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2005 5 June :: 12.56 pm
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Draw on it, fools.
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2005 5 June :: 10.18 am
:: Mood: Tired and depressed.
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- Again I Go Unnoticed
Another sleepless night.
I don't know how I can deal with this.
It hurts so bad...
Why can't I just...
Know what I want.
For once in my life?
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2005 3 June :: 5.11 pm
Revelations-
They're beautiful.
And they hurt so much.
I've realized, that this is not working,
For either of us.
And it hurts like hell, but I know it's not going to last.
We're both too young
To be so serious about this.
I do still love him.
But sometimes loving someone,
Isn't just being a couple.
It's doing what's best for the person,
No matter what.
Ever since he left, it's like...
There's this big, empty gap in my chest-
Gay, I know.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this,
Or what I'm going to do...
I feel nauseated.
It happens when I get really upset.
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2005 2 June :: 10.41 pm
:: Mood: Crushed.
:: Music: My Chemical Romance- Helena
*sigh*
Sadly, once again...
I succeeded in being the faggot,
Who sat in the corner.
Not talking.
I apologize for everything wrong I've done.
To any and all of you.
And I apologize for being so desolate and quiet.
I just haven't really been myself lately.
Or maybe I've just been my old self.
The Dana I used to be.
The Dana I hated.
The Dana that everyone hated.
I'm not very fond of change,
And I'm afraid that things may never be the same again.
I miss everyone.
I miss having more than three real friends;
Friends I actually spend time with and see regularly.
Who knows...
Maybe this is just me being an angsty teen.
This time, I doubt it.
Everything has just fallen apart so fast.
I hate not being able to change things.
I really do.
Cameron, thank you for trying to talk to me.
I appreciate it so much. It really means a lot to me.
I hope maybe some day,
Things can go back to how they used to be.
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2005 31 May :: 8.48 pm
:: Mood: Mediocre.
:: Music: Flogging Molly- Drunken Lullabyes
Slurp.
Well, last night/today was pretty good.
I spent the night with Aisha and Keely...
It was pretty fun.
Then I slept on the floor. Ha.
We got up, and Aisha made me breakfast. =)
Then, we came to my house for a while.
After a while, we went and got Andrew, and went to the mall.
Where we found Derrek, who was just getting off work.
So we hung out with him.
He's crazy. Heh. It's so funny.
Well, the mall got boring after a while.
So we all piled in the car, and went to my house.
Where we hung out for a while.
And then Andrew had to leave. ='(
So we're sitting here, listening to music.
And everyone's about to leave.
I'm starting to get used to summer.
--- Oh yeah. And, uh, about my last post... Still comment on it. I'll make a post on it like tomorrow or something. =)
I take it back.
Summer sucks.
Because I'm just a shitty friend
Who never does anything right.
I knew it'd happen like this...
I'd lose touch with people,
And someone's feelings would get hurt.
And now I'm a bad guy.
*sigh*
♥
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