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xonixieox

:: 2005 20 March :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: laughing

talking to people
my conversation with Tracii! lol

x 6 TRACii 9 x: o0o idk
xNikkiE 435x: o0o..? couldnt oyu just say ooo or ohh
xNikkiE 435x: lmao
x 6 TRACii 9 x: no becuase im cool
xNikkiE 435x: hehe
xNikkiE 435x: NO
x 6 TRACii 9 x: haha
x 6 TRACii 9 x: SLUT
xNikkiE 435x: hhahaha SKANK ASS BITCHHHHHH
x 6 TRACii 9 x: ok are you talking?
xNikkiE 435x: ok i think i am!
xNikkiE 435x: APARENTLY i am
x 6 TRACii 9 x: who are you?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: do i know you?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: have we met?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: stop talking to me
xNikkiE 435x: my name is Nicole julie Anne Allen Cole Hand willens
xNikkiE 435x: NAACHW for short
x 6 TRACii 9 x: or as i like to call u FAGGOT for short
xNikkiE 435x: CUNT
x 6 TRACii 9 x: bitch
xNikkiE 435x: i love you
x 6 TRACii 9 x: i love you too
xNikkiE 435x: aww thanks skank


and my conversation with Dave!!!

snowboarder08642: :-\
snowboarder08642: i alomsyt got caught today
xNikkiE 435x: doing??
snowboarder08642: my dad dropped me off at his house right
snowboarder08642: and i was gunna smoke
xNikkiE 435x: ahhh.. sooo what happpend
snowboarder08642: so i got my dads smoking thing from like the 70's
xNikkiE 435x: hahhahaha
xNikkiE 435x: andddd...
snowboarder08642: and i got my trees and i was bout to smoke but i dudnt have a lighter
snowboarder08642: then i was like hmm i need to take a shit
xNikkiE 435x: .. soooo..
xNikkiE 435x: hahaha
xNikkiE 435x: thats lovely
snowboarder08642: so i brought the dougout and the baggie and the lighter into the bathroom
snowboarder08642: then my dad walks in the door
xNikkiE 435x: when your taking a shit?
snowboarder08642: yeah but he comes into the house
snowboarder08642: he was suposed to be gone for like 4 hours
xNikkiE 435x: omg!
xNikkiE 435x: so what did you do?
snowboarder08642: so if i hadent been in the bathroom with all the shit he woulda caught me
xNikkiE 435x: hahahaha
snowboarder08642: i through the stuff under thie sink and went back later and got it
xNikkiE 435x: haha thats a GREAT story
snowboarder08642: when i was in thhe bathroom and he wasnt home i was cleaning out the pipe-like thing and there was weed on the floor
snowboarder08642: and i almost lefct without cleaning it up
xNikkiE 435x: jezzzzz.. what were you thinking?
snowboarder08642: i dunnio
snowboarder08642: lol
snowboarder08642: last night
snowboarder08642: i was so high it wasnt even funny
snowboarder08642: i was smoking for like an hour straight
xNikkiE 435x: who were you smoking with?
snowboarder08642: couple of friends and joe alborgini
snowboarder08642: if you know him
xNikkiE 435x: im not sure..


lol

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

krazykelc1

:: 2005 19 March :: 9.13am
:: Mood: high
:: Music: Keane-Somewhere Only We Know

goodbye
I was never really able to translate my feelings into words.. All my life I've suppressed my feelings and protected myself from the world full of rejection.. Like my sign-- Cancer the crab.. a person who crawls inside their shell; I never let anyone get too close. My true self rarely ever exposed. Using drugs as a way of putting life on hold.. always caught up in my own twisted thoughts. No one really knows anyone.. you can't trust people, there's so much that every individual doesn't show.. Don't be scared of getting hurt. Don't ever hold back.



I've thought about it.. and I decided you only live once. The past does not predict the future.. Live everyday as if it were your last-- because someday..that will be the case. You need to have fun in your life, make memories you'll want to remember..don't sulk in just one situation. Trust your instincts and follow your heart ..never forget that.

...SoMeWhErE...

xonixieox

:: 2005 19 March :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: blank

with my lover T-Dawgg

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Nikkie
Birthday:october 20th
Birthplace:Natick
Current Location:Natick
Eye Color:Brown
Hair Color:hmm.. reddinsh?
Height:5'6"
Right Handed or Left Handed:Leftie baby
Your Heritage:alot of things.. im a mut
The Shoes You Wore Today:sneakers
Your Weakness:love
Your Fears:being alone ..
Your Perfect Pizza:chesse and peppers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:varsity.. but it wont happen :(
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:lol !!!!
Thoughts First Waking Up:"whats the drama gunna be today"
Your Best Physical Feature:nothing
Your Bedtime:11
Your Most Missed Memory:summer with tracii babii
Pepsi or Coke:coke w/ lime
MacDonalds or Burger King:neither
Single or Group Dates:group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:coffee coolata
Do you Smoke:uhhhmm..
Do you Swear:fuck yes
Do you Sing:not well
Do you Shower Daily:every night
Have you Been in Love:no.. i feel like i never will be
Do you want to go to College:yes
Do you want to get Married:i wish to get married
Do you belive in yourself:.........?
Do you get Motion Sickness:on busses but not in the water
Do you think you are Attractive:no..
Are you a Health Freak:no
Do you get along with your Parents:sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:i get scared and hide under my blanket
Do you play an Instrument:NO
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:umm.. i dont think so
In the past month have you Smoked:yea..
In the past month have you been on Drugs:.. only like perscribed shit lol..
In the past month have you gone on a Date:uhmm yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yes like every weekend.. TANCCK.. hell yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no... but now im in the mood
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:ewwe no
In the past month have you been on Stage:no
In the past month have you been Dumped:no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:too cold dude
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:a piece of friut from roche brothers
Ever been Drunk:yes
Ever been called a Tease:who hasnt?
Ever been Beaten up:no.. i do that job
Ever Shoplifted:yes.. :\
How do you want to Die:quickly.. without pain
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:doctor
What country would you most like to Visit:somewhere tropical
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:brown..
Favourite Hair Color:i dont care
Short or Long Hair:short
Height:tall
Weight:buit but not fat
Best Clothing Style:who cares
Number of Drugs I have taken:..? im not sure
Number of CDs I own:like 45
Number of Piercings:5
Number of Tattoos:none.. but im getting one soon
Number of things in my Past I Regret:mostly 1.. but i fixed it.. T-Dawg i <3 you

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

...SoMeWhErE...

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2005 19 March :: 9.49am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: lonely: akon

....
well i havent updated in a little bit i guess. nothing much has happened really...

its like we just got off of feb. vacation and i already cant wait for april...lol w/e

im confused about everything...the time since i have moved has gone by so fast...i want everything to be the same again. i hope i can be really happy again soon, rite now im just in this middle areatrying to move on. idk

i dont make any sense.

i lost 5 pounds so far, i guess im happy about that, cuz ive really never lost weight before, as sad as that is.

-darien

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xonixieox

:: 2005 18 March :: 12.55pm
:: Mood: sad

thinking about love..
i was thinking about love, and no matter what i do, i can never seem to find it.. and im beginig to think i never will..

"Without love there are no dreams."

"You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it."

"Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing."

"Soft words hold more power than strong hands."



comment if you feel the same way that i do..

-Nik

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xonixieox

:: 2005 18 March :: 9.52am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: since you've been gone x kelly clarkson

:\

well.. yesterday i went to school.. and it was a half day..woohuu lol.. and then i wanted to go to framinham with TRACI but noone could drive us.. so i just went home and took a nap.. then.. at drivers ed the hot kidd who always talks to me wasnt there so i had a boring night.. except the fact that i talked to T-Dawg on my break, and in ther middle of class lol! ya so it guess it wasnt that bad..

well yesterday was sait patricks day.. and depressingly i didnt get drunk


ya so today im not in school again becasue i have a doctors appointment to see whats going on ..
im a bit nervous .. but i guess i'll be fine so thats all that matters.. i just hope i dont have to switch medicines.. becase this noe works so well..


[I even fell for that stupid love song]


http://profiles.myspace.com/users/23706031

...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2005 17 March :: 9.29pm

i dont understand how i can just melt completely.. after all the shit.. i just dont even care i just.. need it.. i dont even care about the consequences i dont care what i really want i need this.. and idk what im gonna do cuz im so weak to it.. i love it.. ahh

...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2005 17 March :: 6.13am
:: Music: think about it - A.O.T. ft. ME!

so.. things have been pretty sucky.. i mean im getting closer to new friends but i feel like i barely see my other friends and i miss them.. i dont want to lose how things were before...

i recorded a song with cj matty and hakeem and i love it, it makes me so happy that people like it so many ppl have come up to me in the hallways like "I LOVE YOUR SONG" lol and im glad :-) a week until i leave for las vegas... damn im scared..

well its way early and im so tired ill write more later

Sometimes all I really want to feel is love
Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry
Sometimes my feelings get in the way
Of what I really feel I needed to say
If you stand in a circle
Then you'll all have a back to bite
Back logged voices on the 7 wonders
We're all so funny but he's lost his joke now
A communication from the one lined joke
A stand up comic and a rock musician
Making so much noise you don't know when to listen
Why are you judging people so damn hard
You're taking your point of views a bit too far
I made my shoes shine with my coal
But my polish didn't shine the hole
Think it over
There's the air of the height of the highrollers
Think it over
You aint got nothing till ya know her

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xonixieox

:: 2005 16 March :: 7.00am
:: Mood: blank

hospitals suck..
well last night i went to the hospital.. till like 2 am, becasue i was having a reaction to my prozac.. well not really a reaction.. it just wouldnt let part of my brain fully function.. ya it was kinda scary becasue it was causing my right eye to go blury.. i gott maddd dizzy.. and i felt like there was fire flowing through my veins and it really sucked.. so now since i CANT go off my prozac i have to go to the neurologist to get onto ANOTHER medicine :/ .. thats fucking 3 medications.. this is rediiculous! i hate this shit.. now since we were there so late i cant go to school.. but im not tired because i guess im Over tired!

ya well thats all..

Comment please if you care..

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krazykelc1

:: 2005 14 March :: 8.15am
:: Mood: geometry sucks
:: Music: Jimmy's ipod

er duh do doh
welcome back journal! woooooooh

...SoMeWhErE...

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