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2007 23 September :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: annoyed
Sometimes I get really frustrated with everything. Times like this, I really, really want to get away from absolutely everything. Away from the dogs barking while I'm trying to do homework at night, away from Mom's coughing, away from Dad stomping up and down the hall and slamming drawers in the kitchen, away from the incessant squeaking of the dog toys, and away from just all the noise.
I can't concentrate. I cannot figure out this homework problem. I can't do anything but hear everything. Putting on headphones and turning up music to the point that I can't hear anything but music (but not to the point where it becomes static) is the only thing I can do to block out the noise. Maybe that's why my hearing is getting worse, but I can't really do anything about that. I cannot deal with all this noise any other way.
At night, when trying to sleep, it's the same.
I think I'll just go to bed now and hope my concentration skills improve with sleep. I'll get to school early and work in my car or something.
Autumn Equinox. First day of fall. I was relatively happy all day. I'm just really easily frustrated tonight.
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2007 19 August :: 10.50am
:: Mood: nervous
Hosnap -- college.
August 27th. Oh, dear.
So it would appear as though I'm taking 16 hours; 6 classes.
College Algebra, Composition 1 (English), Intro to Chemistry - basically from 9 AM 'til 12 PM Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
On Monday nights @ 6 PM, I have Chem lab. Luckily, my high school chemistry teacher transferred to this college, so I'll be with her AND my friend Robert for Chem Lab.
Tuesday nights @ 6 PM, I have Ceramics class.
Online, I have First Aid.
Thursdays = free (homework and study days ~ like weekends).
Whoo. A bit scary; hopefully I'm not in over my head. I had to have at least 12 hours for my scholarship, and 15 in case I needed to drop a class. The average amount of hours = 12-15, supposedly.
Anywho. College. Okay. All right. Here we go.
Also, I turn 18 on September 1st.
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2007 12 July :: 7.03pm
Quote. Dunno who said it.
"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."
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2007 11 July :: 6.34pm
:: Music: The Hush Sound.
Like vines, we intertwine,
Carelessly growing up and growing old.
Life was on our tongues,
And it tasted heavenly so good.
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Really loving that band.
You know how, when life is going well, you sort of wonder when it's gonna take a turn for the worse? I've got that feeling, but I'm just trying to enjoy the good times while they're here.
Honestly, I've lost two friendships in the past month or two. I suppose those could be counted as down times, but I'm doing okay. Things with boyfriend-figure are going well and happy; I feel like I'm finally, finally being pulled out of the shell I retreated into when the Matt situation occurred years ago. Our conversations nowadays rarely end badly; if we argue, things are usually resolved before we say goodnight.
I'm still not using the L word (not The L Word as in television; the other one)... It's not that I'm afraid of it. I'm just saving it until I am 100% positive, no doubts, and I can look him in the eye and say it, which may occur in the next half a year or so.
Summer has made me lazy. I've been accepted to the college and all that, but I've got so much more to do. College starts August 27th, I believe. Must stop procrastinating (likely, right?).
<3.
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3987 53 July :: 6.98pm
The noise of mankind has become too much,
I am losing sleep over their racket.
Give the order that disease shall break out.
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2007 20 June :: 5.58am
Odd dreams.
But I'm still alive. :P I still check my friends' page pretty much daily.
I'm trying to decide on a specific use for this journal.. Hrm.
Dunno. 8 PM - 2/4 AM sleeping schedules are really very interesting.
Must eat breakfast.
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2007 30 May :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: despondant
:: Music: N/A
sorrow by name and sorrow by nature
I'm so lonely I could die.
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2007 26 May :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: Around the World - Daft Punk
I met Win Butler of The Arcade Fire.
The show was amazing.
The trip was fantastic... sans having no money and seeing cute clothing everywheerrrreeeeeee.
More things added to my materialistic list:
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+ Sundress!
+ Kitten heels!
+ A floppy straw hat!
+ Tights of various colours, patterns and lengths!
+ Weird shirts/dresses that look like they come from the 70s! eg. hippie attire!
+ Chinese tea set!
I went to this glorious store that had all of the above, however, it was a silly chachi store because all of that is in style right now. It's funny because in five years I'll still be dressing the way I always have while everyone is trendy in... tinfoil.
We drank tea with a man in China town named Daniel. He is the best. Ginsing Oolong left me throat sweet... and made me calm. There are tea balls there that bloom into lotus flowers when you put them in hot water.
Add that to the list.
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2007 12 May :: 12.02am
My Favorites. :]
A collection of my absolute favorite images that I've found around the net (mostly Gaia forums).
Hurray for clickable thumbnails. :D
Read more..
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2007 4 May :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: despondant
:: Music: Another Version of The Truth - Nine Inch Nails
god have mercy on our dirty little hearts
Let's pretend like I was never gone.
Like I'm a missing lover that walked back in the door. Set a cup of tea on the table. There was no absence.
My bangs are irritating. I need a haircut and dye. My natural colour is pushing through. How I hate it. Shawna says that having dark hair makes me look washed out... I disagree. I also don't understand North America's abhorrant attitude towards pale skin. I'm very white. Deal with it.
I haven't seen Spiderman 2 nor does the series hold great interest for me but James invited me to Spiderman 3 and offered to pay. I can't turn down an offer like that, nor the kindness.
I'm going to make a list of things I hope to acquire because I'm petty and commercial.
+ A filing cabinet for writing clutter.
+ A bedside table.
+ An ugly lamp from the 70's. (or mysterious 80's lamp)
+ A strapless bra.
+ Zelda: Twilight Princess for Gamecube.
I'm going to go put on pants.
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