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:: 2004 5 June :: 9.11 pm
:: Mood: sketched out!
:: Music: none`

fuckin scary shit!
wow tonight was fucking scary as fucking hell! lol... katie man you can fucking run fast!

being chased by a kid with a knife and a saw isnt fun... right girls!

omg what a fucking physco fucking child! holy shit!

lol i love jessie lizzy and katie! you girls are fucking awesome!



well yesterday wasnt that fun becasue meg decided to go with ryan and lie to us about cleaning her room... im guess im just dissapointed becasue i dunno i just didnt think meg would do a thing like that! i yhink i should learn to look deeper into people before i get like attached to a friend... i should stop trusting everyone until ii get proven wrong! i guess im just really upsrt becasue she dissapointed me!

well the rest of the night was fun! me katie and lizzy slept over mandas!

Amanda fucking maltz! i just want you to know that whenever you need a shoulder to cry on or an open ear to vent into im here! if it something totally huge or just something simple like a boy, im always here for you no matter wehat and i will always love you no matter what! you could never dissapoint me .. ever.. (i mean remember what happened on 420?) i just hope you always remember that im here even when your 95 years old and your husband dies and im in a wheel chair and cant see anymore... i will still have a shoulder for you to cry on! that is how much i love you!

^that goes for all of you guys! you know who you are!

<3 NikkiE

5 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 2 June :: 7.07 pm
:: Mood: angry

ok so yesterday after i wrote that i was happy everything else went down hill! my parents shut my phone off becasue they are gay and my mom brought me to the hospital today and threatened to put me into the 10 day unit thingy! i refused to go and threatened to leave if she went in to get someone... then she triend to bring me to the police station.. and my mom was like shell chance to my dad on the fone and he was screaming at her like she will never fucking change shes a bitch and i wish she wasnt mine.. when shes 17 shes getting the fuck out of here .. i cant take two more years! i fucking hate him so much becasue he flips over nothing and things that arent his buisness! i just weent into my room and started crying.. and he calls me a fucdking baby! now im crying writing this entry and i dont know why... why should i cry over a worthless piece of shit! ahhhhhhhhhhh

ok so now my mother just came up to me and tried to give me a kiss and i pulled my head away and she was like ohhhh shes starting again! what the fuck!

i dont even know who i can vent to.. i cant even put everything that happens in here becaue people... even my friends who read this wouldnt understand.. and i dont even thin most would care... i know i can tell like lizzy and manda and they will listen.. but i dont think they would really care... they have other things going on in their lives too! sometimes i just wish that i didnt exist! i hate my life and i just wish there was someone i could talk to that would just sit there... listen to me.. comfort me... and eat a bigggggggg bowl of ice cream with... but im not sure if i have anyone like that! im ust not sure

NikkiE

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 1 June :: 8.32 pm

"Anyone who thinks sunshine is pure happiness, has never danced in the rain."

^ i love that!

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 1 June :: 8.29 pm
:: Mood: not really sure
:: Music: cant touch this( on a comercial lol)

jghdgu
ok so im wicked bored... im watching that new show Summerland... its ok i guess.. i got 2 buds and 1 wine cooler so far with like 3 days to go.. so that means i can get way more! cant wait till friday meg and Jessie :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (TOMORROW) KATIE RODRIGUEZ! i fucknig love you

:)
wow im actually happy and i dont know why! wow!

<3 NikkiE!

1 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 31 May :: 8.11 pm
:: Mood: excited

yay`
yayyyyyyyy im sooooooo fucking excited!

if everything goes as planned then BECCA HAYES (my love) is copming to school with me next thursday!! im so fucking excited!

well last nite i slept at tracis house! that was interesting lol righttttt traci...

write more later!

I LOVE YOU REBECCA CATHERINE HAYES!!!

<3 NikkiE

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 27 May :: 4.00 pm

quizzes!!!!!!
fire heart
Heart of Fire


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...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 27 May :: 3.43 pm
:: Mood: pissed off

o kwell today was a GAY ASS DAY!! i didnt get to see my love jessie ALL day :( it was so sad.. awwwwww i love that girl!

so anyways i got written up for spanish yesterday and then she gave me another detention for throwing aq cough drop to hannah accross the desk... and then she just kicked me out... thank god! before that at lucnch i got shit from cozzy becasue i was sitting near "his table" i was fuckinbg on the radiator not even fucking near his table!! ahhhhhhhhh he pisses me off sometimes!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

then taylor was being fucking gay! wshe needs to stop being a fucking leech and leave people alone she follows EVERYONE! grrrrrrrrr no one likes her they just dont wanna be mean!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 26 May :: 9.43 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: american idol theme song

blah
im so aggervated becasue gymnastics was GAY!! the dude wasted 10 mins of our 30 that we pay 15 dollars each cuz some stupid fuck fell on her head in a back tuck! grrrr then mark sed that i did 95% and he did 5%.. that pisses me the fuck off... i just wanna do my fucking backhandspring by myself!! ohhhhhhhh and fucking then traci did the belt which i hate so i just sat there for another like 6 mins!!! ahhhhh it pisses me off how its our money and he fucking wastes our time!! hes so creppy too! ahhhhhhhhh grrrrrrrr

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 23 May :: 1.53 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: nonoe right now!!

LAst nite!
ok well LAst night was THE BEST nite ever!! ok so i went to the kiss concert and as soon as i got there i met up with janet and erika! we walked around forever, then got our tarrot card read... mine sed that i would get a pregnancy scare in october, and certain times im to nice to poeple(hahaha right lizzy), and that i make a big deal out of little thing! that is so true.. he also knew i was sigle... and alot of other things... i was like thats so fucked up!! he told me in october i would be shitting bricks for a couple of weeks!! im so scared lol!

ok so janet and erikas seats were in the lawn and mine were bad... so we sttod at the door and 4 rich looking ladies started to walk out.. so we go are you leaving? they sed yes so we asked for their tickets... and guess what... $500 tickets... we were in the FUCING 6TH ROW!! i was so excited.. we saw Ja rule, ashanti, kim locke(we got her autograph and hugs:) ) sean paul, backstreet boys hahahaha, jc chazes(or whatever the fuck his name is) jessica simpson, and maroon 5 from the 6th row! it was awesome!

ok well that jc guy from n*sync is a fuckin weirdo... he had like a fucking live porn on stage.. the 4 girls were like eating eachother out and fucking on stage... not to mention they were wearing like NOTHING!!

ok well the concert was the fucking best one ever! i had SOOOO much fucking fun! cant wait till next year!!

to tired to type anymore!!

oh ya and i love Cyndi Lauper!! haha shes such a cute old lady

and Avril Lavigne was fucking drunk as hell during her performance!!! it was awesome!!

<3 NikkiE

...SoMeWhErE...


:: 2004 20 May :: 4.30 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: roses

crash into a ditch!
ok well yet again this is a journal entry about people being fucking gay!! ok well lets keep this short and sweet... ok fuck all the assholes in the world!

ok well anyone that is mean to julie moulton needs to fucknig DIE! lol i love you Julie Anna Moulton sooooooooooo fucking much!

ok well everyone wear a skirt tomorrow so we can get water gunned to we can GO HOME!! yippie!!!!!!!! im sooooooo excited... ok well this is the funniest song in the world but now its over!

im really bored so i will write later!

...SoMeWhErE...

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