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xonixieox

:: 2005 15 January :: 5.46am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: whisky lullaby x brad paisly and allison krauss

havnt updated in a while
well.. i havnt really been home to update.. so let me see.. this past week i went to 2 wresiling meets, and the basket ball game last night. i had fun.. last night we beat framingham!! FUCK YES! and it was hiliarious becasue Jess and Dawn had me start some little chant things! "ITS ALL OVER" and "WARM UP THE BUS" haha it was hilarious.. the framingham fans were fucked up tho because they were being really loud and annoying.. but it was really funny!

ohh the other night i went to the wreseling meet with dawn britt and jacgui! we went to georges and it was so foggy.. Jacqui was like flashing the liughts on and off... hilarious..

well im really upset that i couldnt go to dariens.. but hopefully she is coming down here.. i really really hope! i fucking hate mid-terms.. and i know im not going to end up studying so i dont even see thew point but whatever..



x x x
She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

1st Chorus
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

2nd Chorus
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

comment please

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2005 14 January :: 10.40pm
:: Music: ill get by ok x grateful dead

alot of hours to occupy it was easy when i didnt know you yet
things id have to forget
but i better be quiet now
im tired of wasting my breath
carrying on and getting upset
maybe i got a problem but thats not what i wanted to say
id prefer to say nothing
i got a long way to go
im getting further away

--

im emotionally unstable.. i found myself revolving my thoughts about this.. i even had myself in tears today.. are my emotions that on edge? that even the slightest push will break me? robbie and i were talking today in history and it made me realize a few things.. that i have to keep lust and desire away from what the reality is.. i shouldnt get my hopes up for something that probably wont amount to anything allthough i wish it would.. damn do i ever..

i hate to show people my tears when im sad.. i held em back in history and then in the front hallway jimmy stole my balloon and since i had just been holding it all in my last button was pushed and i just started to tear up.. and i hugged jimmi l and cried and then went into the bathroom and sucked it up and had a cigarette.. and i cant stand coming home to this house void of any positive emotion.. it makes me even more depressed.. i just feel so empty and like jaded by all this crap around me..

i miss kaitlin alot.. she was like my get away my friend whod never change cuz we were sisters and i know thats still true but shes all the way in switzerland and it just sucks to have her so far away.. im sure shes having a great time tho.. in amsterdam, lugano, germany all the different party/rave/drug zones id be in heaven.. lol

well i guess thats it for now..

ill let you know how things go in the future...

...SoMeWhErE...

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2005 14 January :: 7.39pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: give it up: jennfier lopez.

yay
yay nikkie is coming tomorrow til monday, i havent seen her since october. lol so im excited. yes well thats all i had to say...ill update later...

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silentcriez

:: 2005 14 January :: 6.44am
:: Music: stuck in the middle with you x grateful dead


i had a weird dream last night about taking mrs simms engliush test and like getting something in th email at the school but they were pictures from a long time ago from like whne me and sam went skiing or something it was reeally oddd..

just thought id let that out lol

good morning.. im so damn tired

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silentcriez

:: 2005 12 January :: 11.17pm


alright.. so i guess heres the scope on me..

ive had an interesting week filled with various highs and lows.. each day starts one way and ends another like the other day i was having THE shittiest day ever then i was greeted with a happy occurance at the end of the day and some days ill wake up with spunk and then feel like shit throughout the day..

roar..

i brought kaitlin up to the airport today.. shes really gone... shes in europe in switzerland im really gonna miss her.. i love her so much she was the last good thing i had left in my family...

dammit im sore and tired and i need to shower...

ill update later

...SoMeWhErE...

Cocopuff

:: 2005 12 January :: 8.42pm


No sleep last night,
too busy thinkin of you.
I was tryin to figure out how I could fix things,
but I can't.
You wouldn't want me to anyway,
so I guess I'll just have to stop loving you somehow.
And only love the memory of me actually thinking you cared.
It hurt bad.
I shouldn't waste my tears, I know.
It's kind of too late to say that.
I've already unleashed thousands,
cuz every thought I ever had
was about you.
And every dream I ever wished
came true -
when you entered my life.
And now you're slowly disappearing,
so I didn't sleep last night....

yea thats how i feel right about now.. seems like once again everything is changing.. and i dont know why, mayb its for the better this time...but w/e idk... i dont know nethign nemore... and im gettign to the point where i really dont care about nethign nemore....

2 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2005 11 January :: 6.16pm

i wish i could press rewind..
and relive each second with you again and again...


very good end to a bad day to say the least ;-)


Who’d like to see me down on my fucking knees
Everybody’s dying just to get the disease


I LOVE ELLIOT SMITH! why did he have to be such a troubled guy?



if i could press rewind

if i could press rewind today
id relive each moment i spent
holding your hands.
and know now to appreciate you while i can.

if i could press rewind today
id catch your innocence in a picture
and watch it on my walls.
while the winter snow flakes slowly start to fall.

if i could press rewind today
id melt you to my skin
and smell the scent known only to you.
as the lyrics bounce off me, stella blue..

if i could press rewind today
id savor every kiss you gave
in the shadows, on your bed
i wouldnt have to move ahead.

if i could press rewind today
id end up back in ecstacy.
a pure plutonic benifit
of keeping love where it needs to be hid.

if i could press rewind today
id worry much less for the future me
id be ruled by the impulse in my veins
maybe i wouldnt feel so insane

if i could press rewind today
there'd be no turning back.
id breath you in and scream your name
i swear id never be the same.

if i could press rewind today
and relive all my regrets
there wouldnt be anything id ever take back
but remind myself not to get too attatched

if i could press rewind today
and watch it all happen again.
i stare forever in your eyes
those deep brown pools of paradise.

if i could press rewind today
i think id kiss you just once more.
id feel your body and taste your touch
id try and never miss you much

if i could press rewind today
id look you in the eyes.
id tell you that you couldnt leave
and how much that you meant to me..

if i could press rewind and stay
in the dream i call today
id peirce your skin and sew me in
forever waiting for the day to begin

...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2005 10 January :: 12.29am
:: Music: stella blue x gratefuldead

All the years combine, they melt into a dream,
A broken angel sings from a guitar.
In the end there’s just a song comes cryin’ up the night
Thru all the broken dreams and vanished years.
Stella blue. stella blue.

When all the cards are down, there’s nothing left to see,
There’s just the pavement left and broken dreams.

In the end there’s still that song comes cryin’ like the wind.
Down every lonely street that’s ever been
Stella blue. stella blue.

I’ve stayed in every blue-light cheap hotel, can’t win for trying.
Dust off those rusty strings just one more time,
Gonna make them shine, shine

It all rolls into one and nothing comes for free,
There’s nothing you can hold, for very long.
And when you hear that song come crying like the wind,
It seems like all this life was just a dream.
Stella blue. stella blue.


well the past couple days have been ok i guess, i hung out with john lizzy and chris for a while today and tomorrow i have a bunch of plans but i think im hanging out with dana for his birthday tomorrow :-) yayy

the snow day was fun except for getting soaking wet and freezing!!!

ah well im never gonna get up in the morning if i dont go to bed soon so off i go

- manda

...SoMeWhErE...

xonixieox

:: 2005 9 January :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: holy water x big and rich

my favorite song!
i have had this song on repeat for like 2 days

BIG AND RICH x HOLY WATER

Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine
wherever she would go
But looking at her
now you'd never tell

Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water


such a sad song but so good

(its about a girl who was raped)

download it if you didnt already

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

xonixieox

:: 2005 6 January :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: holy water x big and rich

SNOW DAY!!

YAY today was a snow day

ya so today during the SNOW DAY i sat at home and watched spice world and laws of attraction.. then i went to Gini's.. then we went to amanda's..

then Me Gin Mada Kevin Luke Jonathan and Danny all went to ben hem and played on the slides for like an hour! i got soaked! it was sooooooooooooooo much fun.. i tackeled danny and so did Gini.. lol sorry danny.. ya so i fell on my ass atleat a million times..

then i came home and tried to do my spanish homework.. but it didnt happen so now im talking to kimmi and writing in this!

comment!

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

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