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:: 2004 16 February :: 7.55 pm
:: Mood: In Love.
:: Music: Something I Can Never Have-NIN

::I'd Do Anything For You::
You try to find all the words that describe this emotion. You try to find all the expressions to act. But you fail, for there is not enough word to explain how you feel, there is not enough emotion.

Imagine all your love. Stuck in a tiny bottle. Shipped to sea. All of it for him. It's all from she. Imagine all that love. Stuck in your tiny little heart. It's building up for him. It's building up so you never part.

Imagine all the feeling. Trapped in a tiny body. You feel that when he speaks. Imagine all the feeling. Left in a tiny voice. You imagine that is how you'll speak, but mean it all.

Don't leave me. He'll never leave me. Will he?

He loves me. I love him.

You love him. You're beautiful with him....you're perfect because he loves you.

1 ::Always Lonely:: | ::Find Yourself::


:: 2004 13 February :: 5.32 pm
:: Mood: I Hate This
:: Music: The Noose-Perfect Circle

::My Halo's Slipping. Choking Me::
You know so much, but you only know so little. Secrets are told, yet you're the only one that knows them. She doesn't understand what he's really like. She sees past his lies, and his mistakes. She doesn't understand that you know everything that goes on behind the scenes. He's hurting her. Why can't she see that? You tell her. You've warned her, but she's deaf to your true words. She's blind with the love he fakes.

True friend, I bless thee. May she get better. Child, so scared. She's been hurt. He's hurt you before. Move on, and move away. I love you child. I love you great girl. But she doesn't see that. I will protect her. Best friends love eachother. But, I'm the only one that loves her.

He doesn't love you young child. Leave your heart in his hands, he'll only let it slip. Leave your thoughts in his mind, he'll only corrupt them. You leave your life in his mouth, and in his heart, he'll only chew you up and gauge you out. He'll never love you the way you let yourself love him.

Dear child, let it be. Leave him. I love you child. I love thee.

::Find Yourself::


:: 2004 11 February :: 1.16 pm

Change. What a difference it can make. Change comes and goes in everyone. Though, it never stays. The more I see myself change, the more it hurts to know I'm still frowning.

Endless journey down the halls. Endless power through the students. Endless conversation with the people. Endless time count down on the clock. Endless love that will never end.

I swear, I'm trying. But, what I find in you, it's not the same as I find in myself. I hate the way they all look at me. Like I'm some sort of fool. They all laugh in my face. They all scare off when I bite back. God, what are friends for? Strange beings. I see no one as a friend.

::Find Yourself::

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