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2005 13 March :: 6.55pm
"I dream of you when I'm asleep, you even appear when I'm awake daydreaming. There is no escaping you. I just wish it was true."
its sad how its never ever going ot happen :(
i guess i just have ot get over it..
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well i had a fun weekend.. i stayed at TRACI ANNE's the entire weekend! i had fun with her bacasue shes the only one i know i cna trust and for that i truly owe my life..
comment if you wish
-Nik
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2005 13 March :: 1.00pm
I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never...
random found this shong and i fell in love with it....
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2005 11 March :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: la lal la la la nikkie tryin to sing =)
TRACIIIIII !!!
alright so this is the one and only TRACI !!! hellz yea well today me and nikkie went to school and then i went to drivers ed and then at 5 we went to the mall with Christy and Ashley =) it was MMMMazing. Jimmy went to the movies with us but then he left =/ so we're gunan go call him and see if he wants to come to my house (traci's) right now ..
I LOVE NICOLE JULIE ALLEN MORE THEN ANYONE IN THE WORLD AND I WILL FUCK U UP IF YOU DARE TO THINK OTHERWISE =)
love xoxoxo Traci
p.s
FUCK ALL THE HATERZZZZZZZZZ =)
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2005 11 March :: 8.39pm
Taurus - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.
Your negative traits:
Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.
Your ideal partner:
Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.
Your dating style:
Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.
Your seduction style:
Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.
Tips for the future:
Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.
Best place to meet someone online:
American Singles - peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living.
Best color to attract mate: Pale blue
Best day for a date: Friday
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2005 10 March :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: grrr
angry
ya so today i talked with ms navarro and she asked me what was up with virginia and me.. well for everyone who aperenly likes to make shit up and thalk alot heres whats happening..
so a few weeks ago virginias mom sed she couldnt hang out with me anymore.. so she stopped.. and when that happened she stopped talking to me as much and all that fun stuff.. ok so even now when i see her, if shes the only one around she'll talk to me.. but if other poeple are around she'll ignore me.. and i dont think i deserve to be treated like that.. also when she comes to "visit" me with amanda and brttany.. that hurts me bacasue it shows me that she can have other friends.. just not me.. so whatever.. obviously she never really wanted to be my friend, and im definatly done losing sleep over it becasue through all o this i realized how lost i was without my one TRUE best friend.. there was so much that i even kept from virginia when we were at our tightiest, that i just couldnt bring myself to tell her.. but they were things that traci already knew..
so this journal entry i about how me and virginia arent friends.. but its mostly about how Traci is such a good friend.. honestly i think i would have killed my self by now if i dint have her here to talk to..
ohh ya .. so.. to whoever is spreading shit and goes and says "ohh ya nikkie took virginia out of her profile" and all that shit.. well fuck you cuz heres why!!
wow i had a WICKED bad day today :( it sucked.. this didnt make it much better besides the fact that i know im gunna talk to traci in a little while.. then i KNOW she'll make me laugh!
comment if your care
-Nik
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2005 9 March :: 7.48pm
i watched my bird flailing in its cage today and i thought about what what happening.. its greatest gift had been taken away, the gift of flight. a couple weeks ago my cat attacked it and it can no longer fly.. we never clipped its wings because birds are given teh gift to fly the ultimate freedom.. and now this bird sits in his cage, alone without its god given right.. its freedom.. and for that i feel sadness, i feel the world is unjust and i feel that nothing should be held back from what it is destined to be, or do. i watch and it struggle to fly.. struggle to get back the freedom the gift it was given and it doesnt understand.. it doesnt know why it cant fly.. it doesnt know why it cant be free.. i know why the caged bird sings..
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2005 9 March :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: none..
blah
well right now im reading tuesdays with murrie.. its really good.. katie and a bunch of other people told me to read it.. so i bought it today, and im like almost done! its really sad though..
<3 Nik <3
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2005 8 March :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: american idol
im bored
well right now im watching american idol and praying for a snow day tomorrow! i want to go tanning with my tracii babyy! :) lol i went to the mall with her today but we didnt find jobs like we had planned! whatever we still had fun! i love that girl! lol ya so now im watching american idol
COMMENT PLEASE!
-Nik
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2005 8 March :: 8.13pm
oops
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2005 8 March :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: sick
this makes me so happy!!
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2005 7 March :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: sad
"why does the lonely bird follow? and why does the happy bird lead? why does the sky reflect beauty and freedom why do these oceans reflect hate. why does the sun set each day farther away making for a pain we'll regret. why does life keep on going, without regards to me, or people i havent met. why am i destined to feel, like im destined for nothing at all? and why does god let us climb up so high if hes going to let us fall? why does this earth continue turning, and why wont my heart cease to beat? why does the wind keep howling why do we sweat when in heat? why do my eyes slowly follow, your shadow as you enter a room? why am i forced to be different? why am i forced to be doomed. why is this fate all around me? its in me its in you its in hate.. why does it move like a sun beam, with no need to hesiatate. why does my heart reak of depression? and why doesnt the world overflow with tears? after all of this sadness, id figure itd happen over the years. too many people feel sadness, too many children know pain. too much has gone left unspoken.. too much is lost along the way. weve lost so much in translation. theres no hope in ever turning back.. weve stopped at this time lost here in space.. evolution is now what we lack.. why have we begun to regress, and fall further behind in lifes plan? why do the trees grow, the moon shine, the child wish? and why arent you with me today? why do we bleed when were broken? why am i kicked when im down. why can we be sad when we smile? but never happy when we frown? why does the world strive to be fake? why cant we just show whats real? in a world where bigger is better, why is it that we all must conceal? why do my words hit your earlobes so lightly, but your heart and head so strong? because these questions burn in your brain, in this time, in this world, and they have for so long.. your conscience will follow, but why will it never speak? never tell you what to do, what to say what to think, but make you feel bad at the choices you make, and the risks that you take. why does the heart know only one beat, and blue bird sing only one song? the people around you protect you.. and keep walking beside you on this web of life..until finally youve turned wrong.." by Amanda Maltz... my hero and the love of my life
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2005 7 March :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: none
madd bored so...
Your Porn Star Name is: Sindee Slickbooty
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Your Stripper Name is: Mocha
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hahah im a loser right? i konw lmao
-Nik
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2005 7 March :: 5.46pm
I NEED SEX IM HAVING WITHDRAWLS!!
its like nothing else in the world matters to you.. no problems nobody else just you your heartbeat and the one your embracing.. its like the world is falling down around you and you dont seem to care. nothing is as important as that satisfying moment which continues for hours if lucky.. its like in that moment your wrapped in all the love, all the want, all the lust in the world.. for that split second your in love.. ofr that split second your happy.. and then as quickly as it came.. your back where you began..
read me
"why does the lonely bird follow? and why does the happy bird lead? why does the sky reflect beauty and freedom why do these oceans reflect hate. why does the sun set each day farther away making for a pain we'll regret. why does life keep on going, without regards to me, or people i havent met. why am i destined to feel, like im destined for nothing at all? and why does god let us climb up so high if hes going to let us fall? why does this earth continue turning, and why wont my heart cease to beat? why does the wind keep howling why do we sweat when in heat? why do my eyes slowly follow, your shadow as you enter a room? why am i forced to be different? why am i forced to be doomed. why is this fate all around me? its in me its in you its in hate.. why does it move like a sun beam, with no need to hesiatate. why does my heart reak of depression? and why doesnt the world overflow with tears? after all of this sadness, id figure itd happen over the years. too many people feel sadness, too many children know pain. too much has gone left unspoken.. too much is lost along the way. weve lost so much in translation. theres no hope in ever turning back.. weve stopped at this time lost here in space.. evolution is now what we lack.. why have we begun to regress, and fall further behind in lifes plan? why do the trees grow, the moon shine, the child wish? and why arent you with me today? why do we bleed when were broken? why am i kicked when im down. why can we be sad when we smile? but never happy when we frown? why does the world strive to be fake? why cant we just show whats real? in a world where bigger is better, why is it that we all must conceal? why do my words hit your earlobes so lightly, but your heart and head so strong? because these questions burn in your brain, in this time, in this world, and they have for so long.. your conscience will follow, but why will it never speak? never tell you what to do, what to say what to think, but make you feel bad at the choices you make, and the risks that you take. why does the heart know only one beat, and blue bird sing only one song? the people around you protect you.. and keep walking beside you on this web of life..until finally youve turned wrong.."
i need you here with me
wont you stay next to me
ill love you endlessly
tonight... ill take you for a ride
wont you come lay with me
ill give you everything
ill be your slave tonight...
ill take you for a ride
(chorus)
its like these warning signs around me
Cant be seen when im with you
like all that surrounds me
suddenly they hide behind you
im blind and maybe im stupid
ill let the whole world see
i just cant stand to be lonely..
i just cant stand to be me
i need to see you face
brown eyes so calm and collected
ill love you endlessly
i'll take you for a ride..
(chorus)
beat me
hide me
hold me
take me
rape me
save me
its on tonight
wont you just stop your games?
im sick of hearing names
of all the other girls
your getting with tonight
wont you just stop and see
all the happiness our life could bring
id love you endlessly
ill be your slave tonight..
(chorus)
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silver and gold
it never
gets old
im trying
to grow
to go
to places you wont go
walk alone
and come up behind me
im all that you can see
walk faster
breathing louder
and you know that you can have me if you want
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im not your average girl
im never gonna let you down
im not the girls you been with before
ill never let you down
black and blue
im falling into you
im dancing on the edge
the silence in my head
is mocking all my tones
its making me feel old
and cry all night in bed
run again
and your right behind me
stepping on the heals of my shoes
you need me just as bad as i need you
but you can have me any time you please
(chorus)
the heat is up
im sweating profusely
our bodies
collide
in teh night
all i want
is to feel right
in love
in hate
in life
its too late
ill come
ill wait
for your love
wont hesitate
all i need
is a kiss
all i need
is this fake bliss...
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2005 6 March :: 9.27am
well last night was fucked lizzy was driving dereks car around memorial and its just our luck that a cop came and stopped us and took all of our information. and on top of that the cop was dan brogans dad!! ahh!! the officer came to the window and asked me what was under my jacket (cuz i had it over my legs) and if i was naked!! wtf? hopefully nothing bad happens to lizzy or derek :-[
hum. well im bored and i need to do somethingggggggggggg
im so stressed out i need to get high, get laid and get money..
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2005 6 March :: 12.16am
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: none
fuck!!
tonight was horrable!!! so me and Manda, Derek, and Tim went to burgerking and smart us hey lets go to Memorial or however u spell it and let Lizzy drive.... bad idea.. makeign a logn story short the cops showed up and i got booked... and a nice safe ride home fromt he cops...can't want to find out if im goin to court... :-/ no good:-(
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