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SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 4 June :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: silenceeeeeee

ahh i forgot on my list of things i dislike the most important thing that i hate!!!

#119. Richard Stadleman

-if you know him you know what im talking about I HATE HIM!! I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HOW TO HATE UNTIL I MET HIM!!

btw my first thing for dance yesterday was horrible we were all falling off the stage and off the risers we came in late ughh it was so bad... tonight i hope we do better...
7pm at North Ft Myers High

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SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 2 June :: 10.16pm
:: Music: HAPPY SONG! (twinkle twinkle)

IM FREE IM SO HAPPY LIFE IS AWESOME YES!!

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xonixieox

:: 2004 2 June :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: angry

ok so yesterday after i wrote that i was happy everything else went down hill! my parents shut my phone off becasue they are gay and my mom brought me to the hospital today and threatened to put me into the 10 day unit thingy! i refused to go and threatened to leave if she went in to get someone... then she triend to bring me to the police station.. and my mom was like shell chance to my dad on the fone and he was screaming at her like she will never fucking change shes a bitch and i wish she wasnt mine.. when shes 17 shes getting the fuck out of here .. i cant take two more years! i fucking hate him so much becasue he flips over nothing and things that arent his buisness! i just weent into my room and started crying.. and he calls me a fucdking baby! now im crying writing this entry and i dont know why... why should i cry over a worthless piece of shit! ahhhhhhhhhhh

ok so now my mother just came up to me and tried to give me a kiss and i pulled my head away and she was like ohhhh shes starting again! what the fuck!

i dont even know who i can vent to.. i cant even put everything that happens in here becaue people... even my friends who read this wouldnt understand.. and i dont even thin most would care... i know i can tell like lizzy and manda and they will listen.. but i dont think they would really care... they have other things going on in their lives too! sometimes i just wish that i didnt exist! i hate my life and i just wish there was someone i could talk to that would just sit there... listen to me.. comfort me... and eat a bigggggggg bowl of ice cream with... but im not sure if i have anyone like that! im ust not sure

NikkiE

...SoMeWhErE...


xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 2 June :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: SHIT ON TOAST.....!! I LIKE TO EAT IT FOR BREAKFAST!!

NUTSAC!!
aahahahhahahahahhahahhah

well ok hah i had a very fun and interesting day today...lol it was raining too! well nikkie had fucking triple so me and julie, being good friens, decided to wait forher when she got out....lol AT 5:00 lol but its ok so we walked to georges to pass the time and plus we were hungry so we needed to eat...we got pizza fries and drinks and then well..we were laughing alot and tehre were some porblems so we had to go to autumns house where we took care of what we needed to...and then we were off to the highschool again to go get nikkie and stuff...we waited tehre for about an hour and did our hw then we left again to go to georges to get nikkie some pizza..when we walked there we got lost trying to take shortcuts and ended up takign the longest way possible to get to georges!! lol we ate then we needed to walk to the karate place to get picked up...lol on the way julei sang a nice and interesting song ..ask her about i am sure she will be happy to sing it for u!! she also had soem fun prentending to have tourettes syndrome...ahahh i was about to pee my pants esp when liek 10 ppl walked by givign us the weirdest looks ever!! ahah well now i ma here at home pretty wet but i had a good time!! lol i love you guys!!!

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krazykelc1

:: 2004 2 June :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Ja Rule-Caught Up

Summerr is right around the corner!



the four day week is half over... then only 5 more days of actual school.. & finals the next week, then we're out!

I dont know if I should be excited or not...
I love the summer but I also hate leaving everyone at the end of the year..

and I know this summer won't be the same as last summer, no doubt about it.
Last June around this time, I probably found myself in the same position as I'm in now. Thinking to myself, what the hell am I gonna do this summer without them? well... by the time August of last summer came - the them's were replaced by a new group of people.. who I became very close with in that one month and changed with a WHOLE lot. I wouldn't be what I am right now if I hadn't met them... Everyone knows how I was in 8th grade, and should see the difference between now and then... and if you were wondering how it happened-its all because of them.

And the one person who started it all doesn't even talk to me anymore..
When I met her last summer and became really close with her I left alot of my old friends out of my life for a while.. and thats exactly what she did to me and Lizzy and Amanda sometime at the begining of the year.. and I'm not writing this to make her feel bad or guilty in any way.. because I know growing and changing and meeting new people is all a part of high school.. I just hope she knows how much her friends cared about her and missed her.

This summer is going to be real hard for me at first... and I think I can speak for my friends as well when I say that. We will make something good out of it though-we always have. It's just going to be a whole lot different.

As long as we don't spend our vacation reminiscing in the past.. we should be able to make new memories with new people. Although it may be hard to look into a new future when you are desperately trying to hold onto the past... people DO come and go, just hold onto the ones who are with you now-they are all you will need to make it through. And remember there is always a reason why some people dont make it to your future.

- SuMmEr '04 -

I love you Elizabeth Amanda & Meaghan
MajkL* & everyone else.

HappY 15tH BirthdaY KateliN!!

...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 1 June :: 10.26pm

through teh wind i whisper your name
into teh snow i call your name
and ill wait for teh day that you love me
hang up teh fone, just want you to call right back
how can i get enough of this
i dont know what has come over me
something i just cant explain
far across across teh empty sky
i will ride these endless clouds of white
and there all the imperfect will become perfect
just teh way they are
but how can these stars they shine liek theyve never
been shining before
i see them brand new and calling
i see you alone and wanting
and my heart returns its call
wont you hold me in teh darkness
wont you love me dont know where ur heart is
just wish that someday youll find a way
whisper into these empty skies
my last call for sanity
tell me all i have to give
maybe ill get you to love me?
tell me what it is when u say all teh right words
tell me why u know just what to say
with just one look into your blue eyes
i lose myself that way
no matter all that i sing
or anything that i could ever say
it could never tell you how much you mean to me
you might say i dont understand
dont knwo what its like to have you by my side
you might tell me that i dont know all about love
maybe your right, but i know what i feel everynight
and it just happens that i love the way you make me smile
tranquil kisses, soft embraces
the love is all around
its in teh air and its in your heart
beauty so profound
what is it that keeps me wanting
what is this diseas thats come over me
am i binded and tainted
and bleeding for all to see
these stars hold no comfort tonight
if your arms arent wrapped around me
and these hands are so empty
when not entwined with mine u see
so tangle me with words
tell me all that it is you heard
just wrap me up inside your sheets tonight
tell me, tell me, tell me what it is you see
and love me, oh love me tonight

...SoMeWhErE...


SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 1 June :: 9.42pm
:: Music: LLALALALLA

ITS UPDATED # 84 AND ON!! ENJOY!
things that i think are dumb or i dislike (UPDATED #84- WHATEVER NIMBER IT ENDS TO) ill have more soon!

1. PLAYERS!! when guys are players it just sucks bc its mean and just something no one deserves, weather the 2 are gong out or not

2. Mr Hanson

3. Having to shave my legs

4. people who never say anything nice to others

5. people who say they like something only because someone they like does.

6. seeing someone laughing at mentally retarded victims

7. gold teeth

8. erasable pens (they dont erase)

9. people who drink and think they're cool talking about it.

10. same above with sex

11. people who put down another person for race or color

12. peppers and onions (a little bit of onion is okay but peppers are just boring in flavor and have an awful stench)

13. getting yelled at for not going to school because i'm sick.

14. the sun glaring in my eyes when i'm in a car no matter what you do

15. twangy country music

16. guys being perverted, it can be cute for a little bit than it just gets annoying

17. people who ask ''how far have you been?" or who assume that because you've been in a relationship for a long time, you've went really far

18. salmon

19. hypochondriacs

20. girls who wear low cut shirts and get mad at boys for looking, or are all giddy and act like this is a spirit match

21. when people make fun of any of my friends

22. rapists

23. watching sports on tv (hockey is an exception) (A BIG ONE)

24. christmas shopping in crowded stores

25. slow drivers

26. potholes

27. tailgaters

28. people who steal other people's phrases and think they're cool because they say them

29. girls wearing a lot of makeup. you don't need to.

30. girls who look good in capris, I LOOK BAD, and it's not fair

31. my feet

32. homework

33. when people sing christmas music in the middle of june

34. bras

35. pet hair

36. squeaky hinges

37. creeky floors

38. teachers who pick favorites and hit on them. (unless it's me)-not

39.slavery

40. animal cruelty

41. glitter appearing on my body when i didnt put it there.

42. people who swear every other word

43. the sound my alarm clock makes

44. telemarketers

45. sound of hairdryer/ vacuum when i'm trying to listen to music or watch tv

46. people checking me out that are not of my own age

47. checking the answering machine only to hear like 5 people hang up

48. when my dad has to know whos on the phone.. or friends doing the same its none of your business

49. wind when my hair is down

50. when mr hanson tries to yell and scare us

51. when mr hanson dances in front of the class or sings and tries to be funny

52. bugs

53. swallowing pills

54. the partridge family

55. when it's just my dad and me home together

56. pointy/ shiny shoes

57. being in 2nd hour knowing i have mr hansons class next

58. the voice of Gloria on all in the family

59. when mr hanson says hi to me in the halls

60. when mr hanson looses my papers and even though i turned them in, he gives me a 0

61. having to cut the fat off my meat

62. screaming singers or girls screaming when there friends are right in front of them.

63. when mr hanson never gives me a 100 even when everythings right

64. the words "whatever" and "nevermind" used in any mood other than happiness and joking around.

65. when people say "ill do it in a minute" and it neer happens

66. when people act stupid to get attention

67. when things say 100% real fruit juice than you look at the label and it says 50% real fruit juice

68. when friends backstab you

69. when nathan throws the bannana skin at us

70. when i have an itch i cant scratch

71. when your friends tell you one thing and act a certain way around you until they are with you with eiter guys or other friends and act different or pretend your not there

72. people who lie- i will catch you

73. when i catch someone in a lie and they lie to get out of it and contradict everything they say or lie more when i know its a lie-give it up!!

74. when people mispronounce the word "often"

75. when girls get all dressed up to go to the movies or mall and it looks like there going out to a funeral or wedding something formal like that.

76. girls that cant even walk to the mailbox with out makeup on

77. hypocrites

78. when adults buy happy meals just for the toy to either play with themselves or give to kids or grandkids

79. when the people at mc donalds dont give you your toy with your happy meal

80. when guys play around with you and tell you that they like you, kiss you and leads you on all for a dare

81. ashleys obsession with ugly guys (kenny chesney)

82. how my friends are always right about everything and im wrong but i never listen to them anyway.

83. when friends say "ill never do that" and do it anyway even if it hurts you so bad than say they will never hurt you.. and they hurt you so bad so you say go ahead you already hurt me enough

84. when my parents ask me like a million questions

85. when people just wont tell their crush they like them... you think your going to get anywhere not telling them?

86. Clint, who is sadly obsessed with me

87. Stephanie S. , also sadly obsessed with me

88. when my dad tried to be cool but he really isnt

89. when my teeth hurt and i get the chills

90. people who are annoying online

91. how my hair gets a crease in it when i put it up

92. how everyone says "I LOVE YOU SO AND SO i cant live without you".. when they break up it takes like a month and there on saying it about someone else

93. when the phone wakes me up in the morning

94. when my hair doesnt work with me

95. how my neighbor is always mowing his lawn along with mine, and the whole neighborhoods lawn.. w/ out a shirt... thats kinda gross

96. WHY CAN'T I RUN OUTSIDE WITHOUT A SHIRT!?!? it isnt fair guys can!

96. when i cant beat a video game

97. my old gymnastics coach

98. the freshman whores

99. when someone ( refer to #87) comes to my driveway with this kid that i do not like and that i want to leave me alone (#86) and im too tired to yell at her!!!

100. HOW I CANT STOP BITING MY NAILS!!!

101. Abe and Roseanne Goodman... they are like evil deamons that want to make my life terrible

102. my cousin meghan whod goal in life is to make me have the hardest life in the world

103. when people stare at me.. i want to bury their faces in a hole

104. my neighbor to my right... he never comes outside and i spy on him n his girlfriend in the patio

105. the neighbor to my left... he has partys till like 5 in the morning LOUD PARTIES! how the heck am i suppost to sleep?

106. my mirror reflection

107. when i get scared and think there is a monster under my bed

108. sluts, whores, hoes.... i seem to know alot

109. Jamie idk her last name, but she looks like a barbie doll (except uglier) and acts like a bitch

110. Nicole idk her last name but shes really annoying and acts liek a bitch too and she needs to be shot

111. Anime shows... they are just scary

112. wigger kids... they dont even deserve a name!!

113. the word supercalafragilisticexpialadocious... i cant pronunce it and i hate that

114. when bugs fly around me

115. mosquitoes

116. when i wake up at the middle of the night

117. when am having a good dream andsomething wakes me up

118. when i dont tan

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xonixieox

:: 2004 1 June :: 8.32pm

"Anyone who thinks sunshine is pure happiness, has never danced in the rain."

^ i love that!

...SoMeWhErE...


xonixieox

:: 2004 1 June :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: not really sure
:: Music: cant touch this( on a comercial lol)

jghdgu
ok so im wicked bored... im watching that new show Summerland... its ok i guess.. i got 2 buds and 1 wine cooler so far with like 3 days to go.. so that means i can get way more! cant wait till friday meg and Jessie :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (TOMORROW) KATIE RODRIGUEZ! i fucknig love you

:)
wow im actually happy and i dont know why! wow!

<3 NikkiE!

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silentcriez

:: 2004 1 June :: 6.47pm


hello journal my name is amanda and i am on the fone with mr sean hays and i am happy :)

got into a figth with meg teh other day i dont see why she has to lie to me, mayeb im doing something wrong?

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