xpiratepunkx's Journal

:: 2007 8 March :: 7.25am

it's my birthday but i have to work 9-6.

that SUCKS!

happy bday to me.

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:: 2007 6 March :: 9.13pm

apparently being a big stupid jerk is in right now. you're stupid sorry i can't get alcohol you stupid jerk. get a life. i say newsflash a lot. god i want to go smok ea cigarrette god how do youspell that? god stupid. guys are such jerks. newsflash!get a clue zara tomik is an ass.

i dont want to work on my birthday that is stupid. ughghghgh stupid. i want vodka and long island iced teas. someone bring me some.

FUCKERS. fuckers! i'm gonna freak out.

:: 2007 4 March :: 4.29pm

florida was a lot of fun. now it's time to get married.

jk.

i was going to really truly write something. perhaps even soething meaningful. but i just can't anymore i dont think. so what if I want Barack Obama to be the next president?

"There is not a liberal America and a conservative America - there is the United States of America. There is not a black America and a white America and latino America and asian America - there's the United States of America." - Barack Obama

"The pundits like to slice-and-dice our country into Red States and Blue States; Red States for Republicans, Blue States for Democrats. But I�ve got news for them, too. We worship an awesome God in the Blue States, and we don�t like federal agents poking around our libraries in the Red States. We coach Little League in the Blue States and have gay friends in the Red States. There are patriots who opposed the war in Iraq and patriots who supported it. We are one people, all of us pledging allegiance to the stars and stripes.� - Barack Obama

:: 2007 22 February :: 4.12pm

yay some good things:

i got 91% in my health care law and ethics class. IT'S OVER!! because it's an accelerated class so its all done. yay

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd

tomorrow i'm going to florida with jessie G.!!!!! yayyyyyy i'm so esssittttedddd.

yay yay yay hot and saucy fun in the sun! woo!

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:: 2007 16 February :: 10.28pm

seriously what did i do that was so wrong.

ugh i am fat and i want to lose weight but yeah i never will. i like food too much and its too cold to run and i wont do anything else. god i am pissed off. pissed of at you for not being my friend. pissed off at you for not talking to me, and pissed off at the world for sucking so much.
i need some friends.

yeah but at least i got the day care job.

ugh.

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:: 2007 14 February :: 9.41pm

all i know is she best stay away from MY flower. bitch.

:: 2007 13 February :: 9.30pm

how'd i know it was too good to be true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blown off once again. just like always.

:: 2007 12 February :: 12.46pm

me and my homie and best friend in the entire world Jess Hazen (Pappy) are SO going to Florida, SO staying at my parent's BRAND NEW HOUSE, SO gonna use their BRAND NEW POOL AND JACUZZI and SO gonna get to drive their BRAND NEW MALIBU (with extra care of course) and SO gonna go get our tan on in florida on the beach.

yayayyayayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. okay i am super excited because we both never get to do stuff like this!!! yayyyyyy febuary 23rd!!! hooray bitches!~!!!#@$!@#%!

is it weird that my spring break starts on feb 23??? weird huh? everybody else's i think is later. what is everyone else doing for spring break?

:: 2007 12 February :: 8.21am

yeah i'm pretty sure i'm gonna fail this test.

...hmmm...

oh well!!

:: 2007 10 February :: 10.24pm

i am so pissed!!!!!!!!!!

I have an online class and we had to write a paper and we had to send in the draft yesterday. Well it is worth 75 points and I got my grade on it today and my teacher gave TEN out of 75. The reason for that is that she says that she put my paper through turnitin.com and she says it "came back with a big red spot" whatever the fuck that means. She says 90% of my paper is "directly from the internet"

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!??!? Anything that I copied is QUOTED and cited. She is full of shit and i am so fucking pissed that she is trusting a stuipd computer site saying that I fucking plagiarized!!! She says that I have to redo the whole assignment. Has anyone else ever been accused of plagiarizing when they really didnt?!?!?!

I am so pissed. I need my grades to be kept up or I will lose my scholarship. I am so angry right now. I wrote my professor an email and I told her how mad I was and that I DID NOT plagiaize . I know that she and most professors use that website and i'm not that stupid to copy shit.

GOD I AM SO MAD. has anyone else had this happen? Please tell me.

:: 2007 9 February :: 2.48pm

okay okay i'll fucking admit it already. i'm not happy i fucking hate myself i want to quit school and i swear to god i want nothing more than to move to a different country. ANY different country. anywhere. i just want to GO AWAY. for a very very long time and i dont want to have to worry about money ever again.

i am fucking going in sane and i am about to sanp. to put it lightly.

i have got to get out ofhere.

:: 2007 8 February :: 8.33pm

beauty
What is it that makes us pretty anyway? Why are one sort of looks more appealing than another?
I don't get it I guess.

I cut my bangs. I just went away chopping and now I have more bangs and a new style going on with my hair and I enjoy it. Yay for me for not effing them up.

I have to figure out how I'm going to quit Beaners. I told one of the girls I work with today that I was quitting because I have a hard time keeping secrets about myself. I can keep other peoples' secrets but not my own. She says Louis wont care that much and not to worry. But I think everyone is going to hate me and I'm scared to quit.

But I'm SO excited that I am going to work at Kindercare. I met with Heather, the director yesterday and she said I will work in the infant or toddler room YAY. Babies!! I love them.

Tomorrow I work at 5:30 am to 12. Bleh. I don't want to get up that fucking early. Stupid. Oh well.

I have a paper due tomorrow. 7 pages and I haven't started it.

Blehhhhh. My apartment smells. I'm not sure if it's Roman or if I need to take out the trash.

haha, I kid. I know it's the trash. I really need to take that out... hmm.. but the snow.. and it's a long walk .. and ... and... it's dark...and i dont want to.

I wish I was a millionaire. I do I do I do.

When the lease is up me and roman might live with people of our own sexes for a change. We don't know if we should be living together because then when we get married... it will feel like nothing has changed... You know? We'd get back from the honeymoon and go back to our same life. And we don't want that. I duno. And part of me really wants to live with jess and maybe some chicks. I duno. At the same time I love living with roman and I would hate to think of the people he would live with. guhhhhhh it makes me cringe to think of it. Well, i mean. only one person i am thinking of. i dont know who else he'd live with.

anyway. gosh i'm writing a novel. i want to lose weight. i have not bought "my" little debbie brownies (aka my favorite food ever in the entire world ever) in like a month. Yes, feel free to congratulate me. Seriously, there was a time ( like 2/3 months ago) that it was like if I didn't have my brownie that day, I couldn't function. sick . so i just try to think about how gross they really are in reality. so processed and rich and sugarry and all ... packaged and stuff. stop eating them. So I resist.

I can't wait for grey's anatomy. The good thinga bout working so early is that I can see grey's. lol.

And the daycare closes at 6 so i wil never have to miss Grey's ever ever again.

What do I want to do with my life?

I want to travel to tons of countries before I die. I want 15 minutes of (good) fame. I want to live comfortably and I want a perfect family.

If I named my kid Paja would I be a horrible mother? I like that name. Pajha maybe? Paja as in "Pay-sha" well kinda. i dont know how to spell the last part. ja . jha. like how in austin powers they say faja. it's like that. lol paja. I duno. I'm werid. I want my kids to have original names because I always hated how a million people had my same name.

Someone leave me a comment puhlease.

Goodnight children.

-Jessica michele

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:: 2007 7 February :: 1.26pm

i dont want to go to school.

bleeeh i think i have to give a speech today. i'm not even sure.

i'm so mad at myself because i was really scared of the test i had to take today and then before i handed it in, i cahnged one of my answeres and it would have been right if i had just left it as it was. ughghghgh! i hate that feeling.

i wish i could just be a tall skinny model on the janice dickenson show and never have to go to school again. but only models on that show because they dont seem really bitchy.

i'm sick of people stealing money from me and roman

realy fucking sick of it!!!

we had plans for that you stupid bitches. we had plans for all that money and now it's gone. stop stealing our money.

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:: 2007 6 February :: 1.28pm

ughghghghghghhghg all i can say is

shut up!!!

:: 2007 2 February :: 4.26pm

so i just got a job at kindercare i think. wow i interviewed there WAY back in december so i am excited. they will pay more than beaners and i can have more hours if i want. i feel bad because i really liked beaners but maybe i can somehow work at both places... ehh i duno! i feel so bad they are all gonna hate me there and i really liked them

but i guess here i need to pack a list of pros and cons

Pros of Beaners:
nice people
work at 6-2 so i have my whole day to do whatever
easy
close at 9 so i get home early
nice schedule
i love coffee and get 1/2 off
it's like a two minute drive to get there

Cons of Beaners:
Louis makes me nervous
boring
i dont like working with food!!!!
not good pay
getting up way early kinda sucks
i HATE wearing a uniform like that. black pants, black belt, black shoes and orange shirt.
i can't wear earrings, jewerly, not even my ring, and NO NAIL POLISH

Pros of working at Kindercare:
they have something where if you are going to school for child care or like early childhood dev. they will pay for you tuition so if i decide to switch i could do that and if you do that then you can get a job at kindercare as like a manager or whatever
more pay
more hours if i want
dont have to work weekends
i think they close at like 6... so i wouldn't be there late
WORKING WITH LITTLE KIDS!!! and hopefully BABIES!!! YAY that is the OBVIOUS BEST THING ABOUT IT!!!!
friendly people!!!- heather , the manager or whatever is really really nice
BABIES, agian. but for real, i LOVE THEM it makes my heart melt just thinking about how i will be able to feed them their bottles and rock them to sleep!!!
Feel like i am teaching and helping kids instead of just providing customer service or coffee lol
dont have to work with food except snack time and lunch time lol
not a very strict uniform policy

Cons of working at Kindercare:
loud annoying kids sometimes
further drive
more physical work so it might be tiring
maybe not as flexible of a schedule??? but again, not sat or sun

okay so it looks like kindercare is a better option lol. ahh i just wanna work with babies!! maybe i'll try to keep both for a while and make sure i like kindercare but that might be hard to do but i can do it.

yay!!