::Whats the use?::
You try hard enough as it is. You can't ever seem to make this hurt go away. You wonder why it had to be today. You wonder why they up and just...leave. You try to make it work. But you fail at every thing.

Imagine all that you could have. If only you frowned. If you only stopped and thought before you spoke. Things would be so much better. If only you tried harder. You hate the things people say. The truth hurts.

::You Make This All Go Away::
Why are you up? Ugh, tired. I'm sick. But it will never stop me from feeling.

You'd love to hear his voice. You'd love for him to get online, and say hello. You'd love for him to wake up, and hear your call. That necklace you gave you, it's so cold against your skin, so cold when touched with your fragile hands. That letter he wrote you, still smells of his beautiful scent. It still smells of what you'll smell soon. Those words he said to you the other night still play back in your head. They still repeat themselves, cause you know they'll never fade. That look he gave you, still you can see his eyes, though you've never seen them so clearly before.

You'd die to feel his touch, or die when you do feel his touch. What you wouldn't give to smell him up close. To touch his face like a blind man, you're gonna realize how beautiful he truly is. Your hands will touch his skin. And his will touch yours. His hands will touch your face, and he grazes one finger over your lips, telling you to hush. You can't wait till the day he pulls you close, and hugs you so tight. You can't wait for the day he pulls your lips onto his, so hard, so deep, so long. You can barely wait. You can almost taste him on your tongue now. But how? Imagining something that isn't real to you yet.

You beg for the moment he kisses you goodnight, only to wake up to find you beside him. You crave for the while he'll spend running his hand down your legs, and talking in sweet grace. You'd just die to have him say "Hey, My love, come here, and make my day". What a time that shall be. But I can only wait, and for you, I will.

I need not tell you how. Kiss, thus, shan't this prove love I have for you? Deeply, shall you become amazing. Ere stars shine bright. Thus is thy shining star tonight. Goodnight, my love.