why should you care

:: 2007 10 February :: 8.20am
:: Mood: disappointed

i
really
wanted
to
go
see
the thermals
with
loren

but no

i had to go and screw things up.

:: 2007 8 February :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: scared

just tie the rope

and kick the chair

just leave me hanging there, gasping for air

yeah dont mind me three feet from the ceiling

:: 2007 2 February :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: crushed

i feel so alone

and i dont fit in anywhere.

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can i disappear now?
please...

i hate this.

:: 2007 2 February :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Crystal Ball - Keane

kasdjflskdjf

so basically
i forgot what i wanted to say.

but i feel good.
life is good.
and you should feel good too.

:: 2007 2 February :: 5.24am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: longest winter - pedro the lion

my daddies birthday is tomorrow.

im so sick of being grounded.
i just want to leave this place.

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anyway, im glad its friday. i'm really starting to not like school. a lot. i just want to give up. thats bad. hmm. and i hate riding the bus yuk yuk yuk.

so basically i dont know whats going on with me anymore.
i feel like i dont know myself and i feel lost.
but i feel content too.
my stomach is twisting around and driving me crazy.

:: 2007 1 February :: 7.30pm
:: Music: you will never take me alive - the paper chase

today was... different

and i don't really know how i feel about it.
so many things came at me.

i feel happy

i feel.... new

im wearing a big grin.

:: 2007 30 January :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: how can i tell you - cat power

i feel like no one cares what i say or what i do
or who i am

i feel forgotten

and hated.

i feel judged and i feel like they're all mad at me.

i feel immature and gross.
i feel like a fake.
and i dont want to anymore.

i want to be me
i want to be real.

help.

:: 2007 30 January :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: we got to get away - caesars

learn to take a joke.

and stop assuming things about me.
im pretty fucking complicated
and its hard to read me
so dont just go around preaching how i feel
when you dont even fucking know.

but im super excited for thrusday
AHAHAHAHlkdfjslkdfjlskdfjlskd
butterflies
major.

:: 2007 29 January :: 5.26am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: the killers

if the answer is no, can i change your mind?

p.s.
Samantha had her freaking baby!
ahahahaha
ima go see it today!
yay!

:: 2007 28 January :: 11.07am
:: Music: tokyo police club

i'm scared.

:: 2007 27 January :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: maria taylor

i really should be writing that paper.

right now i just want to drop out.

bleh.

:: 2007 26 January :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: anticipating

I can't explain the state that I'm in
The state of my heart, he was my best friend
Into the car, from the back seat
Oh admiration in falling asleep
All of my powers, day after day
I can tell you, we swaggered and swayed
Deep in the tower, the prairies below
I can tell you, the telling gets old
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you the day we were born
My friend is gone, he ran away
I can tell you, I love him each day
Though we have sparred, wrestled and raged
I can tell you I love him each day
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you...

:: 2007 26 January :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: disappointed

this sucks.