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godessalthena

:: 2015 6 January :: 11.44am

life is too long to be good.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 6 January :: 7.47am
:: Mood: cynical

sometimes, I just need to hear I'm not worthless.

and yet no one seems to be able to say it when I really need it.

I just want to feel like I'm not an insignificant speck of shit on a cold planet hurtling through a vast empty cosmos.

but that's all I am. and that's all I'll ever be, and it hurts.

there is no such thing as love, or happiness, or futures, or magic, or faeries. there's just a supermassive black hole slowly eating anything and everything that it touches. I can see it as it pulls me in, and I am completely powerless to stop it.

"And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

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godessalthena

:: 2015 5 January :: 6.10am

another Monday. finals week starts tomorrow. but at least the stupid holiday season is over!!

it's my moms birthday today. I made her a hat. she hates her birthday, but hopefully this year is bearable!

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godessalthena

:: 2015 1 January :: 9.31am

this year, over all, sucked. but there were a few good parts. a lot of healing and growing.

hopefully this year will be better. and doesn't fly by.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 28 December :: 8.27pm

so many things about now. I don't even know where to start..

what exactly is "living" at 26?

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godessalthena

:: 2014 20 December :: 1.53pm

can I just go crawl in a hole and die? maybe in a whole where other disgusting filthy stupid losers have died before? that'd be great...

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godessalthena

:: 2014 20 December :: 7.43am

South Park, on my second bowl, made Alfredo. not even 8 yet.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 19 December :: 6.13pm

this week fucking sucked. outside of the awesome gift I got! I'm just really fucking bummed out and sad and feeling like a disgusting failure. a total joke.

what the fuck am I doing.

why?

just fucking why.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 19 December :: 5.39pm

I was going to do an actual update.. but then I played with bitchelle until my fingers hurt and I feel a lil better.. so I'll save the update for later

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godessalthena

:: 2014 17 December :: 6.57am

I feel like shit today. like that feeling were you are right on the edge of nausea.

I just want to go home a cuddle with my puppies.

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