Jealousy, turning saints into the sea...
So I'm not really sure why I just sit here... Caring so damn much about people, knowing I obviously don't mean too much to them.

I mean, every day, I walk on eggshells, trying to make sure I don't do anything to upset anyone... And whenever someone does something to upset me, I just let it slide by. As I'm sure I have said before, I'm just too fucking forgiving.

I don't know why all of this hurts so much...

I'm not sure why the little things upset me, either.

I'm just really fragile... And so much shit has happened lately... I just don't know how to deal with it really. I'm sure I'm not really making sense, but this is all just what's coming to my mind...

I'm so scared, since he's so far away... Some perfect girl is just going to walk into his life and sweep him off his feet... And he'll go back to his old lifestyle... And I'll just fade into nothnig and be forgotten.

I don't know why it bothers me so much... The things he does... (Or used to do, moreso...) It makes him happy, but it fucking tears me apart... I just don't want him to fall apart.

I don't want us to fall apart.

I love him so much... And this just keeps getting harder and harder.


Living my life's not hard enough. Take everything away.


It just goes to show, things can't go right.

The End.

Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray.
Meh... Keely and Aisha are here. That makes me happy...

But I feel kinda down... I'm not sure why, really... Actually, I'm pretty sure I know why, but I don't want to say, because it's really dumb and selfish...

:/ I miss John so much... It sucks.

I guess that's just life for you.

I love you, sweetheart...
If you even read this anymore...

Man you gon' getta brain freeze!
So, I guess it has been an okay weekend so far.

After school yesterday, Aisha came over, and we hung out for a while... Then we went over to her house for Keely's birthday party, which wasn't too good. There were quite a few people who I don't like there... (Whom I won't mention, because I am not sure who reads this anymore... Apparently, more people than I think.) But, yeah... Andrew Hadden is one cool kid. He is totally coming to my birthday party. He's funny... And he gives really good presents. (That is not supposed to be taken the wrong way, either.) I spent the night with them... Then, this morning, we came back to my house... We went to the mall... A little black kid made my day. ^_^ ...Hung out with Randy and Stef some. It was much fun. Played some DDR. (Oh yeah, sk1lz.) And now Keely and Aisha are spending the night... So yeah, I'll update later. I'm trying to get out of church in the morning... But I missed last week, so I doubt it. ): *sniffle*

Later.

<333The Almighty Dana

PS-- I miss John. ):