:: 2010 17 September :: 7.05 pm

Its so hard to let you go
Its so hard to watch you leave
I try to speak up
I try to talk things out
But I can never find the words...
I've always been a pro when it came to talkin' till now.

*sigh*

I almost saw something in you last night. I almost saw that man I fell in love with, and God knows how badly I truely wanted to grasp onto you and not let you go...but I watched as you faded to black.
You didn't want this...right?
I don't.
I never will be okay with this.
But I'm tired.
And you haven't cared for awhile.

In this life I've had a lot of " me's, and I's" but everyone knows I put You first. And God knows I would bend...but there's a difference between bending and breaking for you...and I've done both.

I lay on an old couch waiting for the night to be over, without you there nights are so unbearable. I hate admitting how much I need you. But for the first time in 6 years I got sick - horribly sick- and you weren't there.
Still not.

You call yourself a Freeman
Well tell me this
Does a freeman bear the chains you have strapped to you?
Didn't think so


Why can't I just be mad at you and be 'better off without you'


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Ass

let's cut the wings away