xpiratepunkx's Journal

:: 2005 17 November :: 1.42pm

yeah okay cool people are so important. i must know everything about "them"

f ucking dumb.

:: 2005 15 November :: 11.40pm

ugh
i want to go back

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:: 2005 15 November :: 1.40pm

Gunnie, i think we're doing a page in yearbook about online journals and stuff and i was wondering if i can interview you sometime. maybe we could also incorporate some hanging out time into that. cooooooool.
let me know buddy

:: 2005 15 November :: 7.51am

So i kinda forgot about how i said you wouldn't see me ever again so look stupid me i forgot to run away. i would totally go right now but i have to babysit after school anyway which is totally stupid.
I don't know if i'll be able to take anymore of life.
what do you have to offer because i dont know if i want it.

F uck this stupid place and everything else. i think i want out k.

:: 2005 14 November :: 3.35pm

number one: I definetely totally and completely love Roman and
number two: I DEF TOTALLY HATE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL FUCKING HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mugggggggggggggawereereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee does anyone love me? because i'm running away and living with roman forever and you wont ever see me again so say goodbye loves.

:: 2005 9 November :: 4.17pm

why do you have to be such a jerk about nothing? i do a lot okay.

why do we both have to be jerks like all the fricken time?

:: 2005 9 November :: 8.31am

You took away the one thing I felt okay at. You took everything I thought I'd earned. Obviously none of it mattered, but it mattered to me. You're a biased pig and I hope you regret it. That's why I'm not there. And you act like everything is okay. It's not . You're an idiot.

I hate being here. This year of school is entirely pointless to me. There is probably one class I feel might be beneficial to me. The rest are just junk to fill up my schedule. And not that they are easy classes, they aren't. But they sure are junk. They are complete crap. The teacher has no idea what they are talking about and it is a total waste of my time. I hate being taught by someone who you know is dumber than you in certain areas. That should never be a teacher. Go back to college or something because I don't want to waste my time listening to your babble. Like you know anything. You don't. I could easily learn more by just reading the book without ever having to see your face or hear your pointless voice. I am counting down the days until I am out of here. I can't wait. And it's not even like that. I just want to feel like I'm not wasting my time.

I want to go with you. This place is ridiculous.

:: 2005 8 November :: 8.37am

i am so happy. my GPA has gone up a lot and also H hasn't even changed my fricken grade yet so things will be even better. i got an A on my last chemistry test and yeah well that makes me super happy. i hate school but i'm not sucking at it.
score.

oh and last night was so fun and great. LOOOOOVE YOU

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:: 2005 8 November :: 8.31am

I decided I'm going to do everything in my power. I talked to Jalyn and she's right. I need to do what I need to do. I don't think I'll regret it.

I hate being here. I want to be with you.

scholarships....?

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:: 2005 7 November :: 1.54pm

just a little word to the unwise!!!

shut up!

because you obviously don't know anything. jerk.

:: 2005 4 November :: 4.04pm

anything else that can make me feel more miserable? come on fucking bring it you are so stupid seriously like i wish i could wish you away and you definetely. i dont kno w

:: 2005 4 November :: 3.58pm

i have had the worst day ever god i've been bawling my eyes out for an hour now and earlier today too god fucking stupid ass shit and i am not going to school anymore i fucking refuse. it is so pointless and stupid. i haven't had this bad of a day since roman and i broke up for 4 days in the summer.

seriously i've never felt so completely miserable and FUCKING useless. there's fuckign nothing anymore and if a cliff suddenly appeared in cedar i'd be the first one jumping off it
i fucking can't take it anymore

fucking use some fucking common senese

and i haTEHALEK J HAWELKTJLKAWEJTLK J HATEE HATEH AH AETHEHAHATE you . god dammita

:: 2005 4 November :: 10.07am

today is such a bad day. why'd i ever believe i could be any better than what i am.

faslkdfj that

:: 2005 4 November :: 7.01am

i'm sooooo scared

bet you'd never guess what i'm scared about.

:: 2005 3 November :: 10.27pm

TEN YEARS AGO I... seven and chubby and even more annoying then i am now.

FIVE YEARS AGO I WAS: 12... and finally getting not as fat and into stuff......yeah

ONE YEAR AGO I WAS: with roman...he had moved out for us so we could see each other more.

YESTERDAY I WAS: baby sitting and then went to bed at 7:30

FIVE SNACKS I ENJOY:
1. ice cream
2. chocolate
3. animal crackers
4. umm
5. oreos

FIVE SONGS I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO:

1. ben folds the luckiest
2. third eye blind motorcycle drive by
3. kelly clarkson anytime
4. you know
5. yeah that one

FIVE THINGS I WOULD DO WITH 100 MILLION DOLLARS:

1. be SO much less worried about my future
2. buy a nice house
3. marry
4. give my kids wonderful lives
5. not go to work probably

FIVE BAD HABITS:

1. worrying
2. asking too many questions apparently
3. being easily angered or annoyed
4. swearing
5. procrastinating

FIVE BIGGEST JOYS:

1. roman
2. jess
3. sleep
4. feeling safe
5.feeling like i look good/fine

FIVE FAVORITE TOYS:

1. piano?
2.
3.
4.
5.

FIVE PLACES I WOULD RUN AWAY TO:

1. ROMAN

FIVE THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR:

1. 80's shit
2. leggings
3. i udno

TEN FAVORITE TV SHOWS:

1. family guy?
2.
3. home movies?
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

FIVE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS I WOULD DATE:

1. i really dont watch tv so i duno
2.
3.
4.
5.

FIVE PET PEEVES:

1.MEAN people
2. bad grammer
3. when i must listen or follow orders or be taught by people are dumber than myself.
4. a COLLEGE BOY ...eta;fksdj
5. when people trreat their waitress i.e. me , like crap

fucekrs roni