xpiratepunkx's Journal

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.44pm

the sky is pretty right now.

i'm going to have so many regrets when i die.

i'm never going to have that feeling again because i dont have enough time to.

i'm living my life grey's anatomy style. stop feeling sorry for yourself!

:: 2007 9 September :: 5.21pm

so fucking stupid.

:: 2007 8 September :: 3.23pm

i feel weird.

something weird happened and i'm afraid to fall asleep.

:: 2007 5 September :: 7.53pm

we moved into our new apartment and it is so cute and wonderful and big and spacious and great and i love roman and we are so happy .

and my new job is really good i am so much less stressed. i can tell my body is thankful that i got a new job. my face is totally clear and i dont feel pissed off all the time. that job was no good for me. too stressful.

i love life right now except for school. school sucks but oh well. love

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:: 2007 25 August :: 8.29pm

yay i got a new job.

at red robin in grandville! come see me.\

HOOORAY NO MORE DAYCARE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

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:: 2007 7 August :: 6.45pm

i made it into the nursing program.

my life is so incredibly crazy and stressful right now. on top of it all i hate my job that i am working 40 hours at every day. going in at 630 all week. sucks.

i sold another book online which is great but of course i can't find the cd that goes with it. wonderful. i need to go to the post office to mail it but i can't mail it until i find the cd and i can't go to the post office unless i get out of work on time and i have to return the library books but i need to go at a time when it's open beceause i need to get some more books for my report which is due in two weeks

annnnnnnnnnnd we are moving in three weeks and nothing and i mean nothing is packed or planned or anything. omg. or cleaned. ugh. no boxes. nothing ugh.

annnnnnnd we are going to ohio in two weeks and so we wont pack then.

we will never pack
we will end up throwing random belongings down the stairs and in our car . carload by carload and drive it all 5 miles to our new apartment and carry it in handfuls up our 3 flights of stairs.

gah
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and all my classes. class every day. and no time for work.

what the hell am i going to do

and my hair dind't get done today because shit got messed up so i will have ugly hair for at least a week probably more.

fuck

i'm gonna go drink all by myself. me and my cats.
we're gonna go get drunk.

:: 2007 5 August :: 10.36pm

i cannot stand my hair right now. i wish i never had cut it all off. i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is like a tiny bit longer than shoulder length and all the same length, no layers.... it is my normal color which is like dark underneath and then it gets highlights in the front from the sun or whatever and i just can't stand it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tomorrow i am making an appointment. i mean i haven't even gotten it cut since like march or something so it needs it anyway and i haven't got it dyed or anything since last year. and i dyed it myself in probably like december or something.

so i am gonna get it cut and layered but only cut a little bit because i want it to grow out so badly. and then i am dying it all the same color - a dark brown with a little bit of a copper tint and then getting coppery or carmely highlights and blonde highlights.

yes sir. can't wait. because i fricken hate my hair.

and then i am not cutting it (as in majorly cuttting it- anything besdies a trim) until my wedding. which is a long way away so my hair will be super super long. i want it to be down to the middle of my back so that i can have huge curls and big beautiful hair for my wedding.

yup sothats my plan

just had to let you all know lol.

and yeah jess i still work at the daycare and i loved it when i first started but now i can't stand it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh

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:: 2007 3 August :: 11.15pm

retarded.

ugh.

:: 2007 2 August :: 8.51pm

my banana bread i just made is in the oven baking. mmmm it smells so good.

I really have no idea what to do. Move or don't move? I dont know. we could save a lot of money but is it worth the hassle? and there is the possibility that we wont save much money if any.

i duno
gosh i have lots to say but i have no time.

i HATE my job though. seriously HATE my job

does anyone have any jobs they can offer me? i really hate my job. seriously.

gahhhhh

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:: 2007 31 July :: 10.48pm

what the f is wrong with woohu. it like never works for me anymore. i can't get to my friends page. gughghgh

:: 2007 31 July :: 10.45pm

Everything is going wrong for me right now. and i seriously can't take it right now.

i got my hopes up. i jumped the gun and i didn't even do anything to deserve that.

:: 2007 26 July :: 8.12pm

i am stressed. there are too many things going on . too many things changing. too many things "up in the air". too many things to do and too many things unsolved.

i am stressed.

oh, and my job sucks too.

:: 2007 24 July :: 9.37pm

i feel like i have to update.

overall my life is good. the things that matter to me most are good. for the most part.

i just feel like there are too many things that are still not totally right.

ughhh. i don't get it, i never have and i never will. it sucks.

i keep watching this show about fat kids. i dont get it because they aren't doing well and yet the show is still on and what i am i talking about. i have no idea.

i can't wait to move into our new apartment.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

:: 2007 11 July :: 10.19pm

i kind of don't feel safe here anymore. someone got shot in our parking lot. that is so weird. i really felt safe here and thought that we were in a ''good'' area. i mean i know we are close to 28th street and there are a lot of weirdos around but i thought that our apartments were safe and stuff. now i am suspicious of everyone i see around here and the people across from us had a letter on their door saying they had to move out by 11 am today and it was from the kent county civil department or something like that.

anyway. i have to go and i will write more about this later.

:: 2007 10 July :: 9.31pm

something is fishy................