::I'll take you back to the stars::
Long time no update. Sorry. not interested in anything anymore. Just been busy. This exam week was hectic. Boring, and lazy. Uh, yea. This song brings back memories...god how I miss listening to this in my OLD room in Prescott. But, It was brought to my attention, people don't change. Not in Prescott anyways. Err, I've been really short on words lately. I'm lonely, and I just want Paden besides me. So yea. I've been on this diet, lost like...4-5 pounds since saturday, so it's cool. Hung out with some friends yesterday and today. Liana mostly. She spent the night last night. It was fun. I hung out with the new kid across the street from me. He's cool, always lookin at me though. It's sort of creepy. Anyways, words have never done anything for me, so I'm heading out. Bye bye.
Jordan

P.S. That would be my picture up there. Yea...wearing a slipknot beanie. Woo hoo....

This love hurts so deep within my soul...
Last night was a very rough night, as Paden said, a lot of arguing. I wanted SO badly to hurt Paden, for being so stupid, but I wanted so badly to kill Peter, for being a fucking asshole. I'm sorry for the both of you. Peter you need to learn to grow up, and so do you Paden.

Enough of that, last night wasn't THAT bad. I was glad to see both sides of Paden, yet, he thinks it was terrible, he's not that bad at all. O well. Anyways I really don't have much to talk about, yet I was reading Chris's journal entry, and he ALWAYS impresses me with his beautiful writing about love, about his past, everything. It must be tough living with out a father. I,in a sense, know how it feels. My dad was there, but he was never really THERE. When he spoke of the way the girl looked like, it reminded me of something Paden would say about me, and yea it was just amazing the way Chris writes.

In other news, I've had a good day. I'm becoming very good friends with Mich. He's a really cool guy and I hang out with him all the time, and I'm not afraid to just be his friend anymore. My band members are finally coming to their senses, and they all apologized thank to Mich. I hang out with them now, but we don't say a word about the band. I walked home today with Zach, he's a neat kid. Very quiet. He's cool though, and what's even cooler is he lives RIGHT across the street from me. Never had that happen.
I've discovered my true friends here at this school. Basically, that's all I need is only 3 good friends right? Anyways, I'm bored, I'm going to go, and do whatever. Ttyl. I love you Paden.
Jordan

::so place the "don't disturbed sign on your door"::
Eh, got home from school today at about 11. Strange walking home that early with no back-pack. Goin home, starving. I miss Paden...I met a guy, named Joseph. He's awesome. I'm lonely. I need new friends, so does my friend Jesse. Damn, things just don't ever go my way. O well, I'll live. Ugh...if only the summer would come. If only I could get answers. Mom said she'd THINK about letting me go to Virginia...I asked Liana's brother Kris if he would want to go, and he said "hell yes" And so I told my mom he'd be prolly 18 then, and yea...so she's thinking about it. Ah...I hope, PRAY that I get to go. O well, if I don't, it's not a big deal. I just for once something would go my way you know? Ugh, well sorry I don't write much in here anymore...I've just been deep into thinking...I'm so happy, yet SO sad behind these eyes. I'm going to go. Goodnight everyone. I love you Paden.
Jordan