I haven't seen you in days.

I'd miss you

...if I could


I've been working a lot, I know.
But seeing your face at the end of the day has always felt so right.
Why don't you look at me, or greet me at the door like you once did?
(is this the beginning of the end?)
A question a dread to ask.
You glue yourself to the television as if it were God himself standing there before you...I don't even get a glance.
I smile at you and jokingly ask if you've missed me...'No'
(did you realize that it has been 5 days...now 6)
Honey what's wrong? Long day at work? ' Nothings wrong. '
(I'm sure)
I'm so numb to you. And I know that its a defense mechanism but that's the only way I can protect myself from you now. What happens from here on out is.... I wish I knew.

I'd miss you

....if I could


It has become hard now to miss something unresponsive and blank.

But oh, is it easy to miss the one who once would drive 20 miles to see me, even if it meant not leaving the driveway, or the man who would wrap his arms around me when he thought I was asleep and whisper in my ear 'I love you' then give me a squeeze before a kiss on the neck.

Yet in the same breath I am not dense I know he's not there anymore.

But in all fairness
...neither am I

The only difference is - how long will it take for you to notice?