMAO
Do you speak another language?:NO not really.. but do u want me to? jkjsfjkajfd
Have a favorite quote?:nah
Do you have a webpage?:uhhhhh
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:LMAO DO I LIVE IN ONE? wtf
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:i dont no
Do you have any secrets?:sure, when i was little i pissed my pants on the bus LMAO
Do you hate yourself?:Sometimes. ask me on tuesday
Do you like your handwriting?:I guess? i write like a boy
Do you have any bad habits?:Biting my nails and those cancer sticks
What is the compliment you get from most people?:U HAVE NICE EYES! sometimes.. NICE BOOBS or butt. u no hahahaha
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:Dead Pan
What's your biggest fear?:Spiders.. biiitch!
Can you sing?:No NOT REALLY.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:LMAO i am cool
Are you a loner?:Sure
What are your #1 priorities in life?:I dont know
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:Sure would, im the fucking coolest :)
Are you a daredevil?:Yeah. dare me to do something hoe and see what happens
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:when im old.. will i like get obese? LMAO
Are you passive or agressive?:UHHH BOTH? idontknow
Do you have a journal?:Yes i do. ur lookin at it.. u fuck
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:i am strong and i have a weak bladder.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:nothing
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:No. i cry the biggest puddles
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:Yeah alot of stuff. ugh
Do you think life has been good so far?:Sorta
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:Nothing, i just try not to fuck up
What do you like the most about your body?:i have an ass
And least?:feet, i hate FEET!
Do you think you are good looking?:kinda
Are you confident?:No not really bud
What is the fictional character you are most like?:Wtf
Are you perceived wrongly?:sayy whattt?
Do You...
Smoke?:Yeah
Do drugs?:No
Read the newspaper?:NOOOOOOO
Pray?:Sometimes
Go to church?:Used to
Talk to strangers who IM you?:Im like "what u want?"
Sleep with stuffed animals?:YEAA
Take walks in the rain?:sometimes
Talk to people even though you hate them?:Ya i try not to have enemys
Drive?:wtf no. my mom is takin forever!!!!
Like to drive fast?:hell ya
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:NO
Hurt yourself?:ya
Been out of the country?:no. just state
Eaten something that made other people sick?:haha yaaaa
Been in love?:ya.. who hasnt its 2005
Done drugs?:....
Gone skinny dipping?:yeah its so funnnn
Had a medical emergency?:ya
Had surgery?:yep in 4th grade
Ran away from home?:no
Played strip poker?:LOL no
Gotten beaten up?:i beat ass
Beaten someone up?:eh not really
Been picked on?:yeah
Been on stage?:Ya.. omg
Slept outdoors?:lmao NO NEVER!! hahahaha
Thought about suicide?:NEXT!
Pulled an all nighter?:ya and i was a zombie all damn day
If yes, what is your record?:1 day lol
Gone one day without food?:ya
Talked on the phone all night?:sorta until the phone dies
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:yea
Slept all day?:yaaaa i love it
Killed someone?:in my dreams
Made out with a stranger?:No
Had sex with a stranger?:No
Thought you're going crazy?:yea
Kissed the same sex?:YES!.. u no who u rrrr
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:lmao..
Been betrayed?:Yeah
Had a dream that came true?:Sorta
Broken the law?:Ya lmao
Met a famous person?:No? do u think im that lucky
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:omg no
On purpose?:NOOOO
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:ya
Stolen anything?:...
Been on radio/tv?:LMAO YES!
Been in a mosh-pit?:sorta
Had a nervous breakdown?:yes i have
Bungee jumped?:i want to bungee jump off gander mt. haha
Had a dream that kept coming back?:yea for like 3 yrs
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:yessss
Miracles?:sometimes only with mayonaise
Astrology?:uhhh
Magic?:do u believe in magic. wooo
God?:..
Satan?:..
Santa?:OH YA SANTA! hahahah
Ghosts?:ya
Luck?:sorta
Love at first sight?:Yea
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:sure
Witches?:no.. wtf
Easter bunny?:LOL oh yaaaa joy joy, its where candy is from mwahahah
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:sure
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:YES I JUST HAVENT FOUND IT YET!
Do you wish on stars?:Yea
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:Yeah
Do you think God has a gender?:Yea
Do you believe in organized religion?:.....
Where do you think we go when we die?:i dont no
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:Yea
Who is your best friend?:Jena, jason, Kelly, Kayla i have a few. but i love the 1st 3 i mentioned
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:hmmm jena
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:dont ever stop trying
Your favourite inside joke?:lmao i have so many
Thing you're picked on most about?:when i get pissed. lol everyone thinks its funny
Who's your longest known friend?:hmm i dont no
Newest?:josh
Shyest?:lmao none!!
Funniest?:were all funny
Sweetest?:jason cause hes my baby
Closest?:jena, kelly
Weirdest?:ryan graft
Smartest?:pish ;)
Ditziest?:LMAO..
Friends you miss being close to the most?:Jordan....
Last person you talked to online?:jason and jena
Who do you talk to most online?:jena, jason, ben, john
Who are you on the phone with most?:im hardly ever on the phone
Who do you trust most?:jena, kelly
Who listens to your problems?:all of them
Who do you fight most with?:i dunno
Who's the nicest?:there all pretty damn nice til u piss em off
Who's the most outgoing?:LMFAO next ? please..
Who's the best singer?:me.. duh!
Who's on your shit-list?:haha this girl lauren
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:
Who's your second family?:after school detention
Do you always feel understood?:no
Who's the loudest friend?:ALAINA
Do you trust others easily?:nope
Who's house were you last at?:my cousin rolands
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::JASON!
Do your friends know you?:Yeah
Friend that lives farthest away::Isaiah
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:no way
What do you find romantic?:bein with the one im involved with. and thunderstorms
Turn-on?:personality
Turn-off?:meanness
First kiss?:my first kiss? when i was like 12 haha
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:i dont no.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:yeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:i dont no. whatever works
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:Yeah
What is best about the opposite sex?:uhhh
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:being a bastard
What's the last present someone gave you?:a kiss. lol
Are you in love?:hmmm
Do you consider your significant other hot?:YES!!! HES SO HANDSOME!
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:my stalker.
You wanted to kill?:some annoying lauren girl ..bah
That you laughed at?:ryan hes fucking retarded
That laughed at you?:some willy kid
That turned you on?:jason :):):)
You went shopping with?:jena
That broke your heart?:...NEXT!
To disappoint you?:josh
To ask you out?:jassssooonn
To make you cry?:ben
To brighten up your day?:jason
That you thought about?:jason
You saw a movie with?:jena
You talked to on the phone?:mike
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:im talkin to jason now, does that count?
You saw?:kids at school
You lost?:NOONE
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:no im home
Will it be with your significant other?:ya when i see him
Or some random person?:no
What are you wearing right now?:sweat pants and a white tee shirt
Body part you're touching right now::my arm.. LOL u sicko
What are you worried about right now?:nothing
What book are you reading?:im reading a play thingy in english class called trifles? lol
What's on your mousepad?:blankness
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::like a dead pan ha ha
Are you bored?:no
Are you tired?:alittle
Are you talking to anyone online?:yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:no
Are you lonely or content?:im fine thanks for asking lol
Are you listening to music?:ya
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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 13 December :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Tom Petty - Refugee

Today i didnt go to school; didnt feel up to it.

but ya anyways i went x-mas shopping with my mom earlier since i didnt go to school and then about 4:30ish-5ish i went with jena to get ben and we went to TOYS R US and then the MALL. i had a nice time. i missed hanging out with them. i got home bout 7 jena had to go somewhere, while i was at the mall i got my baby something and i hope he likes it.


but ya thats all for now.
i have to go back to school tomorrow. BAHHH!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 12 December :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: gittery
:: Music: atreyu- demonolgy & heartache

12.12.05
Love kills, romance is dead
And I don't even trust myself
But I love you
And you can pull my wings apart
And pin me down under glass
Until the end of days if it can help you
Discover that we share the same pain
I just hope you write your thesis
Before your subject is dead
No life after death



only 2 more weeks til x-mas woo. and that means i get to see my baby!! wooooo. i wish it was soooner though!!!!!!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 11 December :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Tom Petty - Into the great wide open

rebel without a clue
Spiders in my hair and guns on my mind
Thinking about the people who've been so unkind
If looks could kill them
I might make myself blind


if i could do lastnite over again
i would do it all the time, baby!

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:: 2005 11 December :: 12.46am

GREAT DAY
today was the bestest day ever

i went to the mall to see jason and we got along and hit it off well (i knew we would) but things are going great, we just talked and hung out. took some pictures with his digital, so it was real cute!<3. im just glad things are working out for me; finally. his mom said im cute (haha) so she will pick me up on weekends 'n' shit SO EXCITED! mwahaha. this kid is the bestest. MUAH. so ya good day for both of us. towards the end he asked me to be his girl :) so ya im all giddy and giggly. YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN ME EARLIER i was so nervous though i was like calling jena sayin what if he thinks im ugly? LMAO i dunno i was being insercure but things are gggrreeaatt.

tomorrow i dont think im doing anything, i would like to see jena butttttt i dunnno so mabey she will calllll meeeee wooo woooo wooooo!!!!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 8 December :: 3.23pm

my face hurts.
I GOT HIT IN THE FACE WITH A BADMITTEN BIRDIE or however the fuck you spell it. haha it sucked so bad i was so flippin mad. ugh anyways!!!

im extremely tired, i havent been able to sleep STILL.
im poor no money; and x-mas is not to far away. ahh!
and i suck at life :):):).

the xmas dance is saturday and im NOT going everyone is like 'awww i cant wait til the dance' & blah blah blah, and they're like 'are you going hun?' fuck no im not going, im poor and no date and why would i want to anyways i dont even know if ill go to prom lol seriously.


::its so cold out my joints are hurting real bad.. i swear its the old age kicking in, LMAO

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