:: 2006 27 August :: 6.18 pm

i fell farther every day this summer.
for the first time in my life, i'm in a real relationship,
with no distance or anything that could ruin it.

school starts back tomorrow.
i'm crying.
i'm stupid.


it's not like i'm never going to see him again.

oh comely...

:: 2006 25 August :: 12.34 pm
:: Mood: contemplative

if you really did love me more than anyone else in the world...

you wouldn't let a(n) asshole/douche bag/shit head/dick/jerk/mother fucker/wigger/pot head who thinks he's better than everybody else take you away from me.

and yes, i forgive you. people change, i understand that. people get caught up in things, i understand that as well. just as of now, i don't want you to think i'm going to sit around thinking things are how they used to be, or even okay. i'm sure they can be, eventually. when you're done letting that asshole treat you like shit and walk all over you.

i can't promise that when you're ready to be yourself again there will be some fucking gumdrop-fairy-unicorn land recovery.
(although there very likely could be, considering the kind of people we are.)

i still love you, carly. you'll always be my favourite person. you'll always be in my life. (there is no escaping me, mwahaha.) i'll always be able to come to you when i need you (unless you're with douche man.) and i hope you'll be able to come to me, too. i know you're sad. that's not you. carly is not a sad person. do what it takes to make yourself happy.

if it's staying with an asshole just so you have someone to hold on to, do that i guess.
but if it's breaking up with him and catching shit for it, deal with the shit. then get over it.

you only have one year left here, how do you want to spend it?

2 carrot flowers | oh comely...

:: 2006 23 August :: 6.16 pm
:: Mood: apathetic.

my mom tried to run over me yesterday.

i'm wondering why i don't care.

1 carrot flower | oh comely...

:: 2006 16 August :: 1.50 pm

yesterday scared me.
i felt... distance.

but as the night went on, it went away.
he never ceases to amaze me.

little things make me happy.
like his mom giving me cap erasers.
and bringing in his baby pictures.

i love him.

...
this is totally off subject.
but i'm looking out of my window at all the people zooming around in their boats...

it's prettier when the boats aren't there.

i want them to crash into eachother.

1 carrot flower | oh comely...

:: 2006 15 August :: 12.33 pm

my friend and i are trying to get our photos on jones soda bottles.
you could vote if you'd like, it would make me happy.

[mine.]
[mine.]
[mine.]


[aisha's]
[aisha's]

2 carrot flowers | oh comely...